Chapter 10
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"It's not your fault, Luke." I said softly as I looked at him.
It was never his fault.
He knew that I would keep on telling him that it wasn't his fault that's why he just gave up and sighed. "You should sleep now, Violet."
"Promise not to leave me even if I fall asleep."
He would definitely leave me alone once I fell asleep. To be honest, it scares me to know that I might have the same nightmare and I'll wake up alone in this dark room again.
"Okay. I won't leave even when you fall asleep."
I moved away from him and put a space beside me. "Then lie down beside me."
In this world, the only men I can trust are my father and Luke. They are my family and I know they won't do anything to hurt me.
"Are you sure?" Luke seems to be hesitant.
I nodded, I am.
He looked troubled but he ended up laying down beside me. He turned and faced me as he held my hand firmly. "Now sleep."
I held back his hand and stared at his eyes for a while. His eyes are blue right now. Luke's eyes would only turn red if he's in his ogre form eh?
Although even if Luke's eyes were back to blue, it's still beautiful; kind of similar to the ocean.
"Violet. I said sleep" He said sternly.
"Luke... I am honestly afraid right now."
The expression on his face changed. "You don't have to be afraid, I'm here."
"I know. It's just… I'm afraid that if I fall back to sleep, I'll have the same dream all over again."
The similarity, the horror of the past and the present scares me.
I feel teary once again as I recall what happened at those times. I closed my eyes instead.
"E-Every night I keep on having nightmares about it... I couldn't sleep afterwards, and I would only fall asleep when my eyes grew tired. Tonight, my nightmare was at its worst. I cried and tried calling for help, but no one came. That scared me, that's why I planned on sleeping together with daddy tonight. I know that he'll be my refuge against my nightmares, because he heard me when I needed him. He was there."
I don't know what kind of face Luke was making since my eyes were closed as I felt my tears flowing down. I was afraid to see the look on Luke's eyes.
"I feel disgusting. Filthy. I couldn't help but feel bad about myself whenever I wake up from those nightmares."
I suddenly felt a warm caress on my cheek. It was Luke's hand, gently wiping off my tears.
"You are not disgusting or filthy, Violet. No matter what happens, you are still purest in my eyes. The way I see you will never change just because of a tragedy such as that."
I opened my eyes and saw how gentle his gaze was towards me. No shade of disgust or pity is seen in his eyes.
I don't want to be pitied because of what happened to me. I felt sick whenever I see how the maids look at me, or my friends back there in the world I belonged. It made me feel more ashamed of myself. But the look he was showing right now was different, it wasn't the same look the majority flashes on me.
He was looking straight in my eyes with those clear blue eyes of his.
At that very moment I couldn't stop crying anymore. I cried as loud as possible, echoing throughout the room.
I've always wanted to hear those words. I've always wanted someone to look me straight in the eyes without pitying me.
"Come here." He pulled me in his arms and hugged me close.
I felt him gently caressing my head as he continued comforting me. The way he hugged me gave the same feeling my father would give when he hugged me that night. It made me feel safe and secure.
I didn't know how long I cried but it really helped me lessen the burden I feel inside me. After a few minutes, or hours of crying, I felt my body weak and my eyes felt so salty.
"All men are monsters." I said, although my voice cracked in the end. "Except Daddy and Luke."
He leaned back and wiped my face with the blanket. "Crying doesn't suit you, you know."
I pouted, "I don't care!"
I heard him chuckle as he tucks some strands of my hair behind my ear.
"Although Luke is an ogre but Luke is more human than human themselves."
My voice was weak due to crying earlier but that didn't stop me from talking. Later on, I felt sleepy because of my salty eyes.
"I noticed You stopped calling me big brother"
"Ah... Did I?"
"Mm."
"How rude of me.. I'm sorry brother..." I apologized before I yawned and closed my eyes.
I want to sleep now. I felt better after releasing my thoughts out.
