Chapter 473
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Lilas apartment 6:00 PM
Lila woke up to find herself alone in the room, so she scanned the place and stood up.
She followed the scent she knows all too well to find him perched on the decking. Arms wrapped around his neck, Lila bends down, taking a whiff of his scent. His blood smells so sweet.
"Hungry? "
"Yes. Can I have a lot? "
"Go ahead."
She does. She takes quite a bit, and by the end of it, Haruka's complexion seemed lighter than usual. But he didn't complain and instead places light kisses on her forehead.
"Please feel free to leave me if you ever don't need me anymore."
Even now he's still thinking such stupid things, isn't he? Then again, she too may have similar dark thoughts. If the two of them were to disclose it to anyone, they'd think it would be stupid. They'd get mad. After all, that's happened, it's clear where hers and Haruka's feelings stand after all. A love that is strong enough to shake up the heavens, huh?. However, to the two of them, it's only natural to have dark thoughts still. For they have never once thought they'd find happiness, let alone a love as beautiful as they have now.
"That's out of the question; I love you so much. "
"I can say the same now. I love you. But didn't all of this start because I desired your blood? "
"Back then too, any desires I had for you was because of your blood too," Lila mumbled.
He smiles softly, "I will take this as a compliment. Until the day you acknowledge that you desire me in that manner too."
Really he's a fool. But she's always liked it, his smile and the warmth that comes from his kisses. The warmth and light that comes from her violet-colored orbs softened.
"Haruka, the truth is I read the first part of your diary when I was browsing through the shelves. " she leaned over and brushed her fingers across his neck and brought her lips down again,
" ' Ever since I met Lila again, I can smile more.' I'm pleased you wrote that. "
"Yeah, I did. It's great. I met you again."
She places a kiss on the deep bite mark and shuts her eyes. "Yeah, thanks for being here for me," Lila knew she could no longer live a life without this person.
...
The two of them sat down on the decking area, her head resting on his shoulders. Hands enter wind against each other as they watched the continuous amounts of white snow falling — a peaceful moment. Droplets of snow keep falling these days, but " You know, I think 'god ' really exists, and it isn't just due to these powers that I have. After all, when I told God, ' I have something I can't tell. I want one wish... one wish to come true."
"What did you ask?"
"I fell in love with somebody. I want to be happy, even if it means going against the destiny that had been laid out for me. ' "Lila paused, " I want to be happy. I never thought something like that would cross my mind. Since I already accepted the destiny that had been laid out for me. It was supposed to be crystal clear like glass. The lonely future and path I'd take. But once I met you that changed."
The moment she met Karashima Haruka, The gears of fate that had been taking shape, started to evolve into something different. The entire time it was happening. She already knew of it, and yet she stayed in that small world. If she remained there with another person, then these feelings wouldn't leak out. But it was impossible, after all.
"I don't know about God or whatever. But those feelings of yours - you should have informed me first. I should have been the first one to know. You know Lila, I didn't tell anyone that I was in love with you this entire time. I was rather vague about everything."
"Ah, I thought that was because you were clumsy expressing your feelings."
"Oi."
" Am I wrong? "
" . . .That was part of the reason. " Yuhi admitted with a deep sigh. " But what I said just now was the main reason. I never told anyone because I wanted you to be the first person to know. That I was in love with you, and how I never considered anyone else. "
Her cheeks colored red. Oh. " Um. .. ... "
"Embarrassed? " Haruka said, caressing her cheeks gently with his hand. Even though there's nothing innocent about their relationship anymore. Rather at this point that they are confessing their secrets by one. The word 'desire' has always been there for the two of them. So could you really say there was anything innocent about their relationship? The answer is no.
"Un and a bit overwhelmed," Lila trailed off. Overwhelmed, and yet, each time he touches her and showers her with words of honesty and affection. She always feels that air of innocence.
Haruka pulled her into his arms, causing her eyes to widen. "Lila. I'm sure you have figured it out by now. What I intend to do abroad."
