After dinner, I returned to my room.
When I nonchalantly opened a desk drawer, I discovered a notebook.
I flipped the pages around carelessly, what was written inside were thoughts of the day.
This is the diary Natsumi kept, huh.
As someone who have to act as her, I feel thankful.
Month O, Day X (Monday)
Today I went to the department store with Noriko, Keiko, and Miyu.
On the way, a guy from Shuurin High tried to flirt. He gave me his email address.
He wasn’t my type, so although right there I said I’m going to mail him later, afterwards I immediately threw it away.
Miyu said it was a waste, but for a woman of my level, that kind of unfashionable guy is simply a bother.
For a girl like Miyu though, he might be a good fit.
Playing friend sure is tiring.
Month O, Day △ (Tuesday)
Shuu-kun said he wanted to go out with me while keeping it secret from Noriko.
He wasn’t really my type, but he was good enough to go out with me for a bit.
Besides, I wanted to get back at that plain girl Noriko who’re so conceited despite her only good point was having rich parents.
When I mailed Shuu-kun my approval, he showed up in front of my house with high spirits and said things like “I like you” and such.
What an idiot.
Month O, Day □ (Wednesday)
That guy Komori gave me a purse as a present.
Even though I already told him that I like red, he still went and bought the light violet one.
So useless.
As my wallet, he should be doing his job properly.
I was annoyed, so I told him to stop talking to me for one week.
Reading the diary, I was dumbfounded.
No matter how you look at it, this neat and beautiful Natsumi had a rotten character.
Looking down on anyone, didn’t trust anyone even those she called friends, using her look to manipulate others, and not considering anyone other than herself.
Her look was excellent, but the inside was nothing more than cesspool.
I closed the notebook, took a breath, and stared at the ceiling.
I feel like I somehow understand why I was put in this body.
“Yosh!”
I let out a determined yell.
I will make this Natsumi a girl with beautiful character just like her look.
I will turn her into a man among men, no, a woman among women.
To have a healthy heart, I’ll cast aside any selfishness concealed within and devote myself for others.
I got reborn into this body after all.
Since that’s the case, I’ll love anyone from the bottom of my heart, I’ll become a nice girl whom everyone will fall for!
I fell asleep as I was drown in burning excitement.
The next day.
I felt terrible since morning. My body was sluggish and my stomach suffered a never-ending pain.
I’ve heard few things about the second day of having a period, but this much was outside my expectation.
Having to undergo something like this once a month but still keeping their calm, women sure have amazing willpower.
My steps were heavy as I walked to the bus stop. Miyu was already there when I arrived.
She didn’t even greet me and only gave a fleeting glance.
Must be because Noriko forbid her for talking to me.
‘How can you ignore me if as a friend!’ or so I wanted to scold her. But Natsumi herself actually made fun of her behind the scene. So I can’t really blame her.
I stood in front of Miyu and lowered my head.
“Miyu, sorry. Previously I’m a horrible girl. Even though I always said I’m your friend, I got cocky because of my beautiful face and made fun of you in my heart.”
Miyu looked at me with a surprised expression.
“W-What are you saying suddenly? Noriko already forbid me to talk to you. I’ll get ostracized if we were to be seen talking, so please don’t speak to me.”
“Yeah. That’s right. It’s just, I want to apologize for deceiving you all this time. I don’t really think I would be forgiven. But I’m truly sorry for having detestable thoughts about you before. Thank you for being my friend until now.”
I said so and left Miyu.
If Natsumi’s soul ever come back to this body, it’s troubling for having her friendship ruined, but continuing to deceive others is also not good.
I’ll do whatever I think is right.
I get into the bus as it arrived. Miyu was one meter behind me.
Even though yesterday she immediately came to my side and refused to get separated at all…..
I don’t know whether this is a trace of Natsumi’s spirit or something, but it felt very lonely.
It was like a hole had been opened on my chest.
When I realized it, my tears was already flowing.
Natsumi’s spirit is certainly not here, but it’s possible that her body is the one who reacted to the loneliness.
