Chapter 437
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That look in her eyes, he hasn't seen such a clouded gaze in her eyes in such a long time. Haruka deeply sighed and brought his lips to her ear, "Let's go somewhere private?"
"Okay."
..
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2034 (Last year)
His kiss clearly caught her off guard, like usual. Since once he pulled away, she was looking at him in disbelief. It's her fault for being so defenseless for. Then again, maybe he needs to stop kissing her randomly.
"Haruka-kun, do you have a girlfriend?"
"I don't."
"I-- I see..."
"Would you like to become a candidate?"
What is he saying?
"I'm Kiryu's."
Haruka's taken back how easily she said it. Well, everyone knows that but to admit it with that much confidence.....It's really not a political marriage/arrangement at all, huh? At the start, he thought that maybe it was just for show. But he's heard her admit this so many times now. The previous time's he's simply overheard though. So she...likes Austin Kiryu that much. That's sorta irritating...
"But Haruka-kun you're a good guy, I'm sure you'll get a wonderful girlfriend, eventually."
--
Present
Haruka still remembers when Lila rejected him last year. She told him flat out that she was taken. He remembers how his kisses used to scare her. But now? In the present day, she's the one kissing him. Now they are in a relationship, practically married. His gaze darted towards the woman whose lips he hadn't let go since they entered her dressing room. She looks so sexy when she is like this. To think that back then she refused him like that, and now? Now she is all his.
Spending time with Lila and getting to know her. Haruka realized how quickly he was changing.
Zane always praised him for being a rational person through and through. A man who didn't dwell on the past and focused on the future. A man who obediently followed the rules.
Those people taught him to mask his emotions before Haruka realized that humans had every right to be sad, angry laugh and cry. There was no need to push everybody away from his life. There was no need to be genuinely honest. One of the things that stood out to him was, he was allowed to miss her. Allowed to feel that feeling of longing he held back for so many years.
In the years since his life changed. Haruka learned many things; he didn't have to act emotionless. He could fall in love like any other person; he could laugh, cry, and get angry like another person. He didn't have to always be in the top. But even then those values were long integrated into his head. The moment he stopped
"Nnhh, nngh, ah," Lila moaned. Her legs firmly squeezed around his waist as he moved inside her. 'Too good, but,' Haruka thought back to earlier and pulled away from her.
"Lila, for a while, maybe we should stop this."
"Eh?"
Haruka deeply sighed, "Your voice."
Lila blushed, "Oh, but I think... it's okay?"
"Lila, you're a singer. Think about your voice," Haruma pulled away from her.
But Lila grabbed hold of her arm, "But, I like it Haruka. I like it a lot...it makes me feel like we're connected with each other."
"I get it," Haruka nodded. It's the same for him, after all. However, he gently kissed her forehead, "Unless you can hold your voice back, I don't think we should for a while."
"I--I can hold it back, so please."
Why would he refuse if she's asking him so badly?
.....
He's glad there is a sofa here, doing it in that position isn't good for her legs.
"Lila. Your trembling so much, do you like it?"
"Feels good Haruka, more..."
Gosh, what is this? Why is she like this now? So damn sexy and beautiful. "Haruka, Haruka..."
Don't call his name out so lovingly like that. Doesn't she know what they are doing? This carnal of a mess of a situation.
If anybody were to see her like this, they might even call her a slut, since she's so sexy right now. But even so, Lila is making this expression for him and him alone.
"Haruka, what about you?"
"In a sec babe," he murmured, "Let me finish you off." Honestly, he didn't want to finish. That's why he prolonged his movement inside her and even pulled away slightly just so he could get a better look at her expression. Whenever she looked at him with this expression, Haruka would want to do more to her. But it was clear that she wouldn't last long.
After a few minutes, Lila was piercing his back so deeply, and with a final cry of, "Haruka!" she collapsed completely into his arms. Her face buried in his shoulders, breathing unsteady.
Shoot, he went overboard. He gently parted the girl's hair from her face, "Okay?"
"Ah-huh, Haruka. I'm sorry I don't think I can continue."
"It's fine, let's stop now," Haruka moved away from her, but Lila looked at him.
