As Xiang Wan thought of it, her dubious gaze fell on him.
“Mm?” Bai Muchuan looked at her. “What’s up?”
Xiang Wan drew closer and turned herself, now pressing on him lightly. She narrowed her eyes slightly and whispered, “Bai Muchuan, is something bothering you?”
Bai Muchuan looked at her without another word. “…”
He kept quiet, but his gaze felt dangerous.
Xiang Wan felt slightly suffocated and got even more worried. “You do like me, right?”
“… Of course!”
“So you do like me.”
“Mm.”
“Don’t you feel that you’re really being strange right now?”
“Mm? Where?”
Xiang Wan’s gaze moved slowly downwards from his handsome face.
Her heart suddenly quivered, and she hurriedly looked at his face.
“You’re not acting normal!”
“Hur! Which part of me is not normal?”
She couldn’t be saying he was abnormal since he did not proceed to the next step?
Xiang Wan blurted, “You’re really having some problems right now, aren’t you?”
Immediately as she blurted that, she felt her throat blocked.
Originally, she did not intend to be so direct.
She spoke too fast!
Too fast!
Her mouth had moved faster than her head. Would that hurt his pride?
The atmosphere was now… unusually awkward!
Xiang Wan cleared her throat gently and wanted to say something to salvage the situation when Bai Muchuan held her arm.
He pulled her, and she fell into his arms.
That familiar scent had a faint smell of the alcohol.
Bai Muchuan’s voice was deep and low. “Xiang Wan, what did I say the last time?”
Uh! As he held Xiang Wan tightly, she found her gasping for air. “The last time… which last time?”
“That last time when you said if I had a problem somewhere?”
“It’s not me the last time! It’s Quan Laowu…”
She immediately pushed the blame away!
The corners of Bai Muchuan’s lips turned upwards. “What did I say back then?”
Xiang Wan pursed her lips lightly. “I forgot!”
Bai Muchuan’s eyes were half-closed, forming a dangerous squint, his breathing was heavy as he drew close…
Through the thin layer of clothing, Xiang Wan could totally feel the rhythm of his heartbeat.
It was very fast, as fast as hers!
“Seems like if I don’t show some colors, you don’t know that I’m a meat eater…”
“… Shouldn’t the saying be ‘you’re not a vegetarian’?’”
“It’s the same!” This is not the main point, girl!
Bai Muchuan said seriously, “Xiang Wan, look at me.”
“I’m already looking at you?”
“Your gaze has been darting around!”
“…”
“It’s not.” Xiang Wan looked at him in the eye without blinking.
That persisted for quite a while which felt like a long time, like the passing of a world.
Suddenly, she let out a sigh. “Aye, you’re clearly the one who’s being weak here, and got all awkward about it.”
Her sudden remarks…
The sudden change in atmosphere…
The sudden silence in the room…
Everything happened suddenly…
Bai Muchuan’s smile was as if frozen on his face.
The one who was in control of the battlefield between the two of them had suddenly become Xiang Wan instead.
She looked at the quiet man whose obsidian-like eyes were so bright as if there was a sharp glint that could pierce through her heart.
“Just admit it!” she said.
“…”
Bai Muchuan did not say anything for a long time.
The snow outside the window, the light inside the room, and the warm light from the heater…
There felt like a fuzzy glow on their faces, not sure whose heart was being tormented…
“Do admit it, Bai Muchuan. Today, you seemed more fragile than ever… Don’t you dare say otherwise!”
“Aye!” Bai Muchuan heaved a sigh.
Ever since they got out of Wen Xin Nunnery, he had been putting on a tough front. After Xiang Wan exposed his disguise, he did not want to pretend anymore.
He was like a child who had no hiding place under the sun. That look of his sent a twinge to her heart.
She drew closer to him.
Her hand cupped his face as she consoled him.
“Bai Muchuan!” she called his name.
There was a blaming tone in her voice.
His eyelids moved. “Mm?”
Xiang Wan muttered, “Who am I to you?”
Bai Muchuan replied in a heartbeat, “My girlfriend.”
Xiang Wan’s eyes were half-closed. “No!”
Bai Muchuan looked at her quietly in response.
Xiang Wan sighed softly; she sat beside him with her back straight. She looked at him, all regal and calm like a queen. “We’ve already promised each other. This lifetime or in the next, we’ll belong to each other. Do you still think I’m only your girlfriend?”
“…” Bai Muchuan’s adam’s apple moved as he gulped. He took her hand. “Come inside the quilt, it’s cold outside!”