I wiped the tears with my sleeve as to not get found out by Miyu.
When I opened my shoe locker after arriving at the school, a sharp, irritating smell attacked me.
My shoe locker was full of kitchen waste.
Haah, how malicious.
As I let out a wry smile, Maeda, whose teeth I cracked yesterday, silently came over with a garbage box and a broom on hand.
Then he swept the kitchen waste and put them into the garbage box.
“Maeda-kun, thank you.”
“I-It’s nothing. I just feel like cleaning, that’s all.”
So he wants to help a troubled girl, huh?
What, so this guy has his good point after all.
My indoor shoes had a weird stain on it, so I couldn’t wear it.
Because of that, I decided to ‘make use’ of the slippers for visitor that was placed in front of staff room, and then went towards the classroom.
When I entered the classroom, Noriko, Keiko, and Miyu grinned broadly when they saw me.
Should I feel sad?
But well, first I have to apologize.
I left my bag on my seat and approached those three.
Yuuko who greeted me with a smile got surprised and grabbed my hand.
“Don’t do it, Nacchan! Fighting is not good!”
“It’s not like that, Yuuko-chan. I want to apologize to them.”
“Eh? Will they accept you again? I see….. Right, Nacchan is more suited to that way. Being a good person who hang around with someone like me doesn’t suit you.”
“Nn? You’re mistaken. It’s not about that. I’ll be right back so just wait a minute.”
The three of them turned nervous when I approached.
Well, seeing how I acted yesterday, they probably afraid I’m going to hit them.
Noriko tried to act tough even though her face was stiff.
“W-What? Do you have a problem?”
“No, not at all.”
“T-Then, please go away. You’re being an eyesore.”
Gah. What a brutal way of speaking. Completely mismatched with your beautiful look.
But well, she’s not the consistent type to begin with.
I lowered my head in front of Noriko.
“I’m sorry. I’ve been a horrible girl until now. However now my heart had changed. I won’t ask you to forgive my previous deed. But still, I want to apologize.”
“Wanting to rejoin our group after all this time, isn’t it too late? You, just stop that dramatic pose now!”
“You’re mistaken. I don’t want to rejoin your group. Say, was it Shuuichi? I’ve been going out with that guy. Even though I knew Noriko liked him, I still did that. Furthermore, I wasn’t serious in the least. I just wanted to annoy you. I’m actually a nasty girl who deceive others because she get carried away by her good look. Thank you for being friend with someone like me even for just a moment. Ah, that’s right, I haven’t read Keiko’s part. I only have read 2-3 pages of my diary after all. But probably I also insulted you just like Noriko and Miyu, so I’d like to apologize in advance. I’m sorry, Keiko. Well then, you’re most likely getting angry now, so I’ll excuse myself.”
When I returned to my seat, Yuuko asked me hesitantly.
“Nacchan, Watasaki-san looked like she wanted to kill you. What did you say to her?”
“Nothing much. I only apologized. For deceiving her until now, that is.”
“Why are you adding fuel to the fire? Wouldn’t they not know if you just keep quiet?”
“Nn. Why I wonder. But you know, if I’m deceiving others wouldn’t that mean I’m also deceiving myself? The person I respected was for sure, had an ugly look, and often get mocked by women. But he always said to not let your heart become ugly too. That’s why I want to be honest with myself, and only do things that I truly believe as cool. Sure, he also had his share of failures, and his superior as well as his senior ofter glared at him, not to mention he still didn’t get to be together with a woman until the end. However, he was blessed with a good friend and junior as a reward. I’m just the opposite. I’ve a good look, but my heart is really the worst. Even though people liked me because of my appearance, isn’t there no meaning if they loathe my personality? That’s why, I want my heart to be beautiful as well.”
Yuuko’s eyes blinked in surprise.
“You know Nacchan, I’ve said this yesterday, but what you’re saying is just like my Onii-chan. He isn’t popular with women, but I really like him. He always help me if I’m getting bullied. Could it be that you actually know him?”
None of my junior is named Kishida though.
Well, my words were just second-hand opinion after all.
