──────────or so I thought, but…
.
I wonder if this is a dream? Or perhaps an illusion?
For the time being I tried to reach out my hand towards the fair-skinned face in front of me. It’s warm. When I continued like that and caressed that cheek, those morning glow eyes squinted in comfort.
As if entrusting itself, I felt the weight of the head that came snuggling up to me, and that beautiful face was something I couldn’t believe.
.
As expected, is this a dream? Or an illusion? I must ascertain it. Compelled by that mind, I , without asking anything, pinched that cheek with all my strength.
.
“～～～～～～～─!!!”
.
With a soundless scream my hand was taken off. The hand that gripped mine, that slender bony hand was also warm.
The cheek I pinched seemed to be in considerable pain, as I could see transparent film on those morning glow eyes above my line of sight.[1]
My, my, what a miserable face it is.
Even if I didn’t say it out, it seemed that facial expression is more eloquent than the mouth as I was being glared at sharply.
When you’re being glared seriously by that androgynous beauty, there really was an outrageous impact. Well, I’ve become used to it though.
.
“What are you doing!”
“I thought you are just a daydream”
“Just who is a daydream!”
.
Hearing that pleasant voice be raised this much, I wonder how many years had passed since the last time I heard it? Un, as expected, I feel that this was a dream. The man I know, was not a man who would reveal his emotion this much.
.
“I wonder if it’s because I haven’t really slept recently… No good, it’s just like what Suzette has said”
“Oi, what are you saying”
.
For some reason the illusion in front of me was saying various things, but it’s all just an auditory hallucination caused by my lack of sleep, wasn’t it? How many months ago did the last time I truly have a decent sleep?
After receiving the news about that man’s death, I hadn’t really slept.
.
Even if the whole world was brimming with the success of the Demon King’s subjugation, and there was a parade for the triumphal return of the Hero and his party today, nothing could dispel my lack of sleep.
Although I feel grateful that I became slimmer due to my decreasing appetite, since it was definitely not a healthy way to slim up by any standard, together with my lack of sleep, these two did a double-punch on me and caused my skin to be worn out. Even the black circle under my eyes had entered the point where they couldn’t be covered up by makeup anymore.
Even though with that man gone I had no more worry about having our looks being compared, that man keep on thoroughly troubling me even after he died.
.
My parents gently left me by myself, but my nanny was “Until ojou-sama is asleep, I will stay by your side” as she considerately attended to me, and my brother was “Aneue, let’s just forget that kind of man. I will bring you happiness” as he gave out a siscon remark.
.
Putting aside my nanny, oh, my brother, first of all, onee-chan wishes for you to cure that siscon of yours.
Was it the result of unintentionally spoiling him since he was a child? Well, let’s just put that aside, rather than that, the man my brother evaluated as [that kind of man].
The one, that was right in front of me, in this situation, that I just couldn’t possibly think of it being a reality.
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As expected I couldn’t think anything other than me having a dream right now.
.
“Should I take a quick nap? Aah, that’s right, if I remember right, the herb tea is still…”
“Cut it out, Filimina!”
“─!”
.
The moment I removed my gaze upon the illusion in front of me and turned around, my arm was grabbed. I felt the heat it held there. The scar on my back throbbed.
Could it be, somewhere in my heads [I] whispered. That should be impossible, as [I] who tried to see the ‘reality’ desperately tried to stop me.
Shaking off that [me], I timidly looked up at that face that even came out in my dreams.
What I saw there was that pair of beautiful morning glow eyes. I then realized my lip trembled.
.
“─────Eddy?”
“Yeah”
“Why are you here?”
“Is that wrong?”
“It’s not wrong. Just, strange”
.
Towards that somehow disheartened voice, strangely I was able to continue speaking plainly with composure.
The dewy black hair that no one in the whole country but him possessed. That figure of him still wearing his travel outfit as it was.
In front of my eyes, that man. Since the day of that report, that man who no one had information on, Eguiédills von Lancent, was here. I wonder what did this mean?
.
“I thought, you’ve already”
“died, you mean?”
“Yes”
“Sorry to disappoint you. I’ve returned alive”
“……yes. …no, no, yes”
“Which one is it”
.
