Chapter 42
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"What's your plan now Feena?" Karen asked as they walk down the streets after a long day of rigorous training.
"What do you mean by that?" Feena asked in return.
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"Well, both you and Azusa should start thinking about it now though," Karen replied causing Azusa to look at her abruptly.
"Why am I suddenly in the picture?"
"Seriously, what are you referring to Karen?" Feena asked as she and Azusa looked at her in confusion.
"You *points at Feena* loves Hideyoshi, while you *points at Azusa* loves Mamoru. A war is coming and it is a big one, you shouldn't be wasting time now, should you?"
Both Feena and Azusa's faces turned completely red at Karen's words.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Feena rebuked.
"Tha- That's right, you can't go and speak about that here in the public," Azusa followed.
"Geez, the two of you just stop pretending about your feelings. Admit it already, or you might end up regretting it in the future," Karen replied, her voice so serious that the other two were stomped for words.
Azusa and Feena looked at each other.
"I have to say this to you now, I have no feelings for Mamoru, we were forced into this engagement by our parents," Feena started looking at Azusa.
"In the end, do we really have a choice or our own?" Azusa replied instead.
"Others of this age would be thinking about their future with that someone, but with an upcoming war, are we allowed to think about that?" Feena stated, "Don't get me wrong, it had always been my dream to become a knight, but finding out that a bigger war is coming, I just can't help but to think that way."
The three of them walked side by side, each having a different matter on their mind. Their feet brought them to,
*DING DONG*
*DING DONG*
"This visit is quite late already don't you think?" upon opening the door and seeing them, Eureka couldn't help but sigh.
Since arriving, she was just lying down, it seems that sleep didn't like to visit her but instead she had a different visitor.
"Can we sleep over?" Karen asked.
She looked at them, "You didn't plan this, did you?"
The three looked at each other and sheepishly smiled at her. Indeed, they have spare clothes but it is just because they came straight from duty.
"*sigh* Come in," turning them away is no longer an option for her, and just like her, something seemed to be bothering them.
After setting down in her room.
"You have a very nice room, Eureka," Karen commented looking around.
"Young miss, your tea is here," one of the maids knock at the door.
Eureka stood up and opened the door, "I'm sorry for waking you up just to serve tea."
"Ah no no, please don't apologize. I was awake so I volunteered to serve young miss and her friends some tea and snacks. This sight just brings joy to all of us," she replied before respectfully saying her goodbye and left.
<The master would be delighted once he finds out that the young miss have brought some friends home.> she finally thought.
"Even the snacks are delicious, seriously you have a wonderful place," Karen once again commented as she happily eats.
"What really brought you here?" Eureka asked.
"That is," Azusa looked at the two of them.
"Have you ever fell in love Eureka?" instead Feena asked.
"Did you come here to ask me about this?" Eureka asked her brows furrowed.
"It's not just this. But with the recent happenings, somehow we couldn't help but think about this," Feena replied honestly. Karen opened the topic about it, but this question had always been at the back of their minds.
"I haven't, and what about it?" Eureka replied.
"Are we allowed to even think about it?" Azusa couldn't help but ask.
"Who says you are not allowed to think about such thing?"
"We are knights, and a war is coming. Focusing on it is the best thing right?" Feena asked in return.
"Others fall in love and get married even though war is ongoing," this time it was Karen who answered.
"But this war is different," Feena answered back.
"War will always be war, no matter who our opponents are."
"This war will determine the future, if we get distracted because of our feelings-"
"Then use it as motivation not as distraction."
"You won't know when you will get hurt because of it."
"Seriously, what are you being pessimist about?" Karen gave up and put down what she's eating and looked at Feena.
"I don't know!! What if my parents would get disappointed with me? What if not just them but I also disappoint other people?"
Azusa looked down, showing how this is also what she felt.
"Why are you thinking about other people? They can have their life, you can have yours," Karen berated losing patience with her friends attitude.
"But-"
"Stop searching for excuses!! You- mmphh"
Karen cut Feena's words but she was cut by Eureka, who covered her mouth with her hands.
"You getting mad at them won't help them either," she started removing her hands, she then faced the other two.
"Do you really love them?"