Yuuko’s Onii-chan must be someone very warm.
“I don’t think so. Your Onii-san practice Judo, right? The person I know practiced Karate.”
“I see. So that’s how it is. But, somehow it sure feels cool. I also want to be like that, though it’s probably impossible.”
Yuuko stuck out her tongue as she said that.
No Yuuko, you have your own good point as well.
“Yuuko-chan, even if you don’t aim to be like that, you already have plenty of good point. Aren’t you amazingly kind? Even when people ridiculed your fatness, you didn’t turn hateful and still be cheerful like now. Isn’t that proof you’re really strong? I respect you so much.”
“Eh~? I’ll get embarrassed if Nacchan said that~ So awkward~”
“Hihihi. Too much flattery?”
“Geez~ Stop teasing me~”
“Ahaha. Sorry sorry. I really think that though. I hope Yuuko-chan will stay kind forever.”
Homeroom started after the teacher entered, but Komori still haven’t show up.
“I’ll start the homeroom. Get on your seat. The only one absent is Komori, huh?”
I raised my hand without thinking.
“What’s wrong, Oono?”
“Why is Komori-kun absent?”
“His body is not too well. This morning his mother contacted me. Everyone too, take care of your body to not get cold from the weather.”
My chest felt hurt. Does his condition caused by what I said yesterday?
Hmm. I wonder what should I do.
“Hey, Yuuko-chan, do you know where is Glasses-kun’s house?”
“Komori-kun’s house? Yes I do, since we were in the same middle school.”
“I see. Can you take me there after school? I feel uneasy because of the things I’ve said yesterday.”
“Alright. Let’s go together.”
Though my classmates other than Yuuko ignored me, they couldn’t help but wonder.
Finally a new chapter! RL kept me from translating last week, so let’s hope I have more free time from today onward.
Also, ‘plain’ had been changed to ‘ugly’ because of that one sentence in this chapter. I blame my kind heart which previously wasn’t decisive enough to describe him as ‘ugly’ on the go for that :P
After dinner, I returned to my room.
When I nonchalantly opened a desk drawer, I discovered a notebook.
I flipped the pages around carelessly, what was written inside were thoughts of the day.
This is the diary Natsumi kept, huh.
As someone who have to act as her, I feel thankful.
Month O, Day X (Monday)
Today I went to the department store with Noriko, Keiko, and Miyu.
On the way, a guy from Shuurin High tried to flirt. He gave me his email address.
He wasn’t my type, so although right there I said I’m going to mail him later, afterwards I immediately threw it away.
Miyu said it was a waste, but for a woman of my level, that kind of unfashionable guy is simply a bother.
For a girl like Miyu though, he might be a good fit.
Playing friend sure is tiring.
Month O, Day △ (Tuesday)
Shuu-kun said he wanted to go out with me while keeping it secret from Noriko.
He wasn’t really my type, but he was good enough to go out with me for a bit.
Besides, I wanted to get back at that plain girl Noriko who’re so conceited despite her only good point was having rich parents.
When I mailed Shuu-kun my approval, he showed up in front of my house with high spirits and said things like “I like you” and such.
What an idiot.
Month O, Day □ (Wednesday)
That guy Komori gave me a purse as a present.
Even though I already told him that I like red, he still went and bought the light violet one.
So useless.
As my wallet, he should be doing his job properly.
I was annoyed, so I told him to stop talking to me for one week.
Reading the diary, I was dumbfounded.
No matter how you look at it, this neat and beautiful Natsumi had a rotten character.
Looking down on anyone, didn’t trust anyone even those she called friends, using her look to manipulate others, and not considering anyone other than herself.
Her look was excellent, but the inside was nothing more than cesspool.
I closed the notebook, took a breath, and stared at the ceiling.
I feel like I somehow understand why I was put in this body.
“Yosh!”
I let out a determined yell.
I will make this Natsumi a girl with beautiful character just like her look.
I will turn her into a man among men, no, a woman among women.
To have a healthy heart, I’ll cast aside any selfishness concealed within and devote myself for others.