The voice that had irritation mixed in was so nostalgic. Which reminded me, that’s right. This man who had always been composed, when I tried to avoid stating things like this, he often seemed like he was irritated. For example, yes, when it was something related to the marriage.
.
He always had that feeling of indebtedness towards me in him. Because of the scar on this back, this indebtedness resulted in this man to be engaged with me, didn’t it?
After all, wasn’t it so? Otherwise, there wasn’t any reason for this man, the head of royal magician, to continue this engagement relation with someone like me, who was just as average as any others in looks and ability.
No matter how black hair was being feared or kept at a distance by people, but it was not like there wasn’t anyone, who was of a superior quality than me, that desired this man enough to overcome those fears.
The only cards[2] I held, were that I was his childhood friend, as well as this scar on my back, just these two. I just couldn’t possibly say by myself that I want to get married. I didn’t want to do something like using the feeling of indebtedness towards me that this man had. It was not because I was thinking about him, it was just my obstinacy. Even I myself thought that I was really a woman with no hint of cuteness at all.
.
To be engaged with this kind of woman, this man really was someone to be pitied. Even so, this alone was something that I couldn’t give up, that’s why I always avoided it, then, because of that, umm─────aah, I couldn’t understand anything anymore.
.
As if it was somebody else’s problem, I was made to realized that I was considerably in confusion. He is alive. He is alive. It repeated over and over inside my mind, as I could do nothing but to looked up at that face dumbfoundedly, meanwhile, he just kept on continuing his words quickly without any reserve or whatsoever towards me.
According to him, it was true that due to the grand magic, he was on the verge of losing his life.
That grand magic wasn’t one that exchanged life for its activation, but it was just that the user would be the center of explosion and lose their life. This man, who had researched about this magic previously, used his teleportation magic at the last moment and just barely kept his life.
Whether this would be successful or not had been a bet, but as the result showed, this man had won that bet. Although it was really just barely. Afterwards, to lure the Demon King army into relaxing their guard, he even hid himself from his comrades and secretly maneuvering around.
Then at the final ground, just before the castle of the Demon King, he joined them again and defeated the Demon King together with the magnificent heroes and his apprentice, such was the details.
.
What’s with that. No, certainly the story of a comrade who you thought had been dead was actually alive and then joined the party again was something you heard often though.
.
I see, I see, [I] nodded to it in my mind belatedly. Following it lately, I too was nodding in affirmation. In other words, this man in front of me, was not a dream nor an illusion.
Until that, okay, okay, I still understood. It was fine until that, but then, for what reason, was he here?
.
“Eddy, soon the parade for the triumphal return would begin, wouldn’t it? Then shouldn’t you not be in a place like this?”
“There’s no problem. I’ve told those guys, and to the others it would said that I couldn’t move and was bedridden due to my heavy injury”
“…you’ve arranged it well”
.
For him to do it to that extent, I had nothing but amazement. Really, what’s this man doing? What should I say to this man who used his good head uselessly like this? This head shouldn’t be used for the sake of someone like me. This man who had become the hero that saved the world.
Aah, was it wrong? I’m sure it’s not for someone like me. Come to think of it, since the olden days, he was the man who wanted to finish something he’s displeased with earlier.
.
“If you have something to say, I hope you would make it in brief. I won’t say something about you entering as you please now, so shouldn’t you hurriedly go back to Hime-sama’s side?”
.
Hime-sama who had ended her long journey and finally returned back to this Royal Capital. Just like this man, she was also a comrade who had became the hero that saved the world. If you want to tell me about cancelling our engagement, just say it quick. It’s greatly enough for me that you’ve returned alive. But please spare me from continuing this dangling situation more than this.
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However, was me bringing out about Hime-sama something unexpected, as that man knitted his beautiful eyebrows puzzledly. What are you talking about? that expression seemed to say that.
.
“…For whose sake do you think I returned alive?”
“For the kingdom, and also the heroes, right?”
.
For the princess, right? was something I couldn’t say. No matter how much of a presumptuous mob I was to compare myself to Hime-sama, I still had my pride as a woman.
.
Until now, that man had stood alone in isolation as he was feared and kept at a distance by people due to this level of magic power and his warped personality. It was for this reason that I could stay as the one closest to him. However, that too had ended.