"Haruka, we have to cuddle."
'Cute,' Haruka thought and laid down beside her,
and Haruka noticed how she was still breathing heavily, "Are you fine?"
"Um, I just need to catch my breath a little."
Haruka nodded in understanding and gently caressed the girl's hair. Honestly, he's still a bit surprised whenever they engage in intimate actions with each other. At the start, he was the only one doing things. Lila did admit to him that she had little experience and their first time together, he learned Austin Kiryu didn't teach her properly.
Back then he said he would teach her properly, but honestly, Haruka didn't know how to do that. How is he supposed to teach her? What does he teach her? All those other women he slept with before in the past, were all slutty and didn't hesitate to jump on him. But Lila is different than all those other girls.
Lila is different.
Vivid images of the past flashed through his mind, the past where he simply treated women as mere toys. If Lila knew how cruel he was to those other women, would she leave him?
"Haruka, did I do okay?"
Why is she even asking such a stupid question for?
"Mmm, you're getting better now, good girl."
Her eyes brightened, and she laughed, "So, you know.."
"Why are you so happy?"
"Am I not allowed to be?"
"Didn't say that, but it's confusing me."
"I'm happy because we're together Haruka," Lila gently caressed his cheek, "The same doesn't go for you?"
Haruka didn't reply, what could he say to her? What is the right answer during these situations? Whenever they are together, it feels like he will say something wrong. He doesn't want to ruin it anymore with her.
"Is your body really okay?" Haruka asked.
"Um, lately I have been feeling strange. But it's okay the doctor said I just need to rest."
"Doctor?" he repeated her words, "You didn't tell me.."
"Because you've been busy," Lila laughed, "It's okay, Haruka."
"Are you pregnant?"
Lila blushed, "Um, no...why, are you asking?"
"You know why, I want your children," even though he said he would be patient. It's challenging, after all. He wants to truly have a family with her. How nice would it be to see little children running around?
His thoughts broke off when Lila gently caressed his cheeks; he leaned into her hand, "Your hands are hot."
"That's your fault," Lila murmured, "Say Haruka, I don't mind having children like I told you. And I planned on taking a short break after graduation. I already spoke about this to the idol association board before I left, and they finalized the arrangements a long time ago."
"That's perfect then, we can have our honeymoon, and I'll make sure you get your fill of me." Lila's cheeks colored again, and he chuckled. She turns red so easily. But he wants to treasure her, "Do you mind?"
"I don't mind, say Haruka. You know I also don't know much about families," Lila spoke slowly, "After all, my own family life wasn't exactly the best for a long time."
"Lila."
"For the longest time, I thought all I had to do was stay strong. If I stayed strong and smiled, then Mother would return to my side. If Mother comes back, then Father would smile again. Everybody would be happy, but thinking that way was too small-minded of me. I didn't take into account Mother's feelings," Lila trailed off, "But Mother was wrong too. It was painful, so, so very painful for everybody. After what happened to your father, Mother just took off and left. She blamed herself and abandoned me, father, Kyoko-nee, Huan, and Satomi-nii. Mother didn't think about those she left behind. She only thought about atoning for what happened with your father."
"That man isn't my father," Haruka knew this wasn't the time to say it. However, Haruka wanted Lila to understand. Not once has he ever considered the man named Kanagawa Ren as his father.
"Ah-huh, but you have to understand how important he is to me. I know it's wrong to say this in front of you. But I treated Ren-san like my own father."
He knew that already. Honestly, that's one reason why he didn't intend to enter a serious relationship with her. At first, Haruka planned to end it after a short while had passed. He didn't think Lila was serious about her feelings, Haruka truly believed it was temporary because she was lonely. However, Lila started to prove to him how serious she was, and then she went ahead and married him.
It's difficult for him knowing that part of the reason why she ended up this bright and cheerful is because of his father. It's also his father that caused her family a great amount of pain. The world truly is filled with contradictions of all kind. But even then, Haruka wrapped his arms around her waist. 'Lila already belongs to him,' forget his family complications. That's already a matter of the past; what is important now is that Lila chose to be with him.
"How many children do you want?"
