Izan is someone who’s under a lot of pain. Every day he wakes up with pain and late at night, he endures the pain and falls asleep. Izan is someone who wishes for to die as he can’t seem to keep up with the pain he is under.
Suicide was an alternative which Izan wouldn’t commit as he knew that it would have pained his family more than he could have imagined. Day after day, Izan tried his best to endure for his family.
Izan did also have a wish, a wish that strong which allowed Izan to continue forward until his breaking point. One day, Izan was allowed to seek for his wish in the vast universe.