Seeing this situation, it seemed he had become a good friend with the Hero (I forgot his name), and that was also the case with that leader. That soft expression he had shown the moment he said [those guys], I was not so dense to not notice that. We had not such a shallow relationship for me to not notice that, after all.
.
What are you making me think about at this late hour. As expected, saying I’ve prepared myself, was just a lie. I was happy that he returned alive. That was the truth. I was so happy to the extent I could just die. I was so happy, so happy, I couldn’t helped it. However my jealousy was also to the same extent. How egoistic of me.
Unclear whether the man in front of me knew about that kind of me or not, for some reason he opened his eyes wide as if surprised and gazed down on me. What’s with that face. It’s as if those eyes were seeing something unbelievable. His mouth flapped open and closed as if wanting to say something but swallowed the words over and over, then the man, seemingly had finally resolved himself, called out my name.
.
“Filimina”
“What is it?”
“I certainly, had once prepared myself for death”
“Yes”
.
I thought it was a foolish action. A helplessly foolish action. I bet someone like me hadn’t passed through his mind at all, right?
I glared at him with that feeling, but he just stared back at me without flinching nor hesitating. That face that I hadn’t seen in a while is truly beautiful, but I realized that there was now a slight scar remaining under that left eye. I unconsciously reached my hand out towards that scar, and when my hand barely managed to stop, it was in turn grabbed by him.
I grimaced as my hand was tightly squeezed to the point of it being painful, and when he realized it, he quickly loosened his strength. However, he didn’t let go of my hand.
As we stood face to face, with our hands connected, that man continued.
.
“At that time, there was something that I thought of”
.
Hime-sama, is it? When I laughed at myself in my innermost thought as I looked at him, his other hand touched my cheek. It was such a gentle hand, to the point of it being surprising. Was he the kind of man that can touch someone like this? Those morning glow eyes clearly filled with heat, as they gazed down at me.
.
“It was you”
“Me?”
.
What’s that about. Did you think something like please be happy or something along those lines?
.
“[Please don’t be happy]”
“Ha?”
.
I didn’t hear it clearly. Or rather, I didn’t want to hear it. My thought was unable to catch up and I just kept on blinking, but from the mood he gave out it seemed this man wasn’t telling me a joke. It was a complete serious, earnest look.
.
“[Please don’t be happy, in a world without me]. I thought that”
“…that was, quite”
.
How to say it, quite warped of him.
Even without worrying about that, thanks to him I would completely be treated like a widow even before being married. A world without this man, a world without black and morning glow color, would just be the same with a colorless world. Without any pain. Without any boredom. Just tranquility, and a helpless feeling of loss taking up in my heart, it would be that kind of world. In that kind of world, how could I be happy, I wonder?
.
Had I been shunned so much for him to wish for my unhappiness when he was in the brink of death? ─────No, that’s wrong. That’s wrong, wasn’t it? It wasn’t like that, right? Those morning glow eyes were gazing down at me. They were really beautiful eyes. Since that day on my childhood, those eyes had captivated my eyes and me. On those eyes, it seemed like a heated light was scorching. Aah, is that so. It was like that. I had known about it. It was truly like that. This was precisely, Eguiédills von Lancent.
.
“What a foolish man”
.
My voice trembled. The same words I muttered on that day when I heard the news, was said with a totally different feeling now. A foolish man. Truly. Even though I didn’t praise him even in the slightest, somehow the beauty in front of me squinted his eyes happily. Truly a foolish man. It’s not a joke. How much, had I. Even words to speak ill couldn’t be formed at all. My voice wouldn’t come out. But instead, I felt warm thing fell down on my cheek.
.
“Don’t cry”
“At least, let my cry at times like this”
.
His lively voice was irritating. It had been like that since before. He’d only laughed when I was troubled or made a mistake. However, this man’s sweet smile I could peek at those kind of time, I liked it. I loved it. I brought my cheek closer to his chest. Circling my hands on his back, I hid my tears. As if answering me, my back was circled by warmth, which made my tears to overflow even further.
.
“Welcome back, Eddy”
“Yeah, I’m back”
.
I’m back. I’ve been wishing for that words.
.
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And then, my nanny who came to check on my condition was taken aback after seeing us embracing each other in the room and literally dislocated her back, it was a story happened few minutes after this.
[1]in case it’s not clear, his eyes went teary because of the pain XD
[2]it means advantage
──────────or so I thought, but…
.