"Yes. That's why I'm very worried about you," Lila mumbled. What he's going to do is something dangerous in a place that's so far away, without her by his side. The very thought of it scared her.
"I can't tell you not to worry. But I can reassure you. Do you know what you gave me when we met? This time, I'll protect you to the end. Even without memories, that desire was there from the beginning. Those were the feelings you gave me as the memories of my long and lonely past resurfaced. That was the ray of light that resurfaced and showed me the way. And I lost myself to desire plenty of times. I made many mistakes. But I couldn't stop myself. To shake off those contradictions, I imposed many unreasonable demands on you, and I took away the smile that radiated from the bottom of your heart."
Lila shook her head, "Your wrong Haruka. Although I can't say that your actions have never hurt me before. You're the one who brought back my smile; you didn't take anything from me. You've given me so much."
Haruka smiles softly, "If you think so, I'm not going to argue. Besides, your mine aren't you?"
"Yes."
"You know when it was time to let you go. I thought it would be enough if I could watch over you. But you who lived as a normal girl, you who became an idol became even more of a radiant existence to me. How you desperately tried to help a stranger who was hurt. How you worked hard on your appearance, worked hard to fix all your flaws for the guy you like. Worked hard to convey your feelings to people. "
He's so stupid. She's the one who should be saying words of gratitude. If she didn't meet Karashima Haruka, she would still be an empty existence. It's because they met because they crossed paths. That she was able to discover the beauty of the world; the beauty Kiryu pointed out to her before, but she couldn't see it. Back then, all she could see were raging storm clouds every day. However, when she met Karashima Haruka, she could finally see the light.
Lila shifted over, arms draped around his neck. " What is it? " she doesn't say anything and merely continues holding onto him tightly. Noticing she won't respond, Haruka merely caresses her hair.
Ever since she was younger, she found herself to be absorbed entirely in the world of knowledge. That's right long before she even met Karashima Haruka; she already noticed that books that contained understanding attracted her. At first, though it was only a means of escape, escape from all the shouting.
Mother and Ren-san would often fight. Fight, makeup. Back then, Lila did not understand why. Family life wasn't exactly as peaceful as everyone thought it was. That family already long fell apart, so perhaps what happened then was atonement. Atonement for what happened before. In that sense, there is no meaningless misfortune.
When she first stumbled upon Shakespeare's works, she learned the meaning in more depth. What a true tragedy is. Her form of escape were those books. To block out the sound, she would listen to music and escaping in the world of stories. But that in itself is too much of a fantasy.
People cannot escape from a reality that is there. She found out many things. So then how is she an outsider of society supposed to fit in? The answer is simple. 'You just have to live the same as everyone else,' Lila thought. And another is that most humans won't accept something as a fact. If it is outside what they consider common sense.
When Lila realized these things, even if she did that it wouldn't change anything, it won't make her world any less darker then it already was. It won't bring out the light she's seeking which is why she...she didn't try it and lived life without lying.
That light she was seeking so long, appeared to her the second she met him. Not only the light but a world of vibrant colors. A world of vibrant colors, durable and sturdy. He introduced her to paintings and colors that express every emotion. Buildings, people, animals - Karashima Haruka showed her how everyone is dyed in their own special color. Not just one color but several. Colors that only belong to that person alone.
"Can I make some selfish requests when were married properly Haruka?"
" Define 'selfish. ' "
She lifts her fingers to his lips, gently tracing them. " 'of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's profit or pleasure. ' "
"So you want to please yourself? Got it. Tell me what you want Lila. "Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please click www.webnovel.com for visiting.
"I want you to be more passionate than before."
Lila doesn't clarify what she's talking about. Nor does she even describe it. But right away, Haruka understands. "You're trying to kill me, aren't you?"
"Perhaps. But Haruka. You said you'd fall into hell with me. Do you have any right to whine at this stage? Or maybe I fell in love with an annoying guy after all. "
"Brat."