"I do," without hesitation they said at the same time.
"So what's really stopping you? The war? Your parents? Or the way you want others to see you?"
"I don't care how others see me, I've been looked at with so many types of stares for so long already," Azusa answered.
"Will my parents approve of it? I never wanted to disappoint them," Feena answered honestly.
"Have you asked them? Have you stand in front of them and told them you don't want to get married to him? Have you ever faced them with your honest feelings?" Eureka faced her and asked.
"And you? What are you scared of? You don't care about how others would see you? Then what is it that's stopping you?" she then faced Azusa and asked her as well.
"I haven't," Feena answered looking down.
"His feelings?" Azusa answered with uncertainty.
"Your life is yours to decide, your parents fed you and gave you shelter, clothes to wear, and things you need. For that you will forever be grateful. But growing older, you have to learn how to decide for yourself, you have to speak your mind to them. If all you do is be scared of disappointing them, then on your death bed all you'll have will be regrets of not choosing your own path, of letting them decide for yourself. I'm not telling you to disobey them entirely but to let them understand your own feelings. If they really love you then they'd understand you and accept your decision," Eureka then faced Azusa.
"What's more torturous? Saying your feelings now and being rejected? Or to keep on waiting until one day you find out that he had someone with him already? That shall be your decision, I or others can't tell you what to do. Your lives are your own just as your feelings are yours and yours alone. We can only give you options and advises but for the final decision, then it shall be yours."
The two of them fell silent, Karen on the other hand finished drinking all her tea.
"Did you open this topic to them?" Eureka then asked Karen.
"Yeah, they're all over the place this past few days. The training are fine, their families are fine, then there's only one possibility. What's not fine are their hearts that's beating for someone," Karen shrugged.
"We can talk about this for as long as you want, but you do know nothing will happen if we just talk about it. You still have time to decide for whatever you want to do, we all need to rest now. It's almost dawn," standing up she fixed the utensils they used and prepared the bed where they'd sleep at.
"Good night guys," it was Karen who first fell asleep, the instant she said good night she fell into a deep sleep.
"Must be nice, not having this problem," Azusa couldn't help but sigh as she look at Karen.
"Seriously, the most troublesome problem when growing up is falling in love don't you think?" Feena commented.
"And what's bothering you?" she then asked Eureka.
"What do you mean?"
"Your voice it's different than usual."
"Is it? It's the same for me though."
"Really? Well if something's bothering you then we're here to listen just as how you listen to us, even though we just came here unannounced and in the middle of the night at that. Good night Eureka, and thank you. There might come a day where we will be able to make our decision but your words today and Karen's worry for us will be our support in making that decision," she then turned and closed her eyes.
"And I thank you too. For all the things you've done for us," Azusa then went ahead and closed her eyes.
<Seriously, what's wrong with all these people right now?> Eureka thought as a smile appeared in her face before she too closed her eyes.
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"What's your plan now Feena?" Karen asked as they walk down the streets after a long day of rigorous training.
"What do you mean by that?" Feena asked in return.
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"Well, both you and Azusa should start thinking about it now though," Karen replied causing Azusa to look at her abruptly.
"Why am I suddenly in the picture?"
"Seriously, what are you referring to Karen?" Feena asked as she and Azusa looked at her in confusion.
"You *points at Feena* loves Hideyoshi, while you *points at Azusa* loves Mamoru. A war is coming and it is a big one, you shouldn't be wasting time now, should you?"
Both Feena and Azusa's faces turned completely red at Karen's words.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Feena rebuked.
"Tha- That's right, you can't go and speak about that here in the public," Azusa followed.
"Geez, the two of you just stop pretending about your feelings. Admit it already, or you might end up regretting it in the future," Karen replied, her voice so serious that the other two were stomped for words.
Azusa and Feena looked at each other.
"I have to say this to you now, I have no feelings for Mamoru, we were forced into this engagement by our parents," Feena started looking at Azusa.
"In the end, do we really have a choice or our own?" Azusa replied instead.
"Others of this age would be thinking about their future with that someone, but with an upcoming war, are we allowed to think about that?" Feena stated, "Don't get me wrong, it had always been my dream to become a knight, but finding out that a bigger war is coming, I just can't help but to think that way."