Lila's face turned redder at his words, and she coughed, "Is that something people do these days? Decide the amount?"
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That look in her eyes, he hasn't seen such a clouded gaze in her eyes in such a long time. Haruka deeply sighed and brought his lips to her ear, "Let's go somewhere private?"
"Okay."
..
--
2034 (Last year)
His kiss clearly caught her off guard, like usual. Since once he pulled away, she was looking at him in disbelief. It's her fault for being so defenseless for. Then again, maybe he needs to stop kissing her randomly.
"Haruka-kun, do you have a girlfriend?"
"I don't."
"I-- I see..."
"Would you like to become a candidate?"
What is he saying?
"I'm Kiryu's."
Haruka's taken back how easily she said it. Well, everyone knows that but to admit it with that much confidence.....It's really not a political marriage/arrangement at all, huh? At the start, he thought that maybe it was just for show. But he's heard her admit this so many times now. The previous time's he's simply overheard though. So she...likes Austin Kiryu that much. That's sorta irritating...
"But Haruka-kun you're a good guy, I'm sure you'll get a wonderful girlfriend, eventually."
--
Present
Haruka still remembers when Lila rejected him last year. She told him flat out that she was taken. He remembers how his kisses used to scare her. But now? In the present day, she's the one kissing him. Now they are in a relationship, practically married. His gaze darted towards the woman whose lips he hadn't let go since they entered her dressing room. She looks so sexy when she is like this. To think that back then she refused him like that, and now? Now she is all his.
Spending time with Lila and getting to know her. Haruka realized how quickly he was changing.
Zane always praised him for being a rational person through and through. A man who didn't dwell on the past and focused on the future. A man who obediently followed the rules.
Those people taught him to mask his emotions before Haruka realized that humans had every right to be sad, angry laugh and cry. There was no need to push everybody away from his life. There was no need to be genuinely honest. One of the things that stood out to him was, he was allowed to miss her. Allowed to feel that feeling of longing he held back for so many years.
In the years since his life changed. Haruka learned many things; he didn't have to act emotionless. He could fall in love like any other person; he could laugh, cry, and get angry like another person. He didn't have to always be in the top. But even then those values were long integrated into his head. The moment he stopped
"Nnhh, nngh, ah," Lila moaned. Her legs firmly squeezed around his waist as he moved inside her. 'Too good, but,' Haruka thought back to earlier and pulled away from her.
"Lila, for a while, maybe we should stop this."
"Eh?"
Haruka deeply sighed, "Your voice."
Lila blushed, "Oh, but I think... it's okay?"
"Lila, you're a singer. Think about your voice," Haruma pulled away from her.
But Lila grabbed hold of her arm, "But, I like it Haruka. I like it a lot...it makes me feel like we're connected with each other."
"I get it," Haruka nodded. It's the same for him, after all. However, he gently kissed her forehead, "Unless you can hold your voice back, I don't think we should for a while."
"I--I can hold it back, so please."
Why would he refuse if she's asking him so badly?
.....
He's glad there is a sofa here, doing it in that position isn't good for her legs.
"Lila. Your trembling so much, do you like it?"
"Feels good Haruka, more..."
Gosh, what is this? Why is she like this now? So damn sexy and beautiful. "Haruka, Haruka..."
Don't call his name out so lovingly like that. Doesn't she know what they are doing? This carnal of a mess of a situation.
If anybody were to see her like this, they might even call her a slut, since she's so sexy right now. But even so, Lila is making this expression for him and him alone.
"Haruka, what about you?"
"In a sec babe," he murmured, "Let me finish you off." Honestly, he didn't want to finish. That's why he prolonged his movement inside her and even pulled away slightly just so he could get a better look at her expression. Whenever she looked at him with this expression, Haruka would want to do more to her. But it was clear that she wouldn't last long.
After a few minutes, Lila was piercing his back so deeply, and with a final cry of, "Haruka!" she collapsed completely into his arms. Her face buried in his shoulders, breathing unsteady.
Shoot, he went overboard. He gently parted the girl's hair from her face, "Okay?"
"Ah-huh, Haruka. I'm sorry I don't think I can continue."