"It really is only with you Haruka, when I'm able to feel the most happiness. That's why when we're married properly. I will be blessed with the fact that we never have to part from each other, th
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Lilas apartment 6:00 PM
Lila woke up to find herself alone in the room, so she scanned the place and stood up.
She followed the scent she knows all too well to find him perched on the decking. Arms wrapped around his neck, Lila bends down, taking a whiff of his scent. His blood smells so sweet.
"Hungry? "
"Yes. Can I have a lot? "
"Go ahead."
She does. She takes quite a bit, and by the end of it, Haruka's complexion seemed lighter than usual. But he didn't complain and instead places light kisses on her forehead.
"Please feel free to leave me if you ever don't need me anymore."
Even now he's still thinking such stupid things, isn't he? Then again, she too may have similar dark thoughts. If the two of them were to disclose it to anyone, they'd think it would be stupid. They'd get mad. After all, that's happened, it's clear where hers and Haruka's feelings stand after all. A love that is strong enough to shake up the heavens, huh?. However, to the two of them, it's only natural to have dark thoughts still. For they have never once thought they'd find happiness, let alone a love as beautiful as they have now.
"That's out of the question; I love you so much. "
"I can say the same now. I love you. But didn't all of this start because I desired your blood? "
"Back then too, any desires I had for you was because of your blood too," Lila mumbled.
He smiles softly, "I will take this as a compliment. Until the day you acknowledge that you desire me in that manner too."
Really he's a fool. But she's always liked it, his smile and the warmth that comes from his kisses. The warmth and light that comes from her violet-colored orbs softened.
"Haruka, the truth is I read the first part of your diary when I was browsing through the shelves. " she leaned over and brushed her fingers across his neck and brought her lips down again,
" ' Ever since I met Lila again, I can smile more.' I'm pleased you wrote that. "
"Yeah, I did. It's great. I met you again."
She places a kiss on the deep bite mark and shuts her eyes. "Yeah, thanks for being here for me," Lila knew she could no longer live a life without this person.
...
The two of them sat down on the decking area, her head resting on his shoulders. Hands enter wind against each other as they watched the continuous amounts of white snow falling — a peaceful moment. Droplets of snow keep falling these days, but " You know, I think 'god ' really exists, and it isn't just due to these powers that I have. After all, when I told God, ' I have something I can't tell. I want one wish... one wish to come true."
"What did you ask?"
"I fell in love with somebody. I want to be happy, even if it means going against the destiny that had been laid out for me. ' "Lila paused, " I want to be happy. I never thought something like that would cross my mind. Since I already accepted the destiny that had been laid out for me. It was supposed to be crystal clear like glass. The lonely future and path I'd take. But once I met you that changed."
The moment she met Karashima Haruka, The gears of fate that had been taking shape, started to evolve into something different. The entire time it was happening. She already knew of it, and yet she stayed in that small world. If she remained there with another person, then these feelings wouldn't leak out. But it was impossible, after all.
"I don't know about God or whatever. But those feelings of yours - you should have informed me first. I should have been the first one to know. You know Lila, I didn't tell anyone that I was in love with you this entire time. I was rather vague about everything."
"Ah, I thought that was because you were clumsy expressing your feelings."
"Oi."
" Am I wrong? "
" . . .That was part of the reason. " Yuhi admitted with a deep sigh. " But what I said just now was the main reason. I never told anyone because I wanted you to be the first person to know. That I was in love with you, and how I never considered anyone else. "
Her cheeks colored red. Oh. " Um. .. ... "
"Embarrassed? " Haruka said, caressing her cheeks gently with his hand. Even though there's nothing innocent about their relationship anymore. Rather at this point that they are confessing their secrets by one. The word 'desire' has always been there for the two of them. So could you really say there was anything innocent about their relationship? The answer is no.
"Un and a bit overwhelmed," Lila trailed off. Overwhelmed, and yet, each time he touches her and showers her with words of honesty and affection. She always feels that air of innocence.
Haruka pulled her into his arms, causing her eyes to widen. "Lila. I'm sure you have figured it out by now. What I intend to do abroad."
