Chapter 8 (Part 2)
The distinguished sound of a wooden fish was always echoing since the sun rose up, Cui Miao He who moved to the Buddhist temple to pray for blessing due to the Imperial orders, was kneeling everyday in front of the Buddha to pray that Chai Zhe Xia who was in the front line of the battle, could be safe and sound.
The symbol of the Buddha calmed her mind, but it could not stop her continuous concerned.
Suddenly, a burst of nausea rushed forth in her throat, her eyebrows were immediately wrinkled, she was too late to ponder it, the Head of the Buddhist Abbot came over suddenly with a dignified complexion.
“Is the female benefactor’s body unwell?” Looking at her pale appearance and thin figure everyday, the old Abbot was actually really concerned in his heart.
This Buddhist temple was predestined with the Imperial households’ affinity extremely deeply, so much so that there were many Imperial concubines from the previous Emperors came to this place to be Buddhist nuns, one could say that this was the Imperial Buddhist temple.
He remembered that when this young lady came that day, there was a secret Imperial decree, and she quietly handed over to him so he could take care of this female benefactor properly.
Even though he did not understand why the Emperor was concerned for the female benefactor’s safety, and also why she had to be punished by eating vegetarian diets, chanting the sutras to pray to Buddha, but as a monk, he should have mercy in his heart so he was especially concerned about Cui Miao He.
“I have made Master to be anxious about me.” Enduring silently her abdomen that was surging with nauseousness, Cui Miao He raised a trace of smile strivingly. She was thinking to confirm that she was alright, but suddenly, another burst of nausea came again.
She was too late to say anything, when a female’s mocking voice echoed and came from outside the main hall.
“Master, I see that she will vomit endlessly, she looks like a broken flower (fallen woman) who has this kind of condition, it clearly shows that she is pregnant. This Buddhist temple is quiet and peaceful, Master will be better to report to the wise Emperor so she can be expelled outside of the Buddhist temple ah!” Cui Yun Xiu who came especially to this Buddhist temple, her person had not yet arrived but she already opened her mouth to say those sentences first.
Since those days, when she was disturbed by that matter, Cui Yun Xiu who was always proud and arrogant, was really frightened by Chai Zhe Xia’s cruelty at the manor on that day, so she did not dare to look for Cui Miao He for troubles.
Until today, she passed her father’s study by chance, and happened to hear when her father was talking with several ministers who came to visit. She was curious for a while and stopped walking to hear the conversation and happened to hear one startling secret.
After knowing this secret, she could not wait to come here and stand in front of Cui Miao He, who would have thought that it unexpectedly made her to be able to run into Cui Miao He who was having morning sickness.
The General’s Madam, appellation as the Emperor’s adopted sister, even the child who was in her belly, all kind of glories, wealths and happiness, should all belong to her.
If it were not for that day when Chai Zhe Xia kidnapped the bride that was seen as an object of ridicule, her mother’s matter that was trying to sell a daughter would not be abuzz either. How could she still be the talk of the other people, those things finished the family so there was nobody who was willing to come to propose marriage to her.
Thinking that her own lifelong happiness was destroyed, Cui Yun Xiu really hated it until her teeth itched.
“There is unexpectedly even a child at this quiet Buddhist temple, you, while you are reading the prayer, you are really filthy ah!” Seeing that Cui Miao He did not pay any attention to her, she spit out these sharp and unkind words one more time.
The moment that she promised Chai Zhe Xia that she would stay, she had already decided that she would no longer make it a big deal even if they laughed and cursed at her. Looking at Cui Yun Xiu’s expression that was filled with obvious disdain, but she did not even care one bit.
Chai Zhe Xia had already gone for two months, Cui Miao He was longing for him in her heart, she was tossing in bed every night but could not place her yearning anywhere.
She did not think either that their own child was already inside her abdomen, she was carrying his flesh and blood.
Thinking of this, Cui Miao He’s heart could not help to burst with happiness and excitement.