I wonder if this is a dream? Or perhaps an illusion?
For the time being I tried to reach out my hand towards the fair-skinned face in front of me. It’s warm. When I continued like that and caressed that cheek, those morning glow eyes squinted in comfort.
As if entrusting itself, I felt the weight of the head that came snuggling up to me, and that beautiful face was something I couldn’t believe.
.
As expected, is this a dream? Or an illusion? I must ascertain it. Compelled by that mind, I , without asking anything, pinched that cheek with all my strength.
.
“～～～～～～～─!!!”
.
With a soundless scream my hand was taken off. The hand that gripped mine, that slender bony hand was also warm.
The cheek I pinched seemed to be in considerable pain, as I could see transparent film on those morning glow eyes above my line of sight.[1]
My, my, what a miserable face it is.
Even if I didn’t say it out, it seemed that facial expression is more eloquent than the mouth as I was being glared at sharply.
When you’re being glared seriously by that androgynous beauty, there really was an outrageous impact. Well, I’ve become used to it though.
.
“What are you doing!”
“I thought you are just a daydream”
“Just who is a daydream!”
.
Hearing that pleasant voice be raised this much, I wonder how many years had passed since the last time I heard it? Un, as expected, I feel that this was a dream. The man I know, was not a man who would reveal his emotion this much.
.
“I wonder if it’s because I haven’t really slept recently… No good, it’s just like what Suzette has said”
“Oi, what are you saying”
.
For some reason the illusion in front of me was saying various things, but it’s all just an auditory hallucination caused by my lack of sleep, wasn’t it? How many months ago did the last time I truly have a decent sleep?
After receiving the news about that man’s death, I hadn’t really slept.
.
Even if the whole world was brimming with the success of the Demon King’s subjugation, and there was a parade for the triumphal return of the Hero and his party today, nothing could dispel my lack of sleep.
Although I feel grateful that I became slimmer due to my decreasing appetite, since it was definitely not a healthy way to slim up by any standard, together with my lack of sleep, these two did a double-punch on me and caused my skin to be worn out. Even the black circle under my eyes had entered the point where they couldn’t be covered up by makeup anymore.
Even though with that man gone I had no more worry about having our looks being compared, that man keep on thoroughly troubling me even after he died.
.
My parents gently left me by myself, but my nanny was “Until ojou-sama is asleep, I will stay by your side” as she considerately attended to me, and my brother was “Aneue, let’s just forget that kind of man. I will bring you happiness” as he gave out a siscon remark.
.
Putting aside my nanny, oh, my brother, first of all, onee-chan wishes for you to cure that siscon of yours.
Was it the result of unintentionally spoiling him since he was a child? Well, let’s just put that aside, rather than that, the man my brother evaluated as [that kind of man].
The one, that was right in front of me, in this situation, that I just couldn’t possibly think of it being a reality.
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As expected I couldn’t think anything other than me having a dream right now.
.
“Should I take a quick nap? Aah, that’s right, if I remember right, the herb tea is still…”
“Cut it out, Filimina!”
“─!”
.
The moment I removed my gaze upon the illusion in front of me and turned around, my arm was grabbed. I felt the heat it held there. The scar on my back throbbed.
Could it be, somewhere in my heads [I] whispered. That should be impossible, as [I] who tried to see the ‘reality’ desperately tried to stop me.
Shaking off that [me], I timidly looked up at that face that even came out in my dreams.
What I saw there was that pair of beautiful morning glow eyes. I then realized my lip trembled.
.
“─────Eddy?”
“Yeah”
“Why are you here?”
“Is that wrong?”
“It’s not wrong. Just, strange”
.
Towards that somehow disheartened voice, strangely I was able to continue speaking plainly with composure.
The dewy black hair that no one in the whole country but him possessed. That figure of him still wearing his travel outfit as it was.
In front of my eyes, that man. Since the day of that report, that man who no one had information on, Eguiédills von Lancent, was here. I wonder what did this mean?
.
“I thought, you’ve already”
“died, you mean?”
“Yes”
“Sorry to disappoint you. I’ve returned alive”
“……yes. …no, no, yes”
“Which one is it”
.