"It's fine, let's stop now," Haruka moved away from her, but Lila looked at him.
"Haruka, we have to cuddle."
'Cute,' Haruka thought and laid down beside her,
and Haruka noticed how she was still breathing heavily, "Are you fine?"
"Um, I just need to catch my breath a little."
Haruka nodded in understanding and gently caressed the girl's hair. Honestly, he's still a bit surprised whenever they engage in intimate actions with each other. At the start, he was the only one doing things. Lila did admit to him that she had little experience and their first time together, he learned Austin Kiryu didn't teach her properly.
Back then he said he would teach her properly, but honestly, Haruka didn't know how to do that. How is he supposed to teach her? What does he teach her? All those other women he slept with before in the past, were all slutty and didn't hesitate to jump on him. But Lila is different than all those other girls.
Lila is different.
Vivid images of the past flashed through his mind, the past where he simply treated women as mere toys. If Lila knew how cruel he was to those other women, would she leave him?
"Haruka, did I do okay?"
Why is she even asking such a stupid question for?
"Mmm, you're getting better now, good girl."
Her eyes brightened, and she laughed, "So, you know.."
"Why are you so happy?"
"Am I not allowed to be?"
"Didn't say that, but it's confusing me."
"I'm happy because we're together Haruka," Lila gently caressed his cheek, "The same doesn't go for you?"
Haruka didn't reply, what could he say to her? What is the right answer during these situations? Whenever they are together, it feels like he will say something wrong. He doesn't want to ruin it anymore with her.
"Is your body really okay?" Haruka asked.
"Um, lately I have been feeling strange. But it's okay the doctor said I just need to rest."
"Doctor?" he repeated her words, "You didn't tell me.."
"Because you've been busy," Lila laughed, "It's okay, Haruka."
"Are you pregnant?"
Lila blushed, "Um, no...why, are you asking?"
"You know why, I want your children," even though he said he would be patient. It's challenging, after all. He wants to truly have a family with her. How nice would it be to see little children running around?
His thoughts broke off when Lila gently caressed his cheeks; he leaned into her hand, "Your hands are hot."
"That's your fault," Lila murmured, "Say Haruka, I don't mind having children like I told you. And I planned on taking a short break after graduation. I already spoke about this to the idol association board before I left, and they finalized the arrangements a long time ago."
"That's perfect then, we can have our honeymoon, and I'll make sure you get your fill of me." Lila's cheeks colored again, and he chuckled. She turns red so easily. But he wants to treasure her, "Do you mind?"
"I don't mind, say Haruka. You know I also don't know much about families," Lila spoke slowly, "After all, my own family life wasn't exactly the best for a long time."
"Lila."
"For the longest time, I thought all I had to do was stay strong. If I stayed strong and smiled, then Mother would return to my side. If Mother comes back, then Father would smile again. Everybody would be happy, but thinking that way was too small-minded of me. I didn't take into account Mother's feelings," Lila trailed off, "But Mother was wrong too. It was painful, so, so very painful for everybody. After what happened to your father, Mother just took off and left. She blamed herself and abandoned me, father, Kyoko-nee, Huan, and Satomi-nii. Mother didn't think about those she left behind. She only thought about atoning for what happened with your father."
"That man isn't my father," Haruka knew this wasn't the time to say it. However, Haruka wanted Lila to understand. Not once has he ever considered the man named Kanagawa Ren as his father.
"Ah-huh, but you have to understand how important he is to me. I know it's wrong to say this in front of you. But I treated Ren-san like my own father."
He knew that already. Honestly, that's one reason why he didn't intend to enter a serious relationship with her. At first, Haruka planned to end it after a short while had passed. He didn't think Lila was serious about her feelings, Haruka truly believed it was temporary because she was lonely. However, Lila started to prove to him how serious she was, and then she went ahead and married him.
It's difficult for him knowing that part of the reason why she ended up this bright and cheerful is because of his father. It's also his father that caused her family a great amount of pain. The world truly is filled with contradictions of all kind. But even then, Haruka wrapped his arms around her waist. 'Lila already belongs to him,' forget his family complications. That's already a matter of the past; what is important now is that Lila chose to be with him.