"Yes. That's why I'm very worried about you," Lila mumbled. What he's going to do is something dangerous in a place that's so far away, without her by his side. The very thought of it scared her.
"I can't tell you not to worry. But I can reassure you. Do you know what you gave me when we met? This time, I'll protect you to the end. Even without memories, that desire was there from the beginning. Those were the feelings you gave me as the memories of my long and lonely past resurfaced. That was the ray of light that resurfaced and showed me the way. And I lost myself to desire plenty of times. I made many mistakes. But I couldn't stop myself. To shake off those contradictions, I imposed many unreasonable demands on you, and I took away the smile that radiated from the bottom of your heart."
Lila shook her head, "Your wrong Haruka. Although I can't say that your actions have never hurt me before. You're the one who brought back my smile; you didn't take anything from me. You've given me so much."
Haruka smiles softly, "If you think so, I'm not going to argue. Besides, your mine aren't you?"
"Yes."
"You know when it was time to let you go. I thought it would be enough if I could watch over you. But you who lived as a normal girl, you who became an idol became even more of a radiant existence to me. How you desperately tried to help a stranger who was hurt. How you worked hard on your appearance, worked hard to fix all your flaws for the guy you like. Worked hard to convey your feelings to people. "
He's so stupid. She's the one who should be saying words of gratitude. If she didn't meet Karashima Haruka, she would still be an empty existence. It's because they met because they crossed paths. That she was able to discover the beauty of the world; the beauty Kiryu pointed out to her before, but she couldn't see it. Back then, all she could see were raging storm clouds every day. However, when she met Karashima Haruka, she could finally see the light.
Lila shifted over, arms draped around his neck. " What is it? " she doesn't say anything and merely continues holding onto him tightly. Noticing she won't respond, Haruka merely caresses her hair.
Ever since she was younger, she found herself to be absorbed entirely in the world of knowledge. That's right long before she even met Karashima Haruka; she already noticed that books that contained understanding attracted her. At first, though it was only a means of escape, escape from all the shouting.
Mother and Ren-san would often fight. Fight, makeup. Back then, Lila did not understand why. Family life wasn't exactly as peaceful as everyone thought it was. That family already long fell apart, so perhaps what happened then was atonement. Atonement for what happened before. In that sense, there is no meaningless misfortune.
When she first stumbled upon Shakespeare's works, she learned the meaning in more depth. What a true tragedy is. Her form of escape were those books. To block out the sound, she would listen to music and escaping in the world of stories. But that in itself is too much of a fantasy.
People cannot escape from a reality that is there. She found out many things. So then how is she an outsider of society supposed to fit in? The answer is simple. 'You just have to live the same as everyone else,' Lila thought. And another is that most humans won't accept something as a fact. If it is outside what they consider common sense.
When Lila realized these things, even if she did that it wouldn't change anything, it won't make her world any less darker then it already was. It won't bring out the light she's seeking which is why she...she didn't try it and lived life without lying.
That light she was seeking so long, appeared to her the second she met him. Not only the light but a world of vibrant colors. A world of vibrant colors, durable and sturdy. He introduced her to paintings and colors that express every emotion. Buildings, people, animals - Karashima Haruka showed her how everyone is dyed in their own special color. Not just one color but several. Colors that only belong to that person alone.
"Can I make some selfish requests when were married properly Haruka?"
" Define 'selfish. ' "
She lifts her fingers to his lips, gently tracing them. " 'of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's profit or pleasure. ' "
"So you want to please yourself? Got it. Tell me what you want Lila. "Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please click www.webnovel.com for visiting.
"I want you to be more passionate than before."
Lila doesn't clarify what she's talking about. Nor does she even describe it. But right away, Haruka understands. "You're trying to kill me, aren't you?"
"Perhaps. But Haruka. You said you'd fall into hell with me. Do you have any right to whine at this stage? Or maybe I fell in love with an annoying guy after all. "
"Brat."