The three of them walked side by side, each having a different matter on their mind. Their feet brought them to,
*DING DONG*
*DING DONG*
"This visit is quite late already don't you think?" upon opening the door and seeing them, Eureka couldn't help but sigh.
Since arriving, she was just lying down, it seems that sleep didn't like to visit her but instead she had a different visitor.
"Can we sleep over?" Karen asked.
She looked at them, "You didn't plan this, did you?"
The three looked at each other and sheepishly smiled at her. Indeed, they have spare clothes but it is just because they came straight from duty.
"*sigh* Come in," turning them away is no longer an option for her, and just like her, something seemed to be bothering them.
After setting down in her room.
"You have a very nice room, Eureka," Karen commented looking around.
"Young miss, your tea is here," one of the maids knock at the door.
Eureka stood up and opened the door, "I'm sorry for waking you up just to serve tea."
"Ah no no, please don't apologize. I was awake so I volunteered to serve young miss and her friends some tea and snacks. This sight just brings joy to all of us," she replied before respectfully saying her goodbye and left.
<The master would be delighted once he finds out that the young miss have brought some friends home.> she finally thought.
"Even the snacks are delicious, seriously you have a wonderful place," Karen once again commented as she happily eats.
"What really brought you here?" Eureka asked.
"That is," Azusa looked at the two of them.
"Have you ever fell in love Eureka?" instead Feena asked.
"Did you come here to ask me about this?" Eureka asked her brows furrowed.
"It's not just this. But with the recent happenings, somehow we couldn't help but think about this," Feena replied honestly. Karen opened the topic about it, but this question had always been at the back of their minds.
"I haven't, and what about it?" Eureka replied.
"Are we allowed to even think about it?" Azusa couldn't help but ask.
"Who says you are not allowed to think about such thing?"
"We are knights, and a war is coming. Focusing on it is the best thing right?" Feena asked in return.
"Others fall in love and get married even though war is ongoing," this time it was Karen who answered.
"But this war is different," Feena answered back.
"War will always be war, no matter who our opponents are."
"This war will determine the future, if we get distracted because of our feelings-"
"Then use it as motivation not as distraction."
"You won't know when you will get hurt because of it."
"Seriously, what are you being pessimist about?" Karen gave up and put down what she's eating and looked at Feena.
"I don't know!! What if my parents would get disappointed with me? What if not just them but I also disappoint other people?"
Azusa looked down, showing how this is also what she felt.
"Why are you thinking about other people? They can have their life, you can have yours," Karen berated losing patience with her friends attitude.
"But-"
"Stop searching for excuses!! You- mmphh"
Karen cut Feena's words but she was cut by Eureka, who covered her mouth with her hands.
"You getting mad at them won't help them either," she started removing her hands, she then faced the other two.
"Do you really love them?"
"I do," without hesitation they said at the same time.
"So what's really stopping you? The war? Your parents? Or the way you want others to see you?"
"I don't care how others see me, I've been looked at with so many types of stares for so long already," Azusa answered.
"Will my parents approve of it? I never wanted to disappoint them," Feena answered honestly.
"Have you asked them? Have you stand in front of them and told them you don't want to get married to him? Have you ever faced them with your honest feelings?" Eureka faced her and asked.
"And you? What are you scared of? You don't care about how others would see you? Then what is it that's stopping you?" she then faced Azusa and asked her as well.
"I haven't," Feena answered looking down.
"His feelings?" Azusa answered with uncertainty.
"Your life is yours to decide, your parents fed you and gave you shelter, clothes to wear, and things you need. For that you will forever be grateful. But growing older, you have to learn how to decide for yourself, you have to speak your mind to them. If all you do is be scared of disappointing them, then on your death bed all you'll have will be regrets of not choosing your own path, of letting them decide for yourself. I'm not telling you to disobey them entirely but to let them understand your own feelings. If they really love you then they'd understand you and accept your decision," Eureka then faced Azusa.
"What's more torturous? Saying your feelings now and being rejected? Or to keep on waiting until one day you find out that he had someone with him already? That shall be your decision, I or others can't tell you what to do. Your lives are your own just as your feelings are yours and yours alone. We can only give you options and advises but for the final decision, then it shall be yours."
