After returning to my room, my heart grew heavy for some reason as I looked at the 2 heavy steel swords on the rack.
There wasn’t much time to waste but I still sat on the bed and picked up the fan that I had kept at my bedside and sank into thought.
Who am I?
At the very least, I know I’m not that Liu Bei, and I’m just an ordinary person.
When met with dangerous scenarios, how should a normal person like myself deal with them? What are my responsibilities and how much of a duty do I have to the world? I’ve come this far just by going with the flow but what is the best way to proceed from now on?
I’ve always pondered about these problems but I’ve never been able to reach an answer. Unfortunately, I still don’t have an answer nor do I expect to ever find one.
I think that my only choice is to deal with things as they come.
History is cruel and I don’t have the confidence I can change its course. But even if it’s just a small diversion, I want to try.
I put on my armour and hung my swords by my waist before exiting the room, and saw Yun Chang waiting for me outside. I looked at Yun Chang’s stern and elegant fave and nodded.
“Is big brother ready?”
“Ah, I’m ready.” I raised my head and looked at the night sky before nodding once more.
That’s right, we are going on the attack.
“Though Imperial Chancellor Cao has surrounded Xu state city, Imperial Uncle can attack the camps on the perimeter under the cover of darkness and break out of the surround.” Chen Deng said this afternoon, “But the Imperial Chancellor is a skilled tactician so the success of this plan is up to the heavens.”
Un… 50-50 huh… I did not feel confident at all, and unwittingly felt the 2 swords at my waist.
“Where’s Yi De?”
“She’s already gone over to the troops and started making preparations. Let’s go too.”
I grunted in reply and followed behind Yun Chang. As I looked at the back of this reliable girl, I couldn’t help but feel a deep admiration for her.
At the same time, even under such precarious circumstances, I was still fervently trying to remember what happened the night before. If nothing did happen, then I have nothing to regret. But if I actually did do something and forgot all about it, that would be very regrettable.
“Un? Big brother, did you say something?”
“Ah, ah? No no no, nothing.” I hurriedly shook my head in denial. Yun Chang was still puzzled but she did not say anything else.
I felt a little self-hatred. Why was I thinking of such untoward things at this time?
“… Big brother.”
“Un?”
“… About, the marriage,” Yun Chang did not turn but I could hear her voice quivering.
As expected, even if it’s Yun Chang, as a girl, she would definitely be worried about this. Whether anything happened or not, I am at least partially responsible for what happened. This, I cannot deny.
“Ah, I understand.” I smiled as I looked at Yun Chang’s tall and cutely fidgeting figure, “We’ll get married once this battle is over.”
“…” Yun Chang’s pace seemed to be much lighter after hearing my words and she replied me with joy in her voice, “Un!”
“Big brother, you’re so slow,” Yi De said as she raised the Serpent Spear on her hands, and quickly gave the command to the soldiers at the city walls to open the gates, “Quickly, while the night is still dark.”
“Oh!” I replied softly, and concentrated on my posture on the horse.
It’s been quite a few days since I’ve ridden a horse and my poor horse riding skills have become poorer still.
There was very little light, as the moon was not out tonight. The night was thus, exceptionally dark and I could not see very far in front of me. The only things I could see were Yun Chang on my left and Yi De on my right.
But that was enough.
Jia!
We called out in unison and the horses neighed and began galloping. In the blink of an eye, we were quite a distance away from Xu state city.
Even though it was very dark, we did not use any torches as it would expose our presence and could only rely ln the weak star light to guide is.
Along the way, I found that my psychological defenses were slowly being eroded by the darkness.
This battle would be a difficult one and I might even die here. Needless to say, it would be the same for Yun Chang and Yi De. In that case, I should probably say something to prepare them for what may come.
“Yun Chang, Yi De.” I lowered my head and called out to my little sisters.
“Un?” “Yun Chang is here.”
I looked to my left and to my right and saw that they were smiling at me. It didn’t seem like they were unaware of the situation. Their smiles were those of ones who understood the fate that awaited them and had accepted what may come. And as for me, my nerves calmed down the moment I saw their smiles.
And I changed the words I was about to say, “When we get married, we’ll definitely have to have a grand and exuberant banquet!”
When they heard what I said, the 2 of them looked stunned. But that was only for a moment, as wide smiles with a tinge of shyness soon appeared on their faces.
“Ah… Un, of course we will!” “*Ke*… Th, though I don’t quite like noisy environments, it’s something you do once in your life after all…”
I smiled as I listened to what they said and continued galloping toward the perimeter camp to the north.
“Charge!!”
Yi De lighted her torch first and yelled out as she charged toward the camp. I and Yun Chang followed behind closely.
But we soon found that there was something wrong.
“Big brother, there isn’t anyone in this camp?!” Yi De said with a frown after running to me as she dispersed the troops throughout this camp.
Damn it! I slapped my head as I couldn’t believe what I was seeing before me. No matter how thin the surround may be, it cannot be this thin.
Kuh! Did we lose the gamble?!
“Yi De, gather the troops immediately. We need to quickly…”
In an instant, yells for slaughter drowned out my words. Within the blink of an eye, troops came from all directions under several flags. A rough gauge put them at several times our size.
And to add to that, they were charging down the 2 hills to the sides of the camp.
As I saw this, I drew my twin swords this time instead of closing my eyes like I did before.
Whatever happens, I will fight today!