"How many children do you want?"
Lila's face turned redder at his words, and she coughed, "Is that something people do these days? Decide the amount?"
That look in her eyes, he hasn't seen such a clouded gaze in her eyes in such a long time. Haruka deeply sighed and brought his lips to her ear, "Let's go somewhere private?""Okay."..--2034 Last yearHis kiss clearlycaught her off guard, like usual. Since once he pulled away, she was looking at him in disbelief. It's her fault for being so defenseless for. Then again, maybe he needs to stop kissing her randomly."Haruka-kun, do you have a girlfriend?""I don't.""I-- I see...""Would you like to become a candidate?"What is he saying?"I'm Kiryu's."Haruka's taken back how easily she said it. Well, everyone knows that but to admit it with that much confidence.....It's really not a political marriage/arrangement at all, huh? At the start, he thought thatmaybe it was just for show. But he's heard her admit this so many times now. The previous time's he's simplyoverheard though. So she...likes Austin Kiryu that much. That's sorta irritating..."But Haruka-kun you're a good guy, I'm sure you'll get a wonderful girlfriend, eventually."--PresentHaruka still remembers when Lila rejected him last year. She told him flat out thatshe was taken. He remembers how his kisses used to scare her. But now? In the present day, she's the one kissing him. Now they are in a relationship, practically married. His gaze darted towards the woman whose lips he hadn't let go since they entered her dressing room. She looks so sexy when she is like this. To think thatback then she refused him like that, and now? Now she is all his.Spending time with Lila and getting to know her. Haruka realized how quickly he was changing. Zane always praised him for being a rational person through and through. A man who didn't dwell on the past and focused on the future. A man who obediently followed the rules.Those people taught him to mask his emotions before Haruka realized that humans had every right to be sad, angry laugh and cry. There was no need to push everybody away from his life. There was no need to be genuinely honest. One of the things that stood out to him was, he was allowed to miss her. Allowed to feel that feeling of longing he held back for so many years.In the years since his life changed. Haruka learned many things; he didn't have to act emotionless. He could fall in love like any other person; he could laugh, cry, and get angry like another person. He didn't have to always be in the top. But even then those values were long integrated into his head. The moment he stopped"Nnhh, nngh, ah," Lila moaned. Her legs firmly squeezed around his waist as he moved inside her. 'Too good, but,' Haruka thought back to earlier and pulled away from her."Lila, for a while, maybe we should stop this.""Eh?"Haruka deeply sighed, "Your voice."Lila blushed, "Oh, but I think... it's okay?""Lila, you're a singer. Think about your voice," Haruma pulled away from her.But Lila grabbed hold of her arm, "But, I like it Haruka. I like it a lot...it makes me feel like we're connected with each other.""I get it," Haruka nodded. It's the same for him, after all. However, he gently kissed her forehead, "Unless you can hold your voice back, I don't think we should for a while.""I--I can hold it back, so please."Why would he refuse if she's asking him so badly?.....He's glad there is a sofa here, doing it in that position isn't good for her legs."Lila. Your trembling so much, do you like it?""Feels good Haruka, more..."Gosh, what is this? Why is she like this now? So damn sexy and beautiful. "Haruka, Haruka..."Don't call his name out so lovingly like that. Doesn't she know what they are doing? This carnal of a mess of a situation.If anybody were to see her like this, they might even call her a slut, since she's so sexy right now. But even so,Lila is making this expression for him and him alone."Haruka, what about you?""In a sec babe," he murmured, "Let me finish youoff." Honestly, he didn't want to finish. That's why he prolonged his movement inside her and even pulled away slightly just so he could get a better look at her expression. Whenever she looked at him with this expression, Haruka would want to do more to her. But it was clear thatshe wouldn't last long.After a few minutes, Lila was piercing his back so deeply, and with a final cry of, "Haruka!" she collapsed completely into his arms. Her face buried in his shoulders, breathing unsteady.Shoot, he went overboard. He gently parted the girl's hair from her face, "Okay?""Ah-huh, Haruka. I'm sorry I don't think I can continue.""It's fine, let's stop now," Haruka moved away from her, but Lila looked at him."Haruka, we have to cuddle."'Cute,' Haruka thought and laid down beside her,and Haruka noticed