"It really is only with you Haruka, when I'm able to feel the most happiness. That's why when we're married properly. I will be blessed with the fact that we never have to part from each other, th
Lilas apartment 6:00 PMLila woke up to find herself alone in the room, so she scanned the place and stood up.She followed the scent she knows all too well to find him perched on the decking. Arms wrapped around his neck, Lila bends down, taking a whiff of his scent. His blood smells so sweet. "Hungry? ""Yes. Can I have a lot? ""Go ahead."She does. She takes quite a bit, and by the end of it, Haruka's complexion seemed lighter than usual. But he didn't complain and instead places light kisses on her forehead."Please feel free to leave me if you ever don't need me anymore."Even now he's still thinking such stupid things, isn't he? Then again, she too may have similar dark thoughts. If the two of them were to disclose it to anyone, they'd think it would be stupid. They'd get mad.After all, that's happened, it's clear where hers and Haruka's feelings standafter all. A love that is strong enough to shake up the heavens, huh?. However, to the two of them, it's only natural to have dark thoughts still. For they have never once thought they'd find happiness, let alone a love as beautiful as they have now."That's out of the question; I love you so much. ""I can say the same now. I love you. But didn't all of this start because I desired your blood? ""Back then too, any desires I had for you was because of your blood too," Lila mumbled.He smiles softly, "I will take this as a compliment. Until the day you acknowledge that you desire me in that manner too."Really he's a fool. But she's always liked it, his smile and the warmth that comes from his kisses. The warmth and light that comes from her violet-colored orbs softened."Haruka, the truth is I read the first part of your diary when I was browsing through the shelves." she leaned over and brushed her fingers across his neck and brought her lips down again,"' Ever since I met Lila again, I can smile more.' I'm pleased you wrote that. ""Yeah, I did. It's great. I met you again."She places a kiss on the deep bite mark and shuts her eyes. "Yeah, thanks for being here for me," Lila knew she could no longer live a life without this person....The two of them sat down on the decking area, her head resting on his shoulders. Hands enter wind against each other as they watched the continuous amounts of white snow falling a peaceful moment. Droplets of snow keep falling these days, but " You know, I think 'god ' really exists, and it isn't justdue to these powers that I have. After all, when I told God, ' I have something I can't tell. I want one wish... one wish to come true.""What did you ask?""I fell in love with somebody. I want to be happy, even if it means going against the destiny that had been laid out for me. '"Lila paused, " I want to be happy. I never thought something like that would cross my mind. Since I already accepted the destiny that had been laid out for me. It was supposed to be crystal clear like glass. The lonely future and path I'd take. But once I met you that changed."The moment she met Karashima Haruka, The gears of fate that had been taking shape, started to evolve into something different. The entire time it was happening. She already knew of it, and yet she stayed in that small world. If she remained there with another person, then these feelings wouldn't leak out. But it was impossible,after all."I don't know about God or whatever. But those feelings of yours -you should have informed me first. I should have been the first one to know. You know Lila, I didn't tell anyone that I was in love with you this entire time. I was rather vague about everything.""Ah, I thought that was because you were clumsy expressing your feelings.""Oi.""Am I wrong? ""...That was part of the reason." Yuhi admitted with a deep sigh. "But what I said just now was the main reason. I never told anyone because I wanted you to be the first person to know. That I was in love with you, and how I never considered anyone else. "Her cheeks colored red. Oh. "Um. .. ... ""Embarrassed?" Haruka said, caressing her cheeks gently with his hand. Even though there's nothing innocent about their relationship anymore. Rather at this point that they are confessing their secrets by one. The word 'desire' has always been there for the two of them. So could you reallysay there was anything innocent about their relationship? The answer is no."Un and a bit overwhelmed," Lila trailed off. Overwhelmed, and yet, each time he touches her and showers her with words of honesty and affection. She always feels that air of innocence.Haruka pulled her into his arms, causing her eyes to widen. "Lila. I'm sure you have figured it out by now. What I intend to do abroad.""Yes. That's why I'm very worried about you," Lila mumbled. What he's going to do is something dangerous in a place that's so far