I got reborn into this body after all.
Since that’s the case, I’ll love anyone from the bottom of my heart, I’ll become a nice girl whom everyone will fall for!
I fell asleep as I was drown in burning excitement.
The next day.
I felt terrible since morning. My body was sluggish and my stomach suffered a never-ending pain.
I’ve heard few things about the second day of having a period, but this much was outside my expectation.
Having to undergo something like this once a month but still keeping their calm, women sure have amazing willpower.
My steps were heavy as I walked to the bus stop. Miyu was already there when I arrived.
She didn’t even greet me and only gave a fleeting glance.
Must be because Noriko forbid her for talking to me.
‘How can you ignore me if as a friend!’ or so I wanted to scold her. But Natsumi herself actually made fun of her behind the scene. So I can’t really blame her.
I stood in front of Miyu and lowered my head.
“Miyu, sorry. Previously I’m a horrible girl. Even though I always said I’m your friend, I got cocky because of my beautiful face and made fun of you in my heart.”
Miyu looked at me with a surprised expression.
“W-What are you saying suddenly? Noriko already forbid me to talk to you. I’ll get ostracized if we were to be seen talking, so please don’t speak to me.”
“Yeah. That’s right. It’s just, I want to apologize for deceiving you all this time. I don’t really think I would be forgiven. But I’m truly sorry for having detestable thoughts about you before. Thank you for being my friend until now.”
I said so and left Miyu.
If Natsumi’s soul ever come back to this body, it’s troubling for having her friendship ruined, but continuing to deceive others is also not good.
I’ll do whatever I think is right.
I get into the bus as it arrived. Miyu was one meter behind me.
Even though yesterday she immediately came to my side and refused to get separated at all…..
I don’t know whether this is a trace of Natsumi’s spirit or something, but it felt very lonely.
It was like a hole had been opened on my chest.
When I realized it, my tears was already flowing.
Natsumi’s spirit is certainly not here, but it’s possible that her body is the one who reacted to the loneliness.
I wiped the tears with my sleeve as to not get found out by Miyu.
When I opened my shoe locker after arriving at the school, a sharp, irritating smell attacked me.
My shoe locker was full of kitchen waste.
Haah, how malicious.
As I let out a wry smile, Maeda, whose teeth I cracked yesterday, silently came over with a garbage box and a broom on hand.
Then he swept the kitchen waste and put them into the garbage box.
“Maeda-kun, thank you.”
“I-It’s nothing. I just feel like cleaning, that’s all.”
So he wants to help a troubled girl, huh?
What, so this guy has his good point after all.
My indoor shoes had a weird stain on it, so I couldn’t wear it.
Because of that, I decided to ‘make use’ of the slippers for visitor that was placed in front of staff room, and then went towards the classroom.
When I entered the classroom, Noriko, Keiko, and Miyu grinned broadly when they saw me.
Should I feel sad?
But well, first I have to apologize.
I left my bag on my seat and approached those three.
Yuuko who greeted me with a smile got surprised and grabbed my hand.
“Don’t do it, Nacchan! Fighting is not good!”
“It’s not like that, Yuuko-chan. I want to apologize to them.”
“Eh? Will they accept you again? I see….. Right, Nacchan is more suited to that way. Being a good person who hang around with someone like me doesn’t suit you.”
“Nn? You’re mistaken. It’s not about that. I’ll be right back so just wait a minute.”
The three of them turned nervous when I approached.
Well, seeing how I acted yesterday, they probably afraid I’m going to hit them.
Noriko tried to act tough even though her face was stiff.
“W-What? Do you have a problem?”
“No, not at all.”
“T-Then, please go away. You’re being an eyesore.”
Gah. What a brutal way of speaking. Completely mismatched with your beautiful look.
But well, she’s not the consistent type to begin with.
I lowered my head in front of Noriko.
“I’m sorry. I’ve been a horrible girl until now. However now my heart had changed. I won’t ask you to forgive my previous deed. But still, I want to apologize.”