"It's okay, I don't mind. You can stop calling me your brother."
So sleepy.
"Mm... brother Luke" I mumbled.
I heard him saying something but I couldn't understand it well since I was now drifting off to sleep. I felt something soft and warm on my forehead, it was really comforting too...
----
I didn't have a nightmare that night that's why I started asking Luke to accompany me every night. I spent summer with him and my dad.
Summer was well spent, aside from that incident. From time to time we would usually build sand castles or swim on the sea for fun.
I stayed in the summer villa for about eight years. I celebrated all my birthdays there with my father and Luke only due to my request.
I didn't want to have a lot of people I don't know celebrating my birthday. How about Alyn? My father tried breaking off the engagement with him but failed because he was against a royalty.
Why can't Alyn let me off? Sigh.
As much as possible, I don't want to face other men but that couldn't be helped right? My family's strength was due to connections with other households, especially the royal family. However, this time, I am aware on who to deal with and how to interact with them so that I can secure myself.
Luke and I returned to the main family house in the middle of the year. I'm 13 years old now while Luke was 15. It was about time for him to enter the Rosse Magical Academy since he's in the right age. He'll be staying in the dorm since all students are required to do so. I won't be able to see my beloved brother for a long while.
I still have to wait two more years before I can enter that Academy. Two more years before I can meet the MC who would, apparently, cause my death.
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"It's not your fault, Luke." I said softly as I looked at him.
It was never his fault.
He knew that I would keep on telling him that it wasn't his fault that's why he just gave up and sighed. "You should sleep now, Violet."
"Promise not to leave me even if I fall asleep."
He would definitely leave me alone once I fell asleep. To be honest, it scares me to know that I might have the same nightmare and I'll wake up alone in this dark room again.
"Okay. I won't leave even when you fall asleep."
I moved away from him and put a space beside me. "Then lie down beside me."
In this world, the only men I can trust are my father and Luke. They are my family and I know they won't do anything to hurt me.
"Are you sure?" Luke seems to be hesitant.
I nodded, I am.
He looked troubled but he ended up laying down beside me. He turned and faced me as he held my hand firmly. "Now sleep."
I held back his hand and stared at his eyes for a while. His eyes are blue right now. Luke's eyes would only turn red if he's in his ogre form eh?
Although even if Luke's eyes were back to blue, it's still beautiful; kind of similar to the ocean.
"Violet. I said sleep" He said sternly.
"Luke... I am honestly afraid right now."
The expression on his face changed. "You don't have to be afraid, I'm here."
"I know. It's just… I'm afraid that if I fall back to sleep, I'll have the same dream all over again."
The similarity, the horror of the past and the present scares me.
I feel teary once again as I recall what happened at those times. I closed my eyes instead.
"E-Every night I keep on having nightmares about it... I couldn't sleep afterwards, and I would only fall asleep when my eyes grew tired. Tonight, my nightmare was at its worst. I cried and tried calling for help, but no one came. That scared me, that's why I planned on sleeping together with daddy tonight. I know that he'll be my refuge against my nightmares, because he heard me when I needed him. He was there."
I don't know what kind of face Luke was making since my eyes were closed as I felt my tears flowing down. I was afraid to see the look on Luke's eyes.
"I feel disgusting. Filthy. I couldn't help but feel bad about myself whenever I wake up from those nightmares."
I suddenly felt a warm caress on my cheek. It was Luke's hand, gently wiping off my tears.
"You are not disgusting or filthy, Violet. No matter what happens, you are still purest in my eyes. The way I see you will never change just because of a tragedy such as that."
I opened my eyes and saw how gentle his gaze was towards me. No shade of disgust or pity is seen in his eyes.
I don't want to be pitied because of what happened to me. I felt sick whenever I see how the maids look at me, or my friends back there in the world I belonged. It made me feel more ashamed of myself. But the look he was showing right now was different, it wasn't the same look the majority flashes on me.