Seeing her happy expression, Cui Yun Xiu said disdainfully and coldly. “Master, this young lady is here at the Buddhist temple, but she does not follow the rule, should you not expel her out of the Buddhist temple?”
“This…..”
Facing Cui Yun Xiu’s aggressiveness, the Master was feeling awkward. Finally, Cui Miao He who had her own happiness, recovered and opened her mouth to speak. “I am practicing Buddhism here at the Buddhist temple because of the Emperor’s decree, and I want to support and substitute for Chai Zhe Xia’s crime and pray for blessings for the many military men. What are you doing to come here and make the Master feel awkward?”
“Ah, I almost forget that the Emperor wants you to pray for blessings here, but the Emperor is regarded as a ten thousand figures, it can be regarded that you are an inauspicious person. Due to your coming here to pray for the blessings, you actually cause trouble for the many military men, and also cause harm to General Ping Yuan, it may be assumed that the Emperor must regret this himself now.”
Even though she was fully aware that Cui Miao He was the Emperor’s adopted sister nowadays, the status was not simple nor ordinary, but she was always a selfish and arrogant young lady. So once she set her heart to hate someone, she would not take any considerations at all, and she even brought up more firearms in her speech.
Having heard what was said, Cui Miao He’s mind was startled, her speech clearly had more meanings, why did she say that she caused harm to the Imperial court’s army? And she still said that she was an inauspicious person? Could it be…..?
Some guesses flashed through in her heart, Cui Yun Xiu proudly said. “Hey, do you still not know it?”
“What matter should I know?”
Cui Miao He’s mouth showed her boastfulness, but her restless heart suddenly raised up, if this was not a big event, based on Cui Yun Xiu’s personality, she would absolutely not look for her with this kind of great fanfare.
What would she want to say after all?
Cui Miao He wanted to open her mouth to ask the question, but Cui Yun Xiu already said it impatiently. “The army that was headed by Chai Zhe Xia, was just ambushed at Yan Men Guan (based on my experience watching historical drama, this place, Yan Men Guan is usually a border in between the two countries). Nobody knows clearly whether Chai Zhe Xia is alive or dead…..”
Then, Cui Yun Xiu continued saying something, but Cui Miao He could not hear at all, a buzzing sound came into her brain, full of the news about whether Chai Zhe Xia was alive or dead.
No….. this was impossible!
Not only that people thought that General Chai Zhe Xia was a heroic deity in the military, he could also block hundreds of people, the elite troops were also brave and fierce experts, how could they were gone like this?
This was certainly Cui Yun Xiu’s fabrication to cheat her with her lie.
Cui Miao He breathed deeply and in great strive, and tried to resist the trembling coldness from her heart.
“You naturally can, not to believe in me, but wait until the Imperial edict to come and let you leave this Buddhist temple at once, after all, the people have died, what can you still pray for good fortunes?”
But looking at Cui Miao He whose mouth was mumbling that she did not believe it, however, she could not miss the color of her face, Cui Yun Xin knew that her words entered into her mind a little.
“Impossible….. impossible…..” Cui Miao He was still mumbling to herself, but when her line of sight passed through Cui Yun Xiu, she saw Che Yuan Yu’s distressing face. There was also Zhangsun Cheng Yun’s heavy expression on his face, even though she wanted to say ‘impossible’, this one word could not be said out loud.
The buzzing sound in her braid was louder and louder, her three immortal and seven mortal souls (I supposed Daosim believes that one person has 3 immortal & 7 mortal sounds in his/her body) were drifting away.
Wait for me to come back….. She still remembered these words before he left, he said that if he could not find the person, even if he had to fly the heaven and drill the earth, he would also catch her back…..
He made her wait, so she was waiting here obediently for him.
She was waiting wholeheartedly for him to come back in triumph, then they could rely on one another, how could she know that this wait would be actually wasted viciously.
“Liar, liar…..” The hurt feeling like it would tear her heart and crack her lung, started to explode inside her, she did not dare to believe, but also could not, not to believe.
Finally, her slender body collapsed, Zhangsun Cheng Yin who was sharp-sighted saw it and suddenly stepped forward with big strides, and supported her.