“I’m not cold, in fact, I feel hot!” Xiang Wan snorted stubbornly, “I’m not only your girlfriend, at least I’m a little more than just a girlfriend, right? But earlier, I suddenly feel that I’m actually nothing inside your heart!”
Bai Muchuan placed his big palm on her hand. “You think too much!”
Xiang Wan squinted her eyes at him. “Bai Muchuan, you’re really quite annoying!”
Bai Muchuan didn’t know what to reply. “…”
She started to become aggressive. “You don’t share anything with me—your moods, your feelings… Of course, you don’t want to talk about it and wanted to overcome them by yourself—I can respect that, but… don’t you think the waiting period is a bit too long?”
Bai Muchuan sighed. “… It’s not that.”
“Don’t deny it!” Xiang Wan’s eyes were as though smeared in poison as she removed his disguises one layer after another. “After we got to the foot of the mountain, you have been forcing yourself to smile… I wanted to ask you this for a long time. Bai Muchuan, are you selling your smiles? Who are you fooling?”
Bai Muchuan’s face suddenly distorted into that of an agonizing frown. “…”
“What happened inside the dark room? Are there… certain memories that made you upset?”
“Nope.”
“Then what is bothering you?”
After pausing for two seconds, Bai Muchuan smiled powerlessly. “Woman, why are you suddenly so fierce?”
“Well, I learned this from you! You’ve been like this the whole day.” Xiang Wan held his hands and looked at him, her eyes gleaming. “I’ve been thinking that since we experienced so much together, we should be of one mind as we shared our fate together. Bai Muchuan, am I wrong about this?”
“… No.”
Bai Muchuan seemed to have difficulty talking about it.
“I just can’t forgive myself.”
“?” Xiang Wan was puzzled but listened quietly.
“I… got affected by the drug and nearly harmed you…”
“Weren’t you pretending?” Xiang Wan raised an eyebrow.
“No…” Bai Muchuan’s expression was that of deep pain. “I almost lost control of myself—my self-control, I’ve always taken pride in was shattered before him. I feel really… ashamed of myself!”
Xiang Wan kept quiet.
The strange pride of a man seemed to be different from a woman.
Nonetheless, she was very clear that Bai Muchuan had depended on his strong self-confidence for him to make it this far in life.
Due to his strong self-confidence, he could grow up into a headstrong and tough Little Bai.
However, that drug, that fragrance, ruined everything…
The balance he had been holding on to had collapsed, and he was unable to accept it.
He could not get over his ‘failure’; for this, he refused to forgive himself.
“I can understand your feelings, but…” Xiang Wan smiled. “We can talk about this problem slowly. Tonight is not a suitable time for this.”
Bai Muchuan saw the ripples that surfaced in her eyes and was slightly dazed.
Xiang Wan pressed her lips together lightly then showed a mischievous smile. “Don’t you feel that tonight is better suited for something else? Hmm… For instance, what couples in love do?”
Bai Muchuan furrowed his eyebrows.
“You really did not dare to?” Xiang Wan looked at him provokingly.
A minute ago, she was actually hesitant about it.
However, when she knew about what he was troubled about, she was suddenly brave about it.
She thought that she needed to save Bai Muchuan!
Would the difficulties he couldn’t overcome most likely solved by that?
If one was not enough, then do it twice.
“Bai Muchuan, if you behave like a wuss again, I’ll look down on you!”
“…”
“So Quan Laowu is right about you after all?”
She said sentence after sentence to stimulate him as if they were charms to urge him to react. Bai Muchuan’s eyes were smeared with a layer of misty vapor. Gradually, the corners of his lips lifted upward. “You’re sure about it?”
Xiang Wan only revealed a slight smile and did not say another word.
Her naughty hand started to move downwards.
To the place where she had removed the pants personally, as well as the boxers which her line of sight had traced before.
The moment she came in contact lightly, Bai Muchuan caught her hands.
He squeezed her tightly.
He did it so tightly as if to break her bones.
“Xiang… Wan!” His voice was deep and hoarse. “I’ll ask you one more time, are you sure you want it here?”
To end the current situation of their love they had been unable to breakthrough…
To change their current relationship that had not progressed for quite a while…
To end the fright and panic they had felt after the ordeal…
Xiang Wan still did not say a word.
Her pair of lovely, watery eyes were looking at him.
With a smile, she offered her lips, as well as a deep kiss that got etched into his heart.