how she was still breathing heavily, "Are you fine?""Um, I just need to catch my breath a little."Haruka nodded in understanding and gently caressed the girl's hair. Honestly, he's still a bitsurprised whenever they engage in intimate actions with each other. At the start, he was the only one doing things. Lila did admit to him thatshe had little experience and their first time together, he learned Austin Kiryu didn't teach her properly.Back then he said he would teach her properly, but honestly, Haruka didn't know how to do that. How is he supposed to teach her? What does he teach her? All those other women he slept with before in the past, were all slutty and didn't hesitate to jump on him. But Lila is different than all those other girls.Lila is different.Vivid images of the past flashed through his mind, the past where he simplytreated women as mere toys. If Lila knew how cruel he was to those other women, would she leave him?"Haruka, did I dookay?"Why is she even asking such a stupid question for?"Mmm, you're getting better now, good girl."Her eyes brightened, and she laughed, "So, you know..""Why are you so happy?""Am I not allowed to be?""Didn't say that, but it's confusing me.""I'm happy because we're together Haruka," Lila gently caressed his cheek, "The same doesn't go for you?"Haruka didn't reply, what could he say to her? What is the right answer during these situations? Whenever they are together, it feels like he will say something wrong. He doesn't want to ruin it anymore with her."Is your body reallyokay?" Haruka asked."Um, lately I have been feeling strange. But it's okay the doctor said I just need to rest.""Doctor?" he repeated her words, "You didn't tell me..""Because you've been busy," Lila laughed, "It's okay, Haruka.""Are you pregnant?"Lila blushed, "Um, no...why, are you asking?""You know why, I want your children," even though he said he would be patient. It's challenging, after all. He wants to truly have a family with her. How nice would it be to see little children running around?His thoughts broke off when Lila gently caressed his cheeks; he leaned into her hand, "Your hands are hot.""That's your fault," Lila murmured, "Say Haruka, I don't mind having children like I told you. And I planned on taking a short break after graduation. I already spoke about this to the idol association board before I left, and they finalized the arrangements a long time ago.""That's perfect then, we can have our honeymoon, and I'll make sure you get your fill of me." Lila's cheeks colored again, and he chuckled. She turns red so easily. But he wants to treasure her, "Do you mind?""I don't mind, say Haruka. You know I also don't know much about families," Lila spoke slowly, "After all, my ownfamily life wasn't exactly the best for a long time.""Lila.""For the longest time, I thought all I had to do was stay strong. If I stayed strong and smiled, then Mother would return to my side. If Mother comes back, then Father would smile again. Everybody would be happy, but thinking thatway was too small-minded of me. I didn't take into account Mother's feelings," Lila trailed off, "But Mother was wrong too. It was painful, so, so very painful for everybody. After what happened to your father, Mother just took off and left. She blamed herself and abandoned me, father, Kyoko-nee, Huan, and Satomi-nii. Mother didn't think about those she left behind. She only thought about atoning for what happened with your father.""That man isn't my father," Haruka knew this wasn't the time to say it. However, Haruka wanted Lila to understand. Not once has he ever considered the man named Kanagawa Ren as his father."Ah-huh, but you have to understand how important he is to me. I know it's wrong to say this in front of you. But I treated Ren-san like my ownfather."He knew that already. Honestly, that's one reason whyhe didn't intend to enter a serious relationship with her. At first, Haruka planned to end it after a short while had passed. He didn't think Lila was serious about her feelings, Haruka truly believed it was temporary because she was lonely. However, Lila started to prove to him how serious she was, and then she went ahead andmarried him.It's difficult for him knowing that part of the reason whyshe ended up this bright and cheerful is because of his father. It's also his father that caused her family a great amount of pain. The world truly is filled with contradictions of all kind. But even then, Haruka wrapped his arms around her waist. 'Lila already belongs to him,' forget his family complications. That's already a matter of the past; what is important now is that Lila chose to be with him."How many children do you want?"Lila's face turned redder at his words, and she coughed, "Is that something people do these days? Decide the amount?"