away, without her by his side. The very thought of it scared her."I can't tell you not to worry. But I can reassure you. Do you know what you gave me when we met? This time, I'll protect you to the end. Even without memories,that desire was there from the beginning. Those were the feelings you gave me as the memories of my long and lonely past resurfaced. That was the ray of light that resurfaced and showed me the way. And I lost myself to desire plenty of times. I made many mistakes. But I couldn't stop myself. To shake off those contradictions, I imposed many unreasonable demands on you, and I took away the smile that radiated from the bottom of your heart."Lila shook her head, "Your wrong Haruka. Although I can't say that your actions have never hurt me before. You're the one who brought back my smile; you didn't take anything from me. You've given me so much."Haruka smiles softly, "If you think so, I'm not going to argue. Besides, your mine aren't you?""Yes.""You know when it was time to let you go. I thought it would be enough if I could watch over you. But you who lived as a normal girl, you who became an idol became even more of a radiant existence to me. How you desperately tried to help a stranger who was hurt. How you worked hard on your appearance, worked hard to fix all your flaws for the guy you like. Worked hard to convey your feelings to people. "He's so stupid. She's the one who should be saying words of gratitude. If she didn't meet Karashima Haruka, she would still be an empty existence. It's because they met because they crossed paths. That she was able to discover the beauty of the world; the beauty Kiryu pointed out to her before, but she couldn't see it. Back then, all she could see were raging storm clouds every day. However, when she met Karashima Haruka, she could finally see the light.Lila shifted over, arms draped around his neck. "What is it?" she doesn't say anything and merely continues holding onto him tightly. Noticing she won't respond, Haruka merely caresses her hair.Ever since she was younger, she found herself to be absorbed entirely in the world of knowledge. That's right long before she even met Karashima Haruka; she already noticed that books that contained understanding attracted her. At first, though it was only a means of escape, escape from all the shouting.Mother and Ren-san would often fight. Fight, makeup. Back then, Lila did not understand why. Family life wasn't exactly as peaceful as everyone thought it was. That family already long fell apart, so perhaps what happened then was atonement. Atonement for what happened before. In that sense, there is no meaningless misfortune.When she first stumbled upon Shakespeare's works, she learned the meaning in more depth. What a true tragedy is. Her form of escape were those books. To block out the sound, she would listen to music and escaping in the world of stories. But that in itselfis too much of a fantasy.People cannot escape from a reality that is there. She found out many things. So then how is she an outsider of society supposed to fit in? The answer is simple. 'You just have to live the same as everyone else,' Lila thought. And another is that most humans won't accept something as a fact. If it is outside what they consider common sense.When Lila realized these things, even if she did that it wouldn't change anything, it won't make her world any less darker then it already was. It won't bring out the light she's seeking which is why she...she didn't try it and lived life without lying.That light she was seeking so long, appeared to her the second she met him. Not only the light but a world of vibrant colors. A world of vibrant colors, durable and sturdy. He introduced her to paintings and colors that express every emotion. Buildings, people, animals - Karashima Haruka showed her how everyone is dyed in their own special color. Not just one color but several. Colors that only belong to that person alone."Can I make some selfish requests when were married properly Haruka?""Define 'selfish. ' "She lifts her fingers to his lips, gently tracing them. "'of a person, action, or motive lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's profit or pleasure. ' ""So you want to please yourself? Got it. Tell me what you want Lila. "Find authorized novels in Webnovelfaster updates, better experiencePlease click www.webnovel.com for visiting."I want you to be more passionate than before."Lila doesn't clarify what she's talking about. Nor does she even describe it. But right away, Haruka understands. "You're trying to kill me, aren't you?""Perhaps. But Haruka. You said you'd fall into hell with me. Do you have any right to whine at this stage? Or maybe I fell in love with an annoying guy after all. ""Brat.""It really is only with you Haruka, when I'm able to feel the most happiness. That's why when we're married properly.I will be blessed with the fact that we never have to part from each other, th