After returning to my room, my heart grew heavy for some reason as I looked at the 2 heavy steel swords on the rack.
There wasn’t much time to waste but I still sat on the bed and picked up the fan that I had kept at my bedside and sank into thought.
Who am I?
At the very least, I know I’m not that Liu Bei, and I’m just an ordinary person.
When met with dangerous scenarios, how should a normal person like myself deal with them? What are my responsibilities and how much of a duty do I have to the world? I’ve come this far just by going with the flow but what is the best way to proceed from now on?
I’ve always pondered about these problems but I’ve never been able to reach an answer. Unfortunately, I still don’t have an answer nor do I expect to ever find one.
I think that my only choice is to deal with things as they come.
History is cruel and I don’t have the confidence I can change its course. But even if it’s just a small diversion, I want to try.
I put on my armour and hung my swords by my waist before exiting the room, and saw Yun Chang waiting for me outside. I looked at Yun Chang’s stern and elegant fave and nodded.
“Is big brother ready?”
“Ah, I’m ready.” I raised my head and looked at the night sky before nodding once more.
That’s right, we are going on the attack.
“Though Imperial Chancellor Cao has surrounded Xu state city, Imperial Uncle can attack the camps on the perimeter under the cover of darkness and break out of the surround.” Chen Deng said this afternoon, “But the Imperial Chancellor is a skilled tactician so the success of this plan is up to the heavens.”
Un… 50-50 huh… I did not feel confident at all, and unwittingly felt the 2 swords at my waist.
“Where’s Yi De?”
“She’s already gone over to the troops and started making preparations. Let’s go too.”
I grunted in reply and followed behind Yun Chang. As I looked at the back of this reliable girl, I couldn’t help but feel a deep admiration for her.
At the same time, even under such precarious circumstances, I was still fervently trying to remember what happened the night before. If nothing did happen, then I have nothing to regret. But if I actually did do something and forgot all about it, that would be very regrettable.
“Un? Big brother, did you say something?”
“Ah, ah? No no no, nothing.” I hurriedly shook my head in denial. Yun Chang was still puzzled but she did not say anything else.
I felt a little self-hatred. Why was I thinking of such untoward things at this time?
“… Big brother.”
“Un?”
“… About, the marriage,” Yun Chang did not turn but I could hear her voice quivering.
As expected, even if it’s Yun Chang, as a girl, she would definitely be worried about this. Whether anything happened or not, I am at least partially responsible for what happened. This, I cannot deny.
“Ah, I understand.” I smiled as I looked at Yun Chang’s tall and cutely fidgeting figure, “We’ll get married once this battle is over.”
“…” Yun Chang’s pace seemed to be much lighter after hearing my words and she replied me with joy in her voice, “Un!”
“Big brother, you’re so slow,” Yi De said as she raised the Serpent Spear on her hands, and quickly gave the command to the soldiers at the city walls to open the gates, “Quickly, while the night is still dark.”
“Oh!” I replied softly, and concentrated on my posture on the horse.
It’s been quite a few days since I’ve ridden a horse and my poor horse riding skills have become poorer still.
There was very little light, as the moon was not out tonight. The night was thus, exceptionally dark and I could not see very far in front of me. The only things I could see were Yun Chang on my left and Yi De on my right.
But that was enough.
Jia!
We called out in unison and the horses neighed and began galloping. In the blink of an eye, we were quite a distance away from Xu state city.
Even though it was very dark, we did not use any torches as it would expose our presence and could only rely ln the weak star light to guide is.
Along the way, I found that my psychological defenses were slowly being eroded by the darkness.
This battle would be a difficult one and I might even die here. Needless to say, it would be the same for Yun Chang and Yi De. In that case, I should probably say something to prepare them for what may come.
“Yun Chang, Yi De.” I lowered my head and called out to my little sisters.
“Un?” “Yun Chang is here.”
I looked to my left and to my right and saw that they were smiling at me. It didn’t seem like they were unaware of the situation. Their smiles were those of ones who understood the fate that awaited them and had accepted what may come. And as for me, my nerves calmed down the moment I saw their smiles.
And I changed the words I was about to say, “When we get married, we’ll definitely have to have a grand and exuberant banquet!”
When they heard what I said, the 2 of them looked stunned. But that was only for a moment, as wide smiles with a tinge of shyness soon appeared on their faces.
“Ah… Un, of course we will!” “*Ke*… Th, though I don’t quite like noisy environments, it’s something you do once in your life after all…”
I smiled as I listened to what they said and continued galloping toward the perimeter camp to the north.
“Charge!!”
Yi De lighted her torch first and yelled out as she charged toward the camp. I and Yun Chang followed behind closely.
But we soon found that there was something wrong.
“Big brother, there isn’t anyone in this camp?!” Yi De said with a frown after running to me as she dispersed the troops throughout this camp.
Damn it! I slapped my head as I couldn’t believe what I was seeing before me. No matter how thin the surround may be, it cannot be this thin.
Kuh! Did we lose the gamble?!
“Yi De, gather the troops immediately. We need to quickly…”
In an instant, yells for slaughter drowned out my words. Within the blink of an eye, troops came from all directions under several flags. A rough gauge put them at several times our size.
And to add to that, they were charging down the 2 hills to the sides of the camp.
As I saw this, I drew my twin swords this time instead of closing my eyes like I did before.
Whatever happens, I will fight today!