Seeing that Cui Miao He received a big blow like this, Che Yuan Yu who was always loved her as her younger sister, was immediately angry. She stepped forwards in small quick steps, and slapped Cui Yun Xiu’s soft cheek with all her strengths.
“You dare to hit me?”
“It will be best that you ask God and worship Buddha for Miao He’s blessing and safety, even if Chai Zhe Xia will not come back, do not think that you and the Cui’s family will live peacefully.”
*****
Looking at the inside General’s manor that was filled with white fabrics, it would be impossible even if Cui Miao He wanted to deceive herself.
Her torrential tears were already dried up, her heart was numbed from the pain, her hand was stroking her belly lightly. If it was not because of the flesh inside her abdomen, she wanted to follow him to go so much.
Because of love, who would have thought that she would have this love that was already permeated inside her bone, she could no longer strip it off.
She had to do something for him, if she could not do anything for him, she would go crazy.
Thus, she came to the General’s manor with a firm mind, she was kneeling and not getting up to beg to see the old General and his wife.
There was his child inside of her abdomen now, she would use this child to comfort the Old General and Madam during this mourning and painful time, it was the only thing that she could do.
She had already determined earlier that if Chai Zhe Xia really died, the day that the child in her abdomen was born, would be the day of her death.
She believed that the Old General and his wife would be able to love this blood grandson dearly, and then she could accompany her husband who was alone in the nine springs (hades).
“Young Madam, get up quickly, ok, you are pregnant. If there is any mishaps, how can these slaves assume any responsibilities?”
“I want to see Madam, please notify her on my behalf!”
“This…..” The message had been passed on several times, but they still had to pass it on ah?
“How about if you give this sentence to Madam on behalf of me, just say that I wish to follow Chai Zhe Xia in life or death. But I come here now to wish that they will shield the unborn child who is in my abdomen now.”
If Chai Zhe Xia died, she would not live alone, but she could not let her unborn child to not have any parents either.
“This…..”
The young servant boy who listened to this, was staring blankly, and he still had not recovered to pass on those sentences again, when a sound of the door was heard along with Ruan Gui Lin’s impatient voice.
“What kind of reckless words are you, this girl saying ah? Are you going to make my precious grandson not to have a father and mother?”
Hearing Cui Miao He’s deep emotions towards her son in her own ears, Ruan Gui Lin who was just mourning the loss of her son sorrowfully, all her angers and resentments immediately disappeared, and they were replaced by a strong feeling of sorry for her (CMH).
Hastily stepping forward to help up Cui Miao He who was still kneeling, any criticisms would be too late to say, but Cui Miao He was just like a withering flower, so she fell in her bosom.
Alas, no wonder that her son did not care about anything because of her, she could really make people to love her dearly ah!
“Foolish girl, you do not eat any meals again.”
Hearing the voice, Cui Miao He suddenly disengaged herself from her longing feelings, she slightly raised her head to see Ruan Gui Lin’s depressed face that was supported by a servant girl, when she approached earlier.
“Mother!”
That day, when she woke up at the Imperial Buddhist temple, she was not really concerned about anything and coming to the General’s manor. She knew and heard about the news of Chai Zhe Xia’s death in the battle, the Chai family’s Master and Madam would surely feel as depressed as her. The only thing that she, who was a thousand miles away, could do, was taking care of these two elderly from the Chai’s family and her unborn child. Otherwise, how could his spirit be comforted?
“Foolish girl, did you not sleep good last night?”
Last night, he came into her dream, when she was awoken later, she secretly shed tears until dawn, so naturally, she did not sleep good.
But facing her mother in law’s concern, she still pulled out a soft smile, then she said casually. “The sound of thunderstorm startled me last night, wait until after noon, I will make up for my sleep.”
Looking at the dispirited eyes of the girl, how could Ruan Gui Lin not know that her sentences were only to comfort her. Seeing that her abdomen was getting bigger every day, but the person had become thinner, she actually felt anxious and powerless ah!