The voice that had irritation mixed in was so nostalgic. Which reminded me, that’s right. This man who had always been composed, when I tried to avoid stating things like this, he often seemed like he was irritated. For example, yes, when it was something related to the marriage.
.
He always had that feeling of indebtedness towards me in him. Because of the scar on this back, this indebtedness resulted in this man to be engaged with me, didn’t it?
After all, wasn’t it so? Otherwise, there wasn’t any reason for this man, the head of royal magician, to continue this engagement relation with someone like me, who was just as average as any others in looks and ability.
No matter how black hair was being feared or kept at a distance by people, but it was not like there wasn’t anyone, who was of a superior quality than me, that desired this man enough to overcome those fears.
The only cards[2] I held, were that I was his childhood friend, as well as this scar on my back, just these two. I just couldn’t possibly say by myself that I want to get married. I didn’t want to do something like using the feeling of indebtedness towards me that this man had. It was not because I was thinking about him, it was just my obstinacy. Even I myself thought that I was really a woman with no hint of cuteness at all.
.
To be engaged with this kind of woman, this man really was someone to be pitied. Even so, this alone was something that I couldn’t give up, that’s why I always avoided it, then, because of that, umm─────aah, I couldn’t understand anything anymore.
.
As if it was somebody else’s problem, I was made to realized that I was considerably in confusion. He is alive. He is alive. It repeated over and over inside my mind, as I could do nothing but to looked up at that face dumbfoundedly, meanwhile, he just kept on continuing his words quickly without any reserve or whatsoever towards me.
According to him, it was true that due to the grand magic, he was on the verge of losing his life.
That grand magic wasn’t one that exchanged life for its activation, but it was just that the user would be the center of explosion and lose their life. This man, who had researched about this magic previously, used his teleportation magic at the last moment and just barely kept his life.
Whether this would be successful or not had been a bet, but as the result showed, this man had won that bet. Although it was really just barely. Afterwards, to lure the Demon King army into relaxing their guard, he even hid himself from his comrades and secretly maneuvering around.
Then at the final ground, just before the castle of the Demon King, he joined them again and defeated the Demon King together with the magnificent heroes and his apprentice, such was the details.
.
What’s with that. No, certainly the story of a comrade who you thought had been dead was actually alive and then joined the party again was something you heard often though.
.
I see, I see, [I] nodded to it in my mind belatedly. Following it lately, I too was nodding in affirmation. In other words, this man in front of me, was not a dream nor an illusion.
Until that, okay, okay, I still understood. It was fine until that, but then, for what reason, was he here?
.
“Eddy, soon the parade for the triumphal return would begin, wouldn’t it? Then shouldn’t you not be in a place like this?”
“There’s no problem. I’ve told those guys, and to the others it would said that I couldn’t move and was bedridden due to my heavy injury”
“…you’ve arranged it well”
.
For him to do it to that extent, I had nothing but amazement. Really, what’s this man doing? What should I say to this man who used his good head uselessly like this? This head shouldn’t be used for the sake of someone like me. This man who had become the hero that saved the world.
Aah, was it wrong? I’m sure it’s not for someone like me. Come to think of it, since the olden days, he was the man who wanted to finish something he’s displeased with earlier.
.
“If you have something to say, I hope you would make it in brief. I won’t say something about you entering as you please now, so shouldn’t you hurriedly go back to Hime-sama’s side?”
.
Hime-sama who had ended her long journey and finally returned back to this Royal Capital. Just like this man, she was also a comrade who had became the hero that saved the world. If you want to tell me about cancelling our engagement, just say it quick. It’s greatly enough for me that you’ve returned alive. But please spare me from continuing this dangling situation more than this.
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However, was me bringing out about Hime-sama something unexpected, as that man knitted his beautiful eyebrows puzzledly. What are you talking about? that expression seemed to say that.
.
“…For whose sake do you think I returned alive?”
“For the kingdom, and also the heroes, right?”
.
For the princess, right? was something I couldn’t say. No matter how much of a presumptuous mob I was to compare myself to Hime-sama, I still had my pride as a woman.
.
Until now, that man had stood alone in isolation as he was feared and kept at a distance by people due to this level of magic power and his warped personality. It was for this reason that I could stay as the one closest to him. However, that too had ended.