Bai Muchuan took a deep breath, the words that he wanted to say were blocked by her. The calmness in his mind was also broken at this instant. He let go of her hand slowly and put his arms around her waist. With a turn, she was now lying on top of the pure white bedsheet. Now, he had gained control of the situation. After gazing at her seriously, he cupped her face and kissed her with a swift gradation of intensity.
Xiang Wan’s breath was as though scattered…
There was a light and a sweet scent of rice wine amidst his fervent kisses.
Domineering and overbearing…
Xiang Wan felt all her energy draining away.
She was gasping, and her body felt soft like cotton wool. She was clinging onto his neck as she kissed him back… with a deeper kiss.
“Xiang Wan!”
Bai Muchuan looked at her for a moment, calling her name.
There was a faint uncertainty in those ink-like dark eyes of his.
“I’m willing…” Xiang Wan did not give him any time to think as she quickly tried to regain some senses from the almost suffocating kiss. Her breathing was shallow and urgent, her trembling hands stroked his face slowly as she offered her lips and kissed him once again.
Bai Muchuan let out a deep moan.
All calmness at this moment had completely collapsed.
His eyes were blazing like fire; he held her face and kissed her back deeply…
The kiss was intense and vigorous.
It was similar to a vent of emotions fiercely.
Xiang Wan felt uncomfortable as his body was pressing on her all this while. She tried to move, and she was soon lifted up by him.
She was nervous and was sweating all over. She also detected his nervousness.
He was undoing her clothes; he was flustered, and his palms felt scorchingly hot and clammy…
“Bai Muchuan…” Xiang Wan called his name.
It was unconscious without any motive. She simply felt like calling his name.
“Mm.” He answered lightly and threw her clothes aside, and then he kissed her vigorously again… Slowly, he stroked her wounded leg. “Is it painful?”
Xiang Wan shook her head, arching her body as she held his waist.
That action of hers was to tell him that her leg was fine.
Her legs felt like hellfire was burning through them, and that feeling was so clear that Bai Muchuan kept sweating at the thought.
He could no longer withhold it anymore, the explosive energy…
After such a long period of intimacy, the nerves were extremely sensitive.
A strong reaction encountered a high amount of nervousness.
“Mm!”
Her head was blank.
Eh? Xiang Wan gave a snort.
Next, she opened her eyes innocently and saw that his forehead was filled with perspiration as well as bulging veins.
“…”
As Xiang Wan thought of it, her dubious gaze fell on him.
“Mm?” Bai Muchuan looked at her. “What’s up?”
Xiang Wan drew closer and turned herself, now pressing on him lightly. She narrowed her eyes slightly and whispered, “Bai Muchuan, is something bothering you?”
Bai Muchuan looked at her without another word. “…”
He kept quiet, but his gaze felt dangerous.
Xiang Wan felt slightly suffocated and got even more worried. “You do like me, right?”
“… Of course!”
“So you do like me.”
“Mm.”
“Don’t you feel that you’re really being strange right now?”
“Mm? Where?”
Xiang Wan’s gaze moved slowly downwards from his handsome face.
Her heart suddenly quivered, and she hurriedly looked at his face.
“You’re not acting normal!”
“Hur! Which part of me is not normal?”
She couldn’t be saying he was abnormal since he did not proceed to the next step?
Xiang Wan blurted, “You’re really having some problems right now, aren’t you?”
Immediately as she blurted that, she felt her throat blocked.
Originally, she did not intend to be so direct.
She spoke too fast!
Too fast!
Her mouth had moved faster than her head. Would that hurt his pride?
The atmosphere was now… unusually awkward!
Xiang Wan cleared her throat gently and wanted to say something to salvage the situation when Bai Muchuan held her arm.
He pulled her, and she fell into his arms.
That familiar scent had a faint smell of the alcohol.
Bai Muchuan’s voice was deep and low. “Xiang Wan, what did I say the last time?”
Uh! As he held Xiang Wan tightly, she found her gasping for air. “The last time… which last time?”
“That last time when you said if I had a problem somewhere?”
“It’s not me the last time! It’s Quan Laowu…”
She immediately pushed the blame away!
The corners of Bai Muchuan’s lips turned upwards. “What did I say back then?”
Xiang Wan pursed her lips lightly. “I forgot!”
Bai Muchuan’s eyes were half-closed, forming a dangerous squint, his breathing was heavy as he drew close…
Through the thin layer of clothing, Xiang Wan could totally feel the rhythm of his heartbeat.
It was very fast, as fast as hers!
“Seems like if I don’t show some colors, you don’t know that I’m a meat eater…”
“… Shouldn’t the saying be ‘you’re not a vegetarian’?’”