Towards this daughter in law, she had already rejected her from the beginning, and refused to meet her in person, until she was moved by her sincere heart. Additionally, the unborn child who was in her abdomen, the mother and child were the only spiritual props that she and Laoye had now.
If it were not for their existences, both of these elderly people would mourn sorrowfully, how would they be able to pass it through.
“Girl, I and my son’s father (I crack up laughing translating this word, but that’s exactly how it’s written in the raw, haizi de die instead of using my husband) are not actually stubborn people, these few days, I and Laoye have discussed this, since Zhe Xia has gone, we do not want to waste your time. We will wait until you give birth to the child properly, then we want to find another marriage on your behalf, is it alright?”
Even though she did not get along with this daughter in law, she already considered her as her daughter in law at an earlier time, she loved this good and honest child from the bottom of her heart.
Recalling that she, herself, unexpectedly believed the previous rumors and did not allow her son to marry her, it caused her son to provoke the Emperor’s anger, then again, causing this girl to be a widow ineffably, she always felt guilty in her heart.
Therefore, she consulted with Laoye before, they would wait until the child was born, then they would accept her as their adopted daughter. She would be able to find someone whom she could depend on in her life, she believed her son who loved her, would agree what she wanted to do.
Hearing what was said, Cui Miao He’s expression was not waving in motion at all, she was only staring to look at her mother in law. Then she suddenly bent her knees to kneel down, and said it with a firm tone. “Mother, this daughter in law’s life is the person from the Chai’s family.” Her heart in this lifetime belonged to Chai Zhe Xia, it was impossible to give it to another person.
Even more, her early plan was to wait until she gave birth to the child, then she would follow Chai Zhe Xia to go.
“But you and Zhe Xia have not done the ritual wedding ceremony yet, it is not proper not to get married according to the law, why do you want to go down with him?”
She could not endure it ah! Even though she already accepted Cui Miao He a long time ago, and also allowed her to call her mother, but Ruan Gui Lin did not agree and recognize them as a married couple all along. If she recognized it, she would cause more harm to her for as long as she lived ah!
“Mother, even if we are not a married couple under the law, but I and Zhe Xia are really a married couple long ago.”
“But…..” seeing her firm manner, Ruan Gui Lin was broken in her heart, but she still did not say anything.
Not saying anything, that was because she knew that she could not be able to change Cui Miao He’s decision on her own, the only thing that she could do, was to protect both the mother and child according to her capabilities.
“Mother….. there is one more matter that this daughter in law wants to ask Mother to make the decisions.” Cui Miao He suddenly opened her mouth to say this.
“Whatever the matter is, there is no harm in saying what you think, Mother will definitely make the decisions on your behalf.” Cui Miao He who was never asked for anything, could finally say it with great difficulty. Ruan Gui Lin had not asked her clearly what she wanted her to do, and just hurriedly gave her consent.
“This daughter in law wants to ask Mother to let me and husband to formally have a ritual wedding ceremony to get married.” Just like what her mother in law had said, it was not proper not to get married according to the law.
Sian’s note:
Ok, Ruan Gui Lin is actually calling Cui Miao He “ya tou”. This term can mean girl or servant girl. So it depends on the relationship of the people who use this appellation. If the relationship is between a master and a servant, the yatou, is used to call a servant girl. However, in this context, Ruan Gui Lin is using the term yatou as an endearment as Cui Miao He is her daughter in law even though she doesn’t like her at the beginning).The General
Chapter 8 (Part 2)
The distinguished sound of a wooden fish was always echoing since the sun rose up, Cui Miao He who moved to the Buddhist temple to pray for blessing due to the Imperial orders, was kneeling everyday in front of the Buddha to pray that Chai Zhe Xia who was in the front line of the battle, could be safe and sound.
The symbol of the Buddha calmed her mind, but it could not stop her continuous concerned.
Suddenly, a burst of nausea rushed forth in her throat, her eyebrows were immediately wrinkled, she was too late to ponder it, the Head of the Buddhist Abbot came over suddenly with a dignified complexion.