“Wanting to rejoin our group after all this time, isn’t it too late? You, just stop that dramatic pose now!”
“You’re mistaken. I don’t want to rejoin your group. Say, was it Shuuichi? I’ve been going out with that guy. Even though I knew Noriko liked him, I still did that. Furthermore, I wasn’t serious in the least. I just wanted to annoy you. I’m actually a nasty girl who deceive others because she get carried away by her good look. Thank you for being friend with someone like me even for just a moment. Ah, that’s right, I haven’t read Keiko’s part. I only have read 2-3 pages of my diary after all. But probably I also insulted you just like Noriko and Miyu, so I’d like to apologize in advance. I’m sorry, Keiko. Well then, you’re most likely getting angry now, so I’ll excuse myself.”
When I returned to my seat, Yuuko asked me hesitantly.
“Nacchan, Watasaki-san looked like she wanted to kill you. What did you say to her?”
“Nothing much. I only apologized. For deceiving her until now, that is.”
“Why are you adding fuel to the fire? Wouldn’t they not know if you just keep quiet?”
“Nn. Why I wonder. But you know, if I’m deceiving others wouldn’t that mean I’m also deceiving myself? The person I respected was for sure, had an ugly look, and often get mocked by women. But he always said to not let your heart become ugly too. That’s why I want to be honest with myself, and only do things that I truly believe as cool. Sure, he also had his share of failures, and his superior as well as his senior ofter glared at him, not to mention he still didn’t get to be together with a woman until the end. However, he was blessed with a good friend and junior as a reward. I’m just the opposite. I’ve a good look, but my heart is really the worst. Even though people liked me because of my appearance, isn’t there no meaning if they loathe my personality? That’s why, I want my heart to be beautiful as well.”
Yuuko’s eyes blinked in surprise.
“You know Nacchan, I’ve said this yesterday, but what you’re saying is just like my Onii-chan. He isn’t popular with women, but I really like him. He always help me if I’m getting bullied. Could it be that you actually know him?”
None of my junior is named Kishida though.
Well, my words were just second-hand opinion after all.
Yuuko’s Onii-chan must be someone very warm.
“I don’t think so. Your Onii-san practice Judo, right? The person I know practiced Karate.”
“I see. So that’s how it is. But, somehow it sure feels cool. I also want to be like that, though it’s probably impossible.”
Yuuko stuck out her tongue as she said that.
No Yuuko, you have your own good point as well.
“Yuuko-chan, even if you don’t aim to be like that, you already have plenty of good point. Aren’t you amazingly kind? Even when people ridiculed your fatness, you didn’t turn hateful and still be cheerful like now. Isn’t that proof you’re really strong? I respect you so much.”
“Eh~? I’ll get embarrassed if Nacchan said that~ So awkward~”
“Hihihi. Too much flattery?”
“Geez~ Stop teasing me~”
“Ahaha. Sorry sorry. I really think that though. I hope Yuuko-chan will stay kind forever.”
Homeroom started after the teacher entered, but Komori still haven’t show up.
“I’ll start the homeroom. Get on your seat. The only one absent is Komori, huh?”
I raised my hand without thinking.
“What’s wrong, Oono?”
“Why is Komori-kun absent?”
“His body is not too well. This morning his mother contacted me. Everyone too, take care of your body to not get cold from the weather.”
My chest felt hurt. Does his condition caused by what I said yesterday?
Hmm. I wonder what should I do.
“Hey, Yuuko-chan, do you know where is Glasses-kun’s house?”
“Komori-kun’s house? Yes I do, since we were in the same middle school.”
“I see. Can you take me there after school? I feel uneasy because of the things I’ve said yesterday.”
“Alright. Let’s go together.”
Though my classmates other than Yuuko ignored me, they couldn’t help but wonder.
Finally a new chapter! RL kept me from translating last week, so let’s hope I have more free time from today onward.
Also, ‘plain’ had been changed to ‘ugly’ because of that one sentence in this chapter. I blame my kind heart which previously wasn’t decisive enough to describe him as ‘ugly’ on the go for that :P