“It’s the same!” This is not the main point, girl!
Bai Muchuan said seriously, “Xiang Wan, look at me.”
“I’m already looking at you?”
“Your gaze has been darting around!”
“…”
“It’s not.” Xiang Wan looked at him in the eye without blinking.
That persisted for quite a while which felt like a long time, like the passing of a world.
Suddenly, she let out a sigh. “Aye, you’re clearly the one who’s being weak here, and got all awkward about it.”
Her sudden remarks…
The sudden change in atmosphere…
The sudden silence in the room…
Everything happened suddenly…
Bai Muchuan’s smile was as if frozen on his face.
The one who was in control of the battlefield between the two of them had suddenly become Xiang Wan instead.
She looked at the quiet man whose obsidian-like eyes were so bright as if there was a sharp glint that could pierce through her heart.
“Just admit it!” she said.
“…”
Bai Muchuan did not say anything for a long time.
The snow outside the window, the light inside the room, and the warm light from the heater…
There felt like a fuzzy glow on their faces, not sure whose heart was being tormented…
“Do admit it, Bai Muchuan. Today, you seemed more fragile than ever… Don’t you dare say otherwise!”
“Aye!” Bai Muchuan heaved a sigh.
Ever since they got out of Wen Xin Nunnery, he had been putting on a tough front. After Xiang Wan exposed his disguise, he did not want to pretend anymore.
He was like a child who had no hiding place under the sun. That look of his sent a twinge to her heart.
She drew closer to him.
Her hand cupped his face as she consoled him.
“Bai Muchuan!” she called his name.
There was a blaming tone in her voice.
His eyelids moved. “Mm?”
Xiang Wan muttered, “Who am I to you?”
Bai Muchuan replied in a heartbeat, “My girlfriend.”
Xiang Wan’s eyes were half-closed. “No!”
Bai Muchuan looked at her quietly in response.
Xiang Wan sighed softly; she sat beside him with her back straight. She looked at him, all regal and calm like a queen. “We’ve already promised each other. This lifetime or in the next, we’ll belong to each other. Do you still think I’m only your girlfriend?”
“…” Bai Muchuan’s adam’s apple moved as he gulped. He took her hand. “Come inside the quilt, it’s cold outside!”
“I’m not cold, in fact, I feel hot!” Xiang Wan snorted stubbornly, “I’m not only your girlfriend, at least I’m a little more than just a girlfriend, right? But earlier, I suddenly feel that I’m actually nothing inside your heart!”
Bai Muchuan placed his big palm on her hand. “You think too much!”
Xiang Wan squinted her eyes at him. “Bai Muchuan, you’re really quite annoying!”
Bai Muchuan didn’t know what to reply. “…”
She started to become aggressive. “You don’t share anything with me—your moods, your feelings… Of course, you don’t want to talk about it and wanted to overcome them by yourself—I can respect that, but… don’t you think the waiting period is a bit too long?”
Bai Muchuan sighed. “… It’s not that.”
“Don’t deny it!” Xiang Wan’s eyes were as though smeared in poison as she removed his disguises one layer after another. “After we got to the foot of the mountain, you have been forcing yourself to smile… I wanted to ask you this for a long time. Bai Muchuan, are you selling your smiles? Who are you fooling?”
Bai Muchuan’s face suddenly distorted into that of an agonizing frown. “…”
“What happened inside the dark room? Are there… certain memories that made you upset?”
“Nope.”
“Then what is bothering you?”
After pausing for two seconds, Bai Muchuan smiled powerlessly. “Woman, why are you suddenly so fierce?”
“Well, I learned this from you! You’ve been like this the whole day.” Xiang Wan held his hands and looked at him, her eyes gleaming. “I’ve been thinking that since we experienced so much together, we should be of one mind as we shared our fate together. Bai Muchuan, am I wrong about this?”
“… No.”
Bai Muchuan seemed to have difficulty talking about it.
“I just can’t forgive myself.”
“?” Xiang Wan was puzzled but listened quietly.
“I… got affected by the drug and nearly harmed you…”
“Weren’t you pretending?” Xiang Wan raised an eyebrow.
“No…” Bai Muchuan’s expression was that of deep pain. “I almost lost control of myself—my self-control, I’ve always taken pride in was shattered before him. I feel really… ashamed of myself!”
Xiang Wan kept quiet.
The strange pride of a man seemed to be different from a woman.
Nonetheless, she was very clear that Bai Muchuan had depended on his strong self-confidence for him to make it this far in life.