He was looking straight in my eyes with those clear blue eyes of his.
At that very moment I couldn't stop crying anymore. I cried as loud as possible, echoing throughout the room.
I've always wanted to hear those words. I've always wanted someone to look me straight in the eyes without pitying me.
"Come here." He pulled me in his arms and hugged me close.
I felt him gently caressing my head as he continued comforting me. The way he hugged me gave the same feeling my father would give when he hugged me that night. It made me feel safe and secure.
I didn't know how long I cried but it really helped me lessen the burden I feel inside me. After a few minutes, or hours of crying, I felt my body weak and my eyes felt so salty.
"All men are monsters." I said, although my voice cracked in the end. "Except Daddy and Luke."
He leaned back and wiped my face with the blanket. "Crying doesn't suit you, you know."
I pouted, "I don't care!"
I heard him chuckle as he tucks some strands of my hair behind my ear.
"Although Luke is an ogre but Luke is more human than human themselves."
My voice was weak due to crying earlier but that didn't stop me from talking. Later on, I felt sleepy because of my salty eyes.
"I noticed You stopped calling me big brother"
"Ah... Did I?"
"Mm."
"How rude of me.. I'm sorry brother..." I apologized before I yawned and closed my eyes.
I want to sleep now. I felt better after releasing my thoughts out.
"It's okay, I don't mind. You can stop calling me your brother."
So sleepy.
"Mm... brother Luke" I mumbled.
I heard him saying something but I couldn't understand it well since I was now drifting off to sleep. I felt something soft and warm on my forehead, it was really comforting too...
----
I didn't have a nightmare that night that's why I started asking Luke to accompany me every night. I spent summer with him and my dad.
Summer was well spent, aside from that incident. From time to time we would usually build sand castles or swim on the sea for fun.
I stayed in the summer villa for about eight years. I celebrated all my birthdays there with my father and Luke only due to my request.
I didn't want to have a lot of people I don't know celebrating my birthday. How about Alyn? My father tried breaking off the engagement with him but failed because he was against a royalty.
Why can't Alyn let me off? Sigh.
As much as possible, I don't want to face other men but that couldn't be helped right? My family's strength was due to connections with other households, especially the royal family. However, this time, I am aware on who to deal with and how to interact with them so that I can secure myself.
Luke and I returned to the main family house in the middle of the year. I'm 13 years old now while Luke was 15. It was about time for him to enter the Rosse Magical Academy since he's in the right age. He'll be staying in the dorm since all students are required to do so. I won't be able to see my beloved brother for a long while.
I still have to wait two more years before I can enter that Academy. Two more years before I can meet the MC who would, apparently, cause my death.
"It's not your fault, Luke." I said softly as I looked at him. It was never his fault. He knew that I would keep on telling him that it wasn't his fault that's why he just gave up and sighed. "You should sleep now, Violet." "Promise not to leave me even if I fall asleep." He would definitely leave me alone once I fell asleep. To be honest, it scares me to know that I might have the same nightmare and I'll wake up alone in this dark room again. "Okay. I won't leave even when you fall asleep." I moved away from him and put a space beside me. "Then lie down beside me." In this world, the only men I can trust are my father and Luke. They are my family and I know they won't do anything to hurt me. "Are you sure?" Luke seems to be hesitant. I nodded, I am. He looked troubled but he ended up laying down beside me. He turned and faced me as he held my hand firmly. "Now sleep." I held back his hand and stared at his eyes for a while. His eyes are blue right now. Luke's eyes would only turn red if he's in his ogre form eh? Although even if Luke's eyes were back to blue, it's still beautiful; kind of similar to the ocean. "Violet. I said sleep" He said sternly. "Luke... I am honestly afraid right now." The expression on his face changed. "You don't have to be afraid, I'm here." "I know. It's just I'm afraid that if I fall back to sleep, I'll have the same dream all over again." The similarity, the horror of the past and the present scares me. I