The two of them fell silent, Karen on the other hand finished drinking all her tea.
"Did you open this topic to them?" Eureka then asked Karen.
"Yeah, they're all over the place this past few days. The training are fine, their families are fine, then there's only one possibility. What's not fine are their hearts that's beating for someone," Karen shrugged.
"We can talk about this for as long as you want, but you do know nothing will happen if we just talk about it. You still have time to decide for whatever you want to do, we all need to rest now. It's almost dawn," standing up she fixed the utensils they used and prepared the bed where they'd sleep at.
"Good night guys," it was Karen who first fell asleep, the instant she said good night she fell into a deep sleep.
"Must be nice, not having this problem," Azusa couldn't help but sigh as she look at Karen.
"Seriously, the most troublesome problem when growing up is falling in love don't you think?" Feena commented.
"And what's bothering you?" she then asked Eureka.
"What do you mean?"
"Your voice it's different than usual."
"Is it? It's the same for me though."
"Really? Well if something's bothering you then we're here to listen just as how you listen to us, even though we just came here unannounced and in the middle of the night at that. Good night Eureka, and thank you. There might come a day where we will be able to make our decision but your words today and Karen's worry for us will be our support in making that decision," she then turned and closed her eyes.
"And I thank you too. For all the things you've done for us," Azusa then went ahead and closed her eyes.
<Seriously, what's wrong with all these people right now?> Eureka thought as a smile appeared in her face before she too closed her eyes.
"What's your plan now Feena?" Karen asked as they walk down the streets after a long day of rigorous training."What do you mean by that?" Feena asked in return. Find authorized novels in Webnovelfaster updates, better experiencePlease click for visiting."Well, both you and Azusa should start thinking about it now though," Karen replied causing Azusa to look at her abruptly."Why am I suddenly in the picture?""Seriously, what are you referring to Karen?" Feena asked as she and Azusa looked at her in confusion."You *points at Feena* loves Hideyoshi, while you *points at Azusa* loves Mamoru. A war is coming and it is a big one, you shouldn't be wasting time now, should you?"Both Feena and Azusa's faces turned completely red at Karen's words."What the hell are you talking about?" Feena rebuked."Tha- That's right, you can't go and speak about that here in the public," Azusa followed."Geez, the two of you just stop pretending about your feelings. Admit it already, or you might end up regretting it in the future," Karen replied, her voice so serious that the other two were stomped for words.Azusa and Feena looked at each other."I have to say this to you now, I have no feelings for Mamoru, we were forced into this engagement by our parents," Feena started looking at Azusa."In the end, do we really have a choice or our own?" Azusa replied instead."Others of this age would be thinking about their future with that someone, but with an upcoming war, are we allowed to think about that?" Feena stated, "Don't get me wrong, it had always been my dream to become a knight, but finding out that a bigger war is coming, I just can't help but to think that way."The three of them walked side by side, each having a different matter on their mind. Their feet brought them to,*DING DONG**DING DONG*"This visit is quite late already don't you think?" upon opening the door and seeing them, Eureka couldn't help but sigh.Since arriving, she was just lying down, it seems that sleep didn't like to visit her but instead she had a different visitor."Can we sleep over?" Karen asked.She looked at them, "You didn't plan this, did you?"The three looked at each other and sheepishly smiled at her. Indeed, they have spare clothes but it is just because they came straight from duty."*sigh* Come in," turning them away is no longer an option for her, and just like her, something seemed to be bothering them.After setting down in her room."You have a very nice room, Eureka," Karen commented looking around."Young miss, your tea is here," one of the maids knock at the door.Eureka stood up and opened the door, "I'm sorry for waking you up just to serve tea.""Ah no no, please don't apologize. I was awake so I volunteered to serve young miss and her friends some tea and snacks. This sight just brings joy to all of us," she replied before respectfully saying her goodbye and left.The master would be delighted once he finds out that the young miss have brought some friends home. she finally thought."Even the snacks are delicious, seriously you have a wonderful place," Karen once again commented as she happily eats."What really brought you here?" Eureka asked."That is," Azusa looked at the two of them."Have you ever fell in love Eureka?" instead Feena asked."Did you come here to ask me about this?" Eureka asked her brows furrowed."It's not just this. But with