Seeing this situation, it seemed he had become a good friend with the Hero (I forgot his name), and that was also the case with that leader. That soft expression he had shown the moment he said [those guys], I was not so dense to not notice that. We had not such a shallow relationship for me to not notice that, after all.
.
What are you making me think about at this late hour. As expected, saying I’ve prepared myself, was just a lie. I was happy that he returned alive. That was the truth. I was so happy to the extent I could just die. I was so happy, so happy, I couldn’t helped it. However my jealousy was also to the same extent. How egoistic of me.
Unclear whether the man in front of me knew about that kind of me or not, for some reason he opened his eyes wide as if surprised and gazed down on me. What’s with that face. It’s as if those eyes were seeing something unbelievable. His mouth flapped open and closed as if wanting to say something but swallowed the words over and over, then the man, seemingly had finally resolved himself, called out my name.
.
“Filimina”
“What is it?”
“I certainly, had once prepared myself for death”
“Yes”
.
I thought it was a foolish action. A helplessly foolish action. I bet someone like me hadn’t passed through his mind at all, right?
I glared at him with that feeling, but he just stared back at me without flinching nor hesitating. That face that I hadn’t seen in a while is truly beautiful, but I realized that there was now a slight scar remaining under that left eye. I unconsciously reached my hand out towards that scar, and when my hand barely managed to stop, it was in turn grabbed by him.
I grimaced as my hand was tightly squeezed to the point of it being painful, and when he realized it, he quickly loosened his strength. However, he didn’t let go of my hand.
As we stood face to face, with our hands connected, that man continued.
.
“At that time, there was something that I thought of”
.
Hime-sama, is it? When I laughed at myself in my innermost thought as I looked at him, his other hand touched my cheek. It was such a gentle hand, to the point of it being surprising. Was he the kind of man that can touch someone like this? Those morning glow eyes clearly filled with heat, as they gazed down at me.
.
“It was you”
“Me?”
.
What’s that about. Did you think something like please be happy or something along those lines?
.
“[Please don’t be happy]”
“Ha?”
.
I didn’t hear it clearly. Or rather, I didn’t want to hear it. My thought was unable to catch up and I just kept on blinking, but from the mood he gave out it seemed this man wasn’t telling me a joke. It was a complete serious, earnest look.
.
“[Please don’t be happy, in a world without me]. I thought that”
“…that was, quite”
.
How to say it, quite warped of him.
Even without worrying about that, thanks to him I would completely be treated like a widow even before being married. A world without this man, a world without black and morning glow color, would just be the same with a colorless world. Without any pain. Without any boredom. Just tranquility, and a helpless feeling of loss taking up in my heart, it would be that kind of world. In that kind of world, how could I be happy, I wonder?
.
Had I been shunned so much for him to wish for my unhappiness when he was in the brink of death? ─────No, that’s wrong. That’s wrong, wasn’t it? It wasn’t like that, right? Those morning glow eyes were gazing down at me. They were really beautiful eyes. Since that day on my childhood, those eyes had captivated my eyes and me. On those eyes, it seemed like a heated light was scorching. Aah, is that so. It was like that. I had known about it. It was truly like that. This was precisely, Eguiédills von Lancent.
.
“What a foolish man”
.
My voice trembled. The same words I muttered on that day when I heard the news, was said with a totally different feeling now. A foolish man. Truly. Even though I didn’t praise him even in the slightest, somehow the beauty in front of me squinted his eyes happily. Truly a foolish man. It’s not a joke. How much, had I. Even words to speak ill couldn’t be formed at all. My voice wouldn’t come out. But instead, I felt warm thing fell down on my cheek.
.
“Don’t cry”
“At least, let my cry at times like this”
.
His lively voice was irritating. It had been like that since before. He’d only laughed when I was troubled or made a mistake. However, this man’s sweet smile I could peek at those kind of time, I liked it. I loved it. I brought my cheek closer to his chest. Circling my hands on his back, I hid my tears. As if answering me, my back was circled by warmth, which made my tears to overflow even further.
.
“Welcome back, Eddy”
“Yeah, I’m back”
.
I’m back. I’ve been wishing for that words.
.
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And then, my nanny who came to check on my condition was taken aback after seeing us embracing each other in the room and literally dislocated her back, it was a story happened few minutes after this.
[1]in case it’s not clear, his eyes went teary because of the pain XD
[2]it means advantage