feel teary once again as I recall what happened at those times. I closed my eyes instead. "E-Every night I keep on having nightmares about it... I couldn't sleep afterwards, and I would only fall asleep when my eyes grew tired. Tonight, my nightmare was at its worst. I cried and tried calling for help, but no one came. That scared me, that's why I planned on sleeping together with daddy tonight. I know that he'll be my refuge against my nightmares, because he heard me when I needed him. He was there." I don't know what kind of face Luke was making since my eyes were closed as I felt my tears flowing down. I was afraid to see the look on Luke's eyes. "I feel disgusting. Filthy. I couldn't help but feel bad about myself whenever I wake up from those nightmares." I suddenly felt a warm caress on my cheek. It was Luke's hand, gently wiping off my tears. "You are not disgusting or filthy, Violet. No matter what happens, you are still purest in my eyes. The way I see you will never change just because of a tragedy such as that." I opened my eyes and saw how gentle his gaze was towards me. No shade of disgust or pity is seen in his eyes. I don't want to be pitied because of what happened to me. I felt sick whenever I see how the maids look at me, or my friends back there in the world I belonged. It made me feel more ashamed of myself. But the look he was showing right now was different, it wasn't the same look the majority flashes on me. He was looking straight in my eyes with those clear blue eyes of his. At that very moment I couldn't stop crying anymore. I cried as loud as possible, echoing throughout the room. I've always wanted to hear those words. I've always wanted someone to look me straight in the eyes without pitying me. "Come here." He pulled me in his arms and hugged me close. I felt him gently caressing my head as he continued comforting me. The way he hugged me gave the same feeling my father would give when he hugged me that night. It made me feel safe and secure. I didn't know how long I cried but it really helped me lessen the burden I feel inside me. After a few minutes, or hours of crying, I felt my body weak and my eyes felt so salty. "All men are monsters." I said, although my voice cracked in the end. "Except Daddy and Luke." He leaned back and wiped my face with the blanket. "Crying doesn't suit you, you know." I pouted, "I don't care!" I heard him chuckle as he tucks some strands of my hair behind my ear. "Although Luke is an ogre but Luke is more human than human themselves." My voice was weak due to crying earlier but that didn't stop me from talking. Later on, I felt sleepy because of my salty eyes. "I noticed You stopped calling me big brother" "Ah... Did I?" "Mm." "How rude of me.. I'm sorry brother..." I apologized before I yawned and closed my eyes. I want to sleep now. I felt better after releasing my thoughts out. "It's okay, I don't mind. You can stop calling me your brother." So sleepy. "Mm... brother Luke" I mumbled. I heard him saying something but I couldn't understand it well since I was now drifting off to sleep. I felt something soft and warm on my forehead, it was really comforting too... ---- I didn't have a nightmare that night that's why I started asking Luke to accompany me every night. I spent summer with him and my dad. Summer was well spent, aside from that incident. From time to time we would usually build sand castles or swim on the sea for fun. I stayed in the summer villa for about eight years. I celebrated all my birthdays there with my father and Luke only due to my request. I didn't want to have a lot of people I don't know celebrating my birthday. How about Alyn? My father tried breaking off the engagement with him but failed because he was against a royalty. Why can't Alyn let me off? Sigh. As much as possible, I don't want to face other men but that couldn't be helped right? My family's strength was due to connections with other households, especially the royal family. However, this time, I am aware on who to deal with and how to interact with them so that I can secure myself. Luke and I returned to the main family house in the middle of the year. I'm 13 years old now while Luke was 15. It was about time for him to enter the Rosse Magical Academy since he's in the right age. He'll be staying in the dorm since all students are required to do so. I won't be able to see my beloved brother for a long while. I still have to wait two more years before I can enter that Academy. Two more years before I can meet the MC who would, apparently, cause my death.