“Is the female benefactor’s body unwell?” Looking at her pale appearance and thin figure everyday, the old Abbot was actually really concerned in his heart.
This Buddhist temple was predestined with the Imperial households’ affinity extremely deeply, so much so that there were many Imperial concubines from the previous Emperors came to this place to be Buddhist nuns, one could say that this was the Imperial Buddhist temple.
He remembered that when this young lady came that day, there was a secret Imperial decree, and she quietly handed over to him so he could take care of this female benefactor properly.
Even though he did not understand why the Emperor was concerned for the female benefactor’s safety, and also why she had to be punished by eating vegetarian diets, chanting the sutras to pray to Buddha, but as a monk, he should have mercy in his heart so he was especially concerned about Cui Miao He.
“I have made Master to be anxious about me.” Enduring silently her abdomen that was surging with nauseousness, Cui Miao He raised a trace of smile strivingly. She was thinking to confirm that she was alright, but suddenly, another burst of nausea came again.
She was too late to say anything, when a female’s mocking voice echoed and came from outside the main hall.
“Master, I see that she will vomit endlessly, she looks like a broken flower (fallen woman) who has this kind of condition, it clearly shows that she is pregnant. This Buddhist temple is quiet and peaceful, Master will be better to report to the wise Emperor so she can be expelled outside of the Buddhist temple ah!” Cui Yun Xiu who came especially to this Buddhist temple, her person had not yet arrived but she already opened her mouth to say those sentences first.
Since those days, when she was disturbed by that matter, Cui Yun Xiu who was always proud and arrogant, was really frightened by Chai Zhe Xia’s cruelty at the manor on that day, so she did not dare to look for Cui Miao He for troubles.
Until today, she passed her father’s study by chance, and happened to hear when her father was talking with several ministers who came to visit. She was curious for a while and stopped walking to hear the conversation and happened to hear one startling secret.
After knowing this secret, she could not wait to come here and stand in front of Cui Miao He, who would have thought that it unexpectedly made her to be able to run into Cui Miao He who was having morning sickness.
The General’s Madam, appellation as the Emperor’s adopted sister, even the child who was in her belly, all kind of glories, wealths and happiness, should all belong to her.
If it were not for that day when Chai Zhe Xia kidnapped the bride that was seen as an object of ridicule, her mother’s matter that was trying to sell a daughter would not be abuzz either. How could she still be the talk of the other people, those things finished the family so there was nobody who was willing to come to propose marriage to her.
Thinking that her own lifelong happiness was destroyed, Cui Yun Xiu really hated it until her teeth itched.
“There is unexpectedly even a child at this quiet Buddhist temple, you, while you are reading the prayer, you are really filthy ah!” Seeing that Cui Miao He did not pay any attention to her, she spit out these sharp and unkind words one more time.
The moment that she promised Chai Zhe Xia that she would stay, she had already decided that she would no longer make it a big deal even if they laughed and cursed at her. Looking at Cui Yun Xiu’s expression that was filled with obvious disdain, but she did not even care one bit.
Chai Zhe Xia had already gone for two months, Cui Miao He was longing for him in her heart, she was tossing in bed every night but could not place her yearning anywhere.
She did not think either that their own child was already inside her abdomen, she was carrying his flesh and blood.
Thinking of this, Cui Miao He’s heart could not help to burst with happiness and excitement.
Seeing her happy expression, Cui Yun Xiu said disdainfully and coldly. “Master, this young lady is here at the Buddhist temple, but she does not follow the rule, should you not expel her out of the Buddhist temple?”
“This…..”
Facing Cui Yun Xiu’s aggressiveness, the Master was feeling awkward. Finally, Cui Miao He who had her own happiness, recovered and opened her mouth to speak. “I am practicing Buddhism here at the Buddhist temple because of the Emperor’s decree, and I want to support and substitute for Chai Zhe Xia’s crime and pray for blessings for the many military men. What are you doing to come here and make the Master feel awkward?”