Due to his strong self-confidence, he could grow up into a headstrong and tough Little Bai.
However, that drug, that fragrance, ruined everything…
The balance he had been holding on to had collapsed, and he was unable to accept it.
He could not get over his ‘failure’; for this, he refused to forgive himself.
“I can understand your feelings, but…” Xiang Wan smiled. “We can talk about this problem slowly. Tonight is not a suitable time for this.”
Bai Muchuan saw the ripples that surfaced in her eyes and was slightly dazed.
Xiang Wan pressed her lips together lightly then showed a mischievous smile. “Don’t you feel that tonight is better suited for something else? Hmm… For instance, what couples in love do?”
Bai Muchuan furrowed his eyebrows.
“You really did not dare to?” Xiang Wan looked at him provokingly.
A minute ago, she was actually hesitant about it.
However, when she knew about what he was troubled about, she was suddenly brave about it.
She thought that she needed to save Bai Muchuan!
Would the difficulties he couldn’t overcome most likely solved by that?
If one was not enough, then do it twice.
“Bai Muchuan, if you behave like a wuss again, I’ll look down on you!”
“…”
“So Quan Laowu is right about you after all?”
She said sentence after sentence to stimulate him as if they were charms to urge him to react. Bai Muchuan’s eyes were smeared with a layer of misty vapor. Gradually, the corners of his lips lifted upward. “You’re sure about it?”
Xiang Wan only revealed a slight smile and did not say another word.
Her naughty hand started to move downwards.
To the place where she had removed the pants personally, as well as the boxers which her line of sight had traced before.
The moment she came in contact lightly, Bai Muchuan caught her hands.
He squeezed her tightly.
He did it so tightly as if to break her bones.
“Xiang… Wan!” His voice was deep and hoarse. “I’ll ask you one more time, are you sure you want it here?”
To end the current situation of their love they had been unable to breakthrough…
To change their current relationship that had not progressed for quite a while…
To end the fright and panic they had felt after the ordeal…
Xiang Wan still did not say a word.
Her pair of lovely, watery eyes were looking at him.
With a smile, she offered her lips, as well as a deep kiss that got etched into his heart.
Bai Muchuan took a deep breath, the words that he wanted to say were blocked by her. The calmness in his mind was also broken at this instant. He let go of her hand slowly and put his arms around her waist. With a turn, she was now lying on top of the pure white bedsheet. Now, he had gained control of the situation. After gazing at her seriously, he cupped her face and kissed her with a swift gradation of intensity.
Xiang Wan’s breath was as though scattered…
There was a light and a sweet scent of rice wine amidst his fervent kisses.
Domineering and overbearing…
Xiang Wan felt all her energy draining away.
She was gasping, and her body felt soft like cotton wool. She was clinging onto his neck as she kissed him back… with a deeper kiss.
“Xiang Wan!”
Bai Muchuan looked at her for a moment, calling her name.
There was a faint uncertainty in those ink-like dark eyes of his.
“I’m willing…” Xiang Wan did not give him any time to think as she quickly tried to regain some senses from the almost suffocating kiss. Her breathing was shallow and urgent, her trembling hands stroked his face slowly as she offered her lips and kissed him once again.
Bai Muchuan let out a deep moan.
All calmness at this moment had completely collapsed.
His eyes were blazing like fire; he held her face and kissed her back deeply…
The kiss was intense and vigorous.
It was similar to a vent of emotions fiercely.
Xiang Wan felt uncomfortable as his body was pressing on her all this while. She tried to move, and she was soon lifted up by him.
She was nervous and was sweating all over. She also detected his nervousness.
He was undoing her clothes; he was flustered, and his palms felt scorchingly hot and clammy…
“Bai Muchuan…” Xiang Wan called his name.
It was unconscious without any motive. She simply felt like calling his name.
“Mm.” He answered lightly and threw her clothes aside, and then he kissed her vigorously again… Slowly, he stroked her wounded leg. “Is it painful?”
Xiang Wan shook her head, arching her body as she held his waist.
That action of hers was to tell him that her leg was fine.
Her legs felt like hellfire was burning through them, and that feeling was so clear that Bai Muchuan kept sweating at the thought.
He could no longer withhold it anymore, the explosive energy…
After such a long period of intimacy, the nerves were extremely sensitive.
A strong reaction encountered a high amount of nervousness.
“Mm!”
Her head was blank.
Eh? Xiang Wan gave a snort.
Next, she opened her eyes innocently and saw that his forehead was filled with perspiration as well as bulging veins.
“…”