the recent happenings, somehow we couldn't help but think about this," Feena replied honestly. Karen opened the topic about it, but this question had always been at the back of their minds."I haven't, and what about it?" Eureka replied."Are we allowed to even think about it?" Azusa couldn't help but ask."Who says you are not allowed to think about such thing?""We are knights, and a war is coming. Focusing on it is the best thing right?" Feena asked in return."Others fall in love and get married even though war is ongoing," this time it was Karen who answered."But this war is different," Feena answered back."War will always be war, no matter who our opponents are.""This war will determine the future, if we get distracted because of our feelings-""Then use it as motivation not as distraction.""You won't know when you will get hurt because of it.""Seriously, what are you being pessimist about?" Karen gave up and put down what she's eating and looked at Feena."I don't know!! What if my parents would get disappointed with me? What if not just them but I also disappoint other people?"Azusa looked down, showing how this is also what she felt."Why are you thinking about other people? They can have their life, you can have yours," Karen berated losing patience with her friends attitude."But-""Stop searching for excuses!! You- mmphh"Karen cut Feena's words but she was cut by Eureka, who covered her mouth with her hands."You getting mad at them won't help them either," she started removing her hands, she then faced the other two."Do you really love them?""I do," without hesitation they said at the same time."So what's really stopping you? The war? Your parents? Or the way you want others to see you?""I don't care how others see me, I've been looked at with so many types of stares for so long already," Azusa answered."Will my parents approve of it? I never wanted to disappoint them," Feena answered honestly."Have you asked them? Have you stand in front of them and told them you don't want to get married to him? Have you ever faced them with your honest feelings?" Eureka faced her and asked."And you? What are you scared of? You don't care about how others would see you? Then what is it that's stopping you?" she then faced Azusa and asked her as well."I haven't," Feena answered looking down."His feelings?" Azusa answered with uncertainty."Your life is yours to decide, your parents fed you and gave you shelter, clothes to wear, and things you need. For that you will forever be grateful. But growing older, you have to learn how to decide for yourself, you have to speak your mind to them. If all you do is be scared of disappointing them, then on your death bed all you'll have will be regrets of not choosing your own path, of letting them decide for yourself. I'm not telling you to disobey them entirely but to let them understand your own feelings. If they really love you then they'd understand you and accept your decision," Eureka then faced Azusa."What's more torturous? Saying your feelings now and being rejected? Or to keep on waiting until one day you find out that he had someone with him already? That shall be your decision, I or others can't tell you what to do. Your lives are your own just as your feelings are yours and yours alone. We can only give you options and advises but for the final decision, then it shall be yours."The two of them fell silent, Karen on the other hand finished drinking all her tea."Did you open this topic to them?" Eureka then asked Karen."Yeah, they're all over the place this past few days. The training are fine, their families are fine, then there's only one possibility. What's not fine are their hearts that's beating for someone," Karen shrugged."We can talk about this for as long as you want, but you do know nothing will happen if we just talk about it. You still have time to decide for whatever you want to do, we all need to rest now. It's almost dawn," standing up she fixed the utensils they used and prepared the bed where they'd sleep at."Good night guys," it was Karen who first fell asleep, the instant she said good night she fell into a deep sleep."Must be nice, not having this problem," Azusa couldn't help but sigh as she look at Karen."Seriously, the most troublesome problem when growing up is falling in love don't you think?" Feena commented."And what's bothering you?" she then asked Eureka."What do you mean?""Your voice it's different than usual.""Is it? It's the same for me though.""Really? Well if something's bothering you then we're here to listen just as how you listen to us, even though we just came here unannounced and in the middle of the night at that. Good night Eureka, and thank you. There might come a day where we will be able to make our decision but your words today and Karen's worry for us will be our support in making that decision," she then turned and closed her eyes."And I thank you too. For all the things you've done for us," Azusa then went ahead and closed her eyes.Seriously, what's wrong with all these people right now? Eureka thought as a smile appeared in her face before she too closed her eyes.