“Ah, I almost forget that the Emperor wants you to pray for blessings here, but the Emperor is regarded as a ten thousand figures, it can be regarded that you are an inauspicious person. Due to your coming here to pray for the blessings, you actually cause trouble for the many military men, and also cause harm to General Ping Yuan, it may be assumed that the Emperor must regret this himself now.”
Even though she was fully aware that Cui Miao He was the Emperor’s adopted sister nowadays, the status was not simple nor ordinary, but she was always a selfish and arrogant young lady. So once she set her heart to hate someone, she would not take any considerations at all, and she even brought up more firearms in her speech.
Having heard what was said, Cui Miao He’s mind was startled, her speech clearly had more meanings, why did she say that she caused harm to the Imperial court’s army? And she still said that she was an inauspicious person? Could it be…..?
Some guesses flashed through in her heart, Cui Yun Xiu proudly said. “Hey, do you still not know it?”
“What matter should I know?”
Cui Miao He’s mouth showed her boastfulness, but her restless heart suddenly raised up, if this was not a big event, based on Cui Yun Xiu’s personality, she would absolutely not look for her with this kind of great fanfare.
What would she want to say after all?
Cui Miao He wanted to open her mouth to ask the question, but Cui Yun Xiu already said it impatiently. “The army that was headed by Chai Zhe Xia, was just ambushed at Yan Men Guan (based on my experience watching historical drama, this place, Yan Men Guan is usually a border in between the two countries). Nobody knows clearly whether Chai Zhe Xia is alive or dead…..”
Then, Cui Yun Xiu continued saying something, but Cui Miao He could not hear at all, a buzzing sound came into her brain, full of the news about whether Chai Zhe Xia was alive or dead.
No….. this was impossible!
Not only that people thought that General Chai Zhe Xia was a heroic deity in the military, he could also block hundreds of people, the elite troops were also brave and fierce experts, how could they were gone like this?
This was certainly Cui Yun Xiu’s fabrication to cheat her with her lie.
Cui Miao He breathed deeply and in great strive, and tried to resist the trembling coldness from her heart.
“You naturally can, not to believe in me, but wait until the Imperial edict to come and let you leave this Buddhist temple at once, after all, the people have died, what can you still pray for good fortunes?”
But looking at Cui Miao He whose mouth was mumbling that she did not believe it, however, she could not miss the color of her face, Cui Yun Xin knew that her words entered into her mind a little.
“Impossible….. impossible…..” Cui Miao He was still mumbling to herself, but when her line of sight passed through Cui Yun Xiu, she saw Che Yuan Yu’s distressing face. There was also Zhangsun Cheng Yun’s heavy expression on his face, even though she wanted to say ‘impossible’, this one word could not be said out loud.
The buzzing sound in her braid was louder and louder, her three immortal and seven mortal souls (I supposed Daosim believes that one person has 3 immortal & 7 mortal sounds in his/her body) were drifting away.
Wait for me to come back….. She still remembered these words before he left, he said that if he could not find the person, even if he had to fly the heaven and drill the earth, he would also catch her back…..
He made her wait, so she was waiting here obediently for him.
She was waiting wholeheartedly for him to come back in triumph, then they could rely on one another, how could she know that this wait would be actually wasted viciously.
“Liar, liar…..” The hurt feeling like it would tear her heart and crack her lung, started to explode inside her, she did not dare to believe, but also could not, not to believe.
Finally, her slender body collapsed, Zhangsun Cheng Yin who was sharp-sighted saw it and suddenly stepped forward with big strides, and supported her.
Seeing that Cui Miao He received a big blow like this, Che Yuan Yu who was always loved her as her younger sister, was immediately angry. She stepped forwards in small quick steps, and slapped Cui Yun Xiu’s soft cheek with all her strengths.
“You dare to hit me?”
“It will be best that you ask God and worship Buddha for Miao He’s blessing and safety, even if Chai Zhe Xia will not come back, do not think that you and the Cui’s family will live peacefully.”
*****
Looking at the inside General’s manor that was filled with white fabrics, it would be impossible even if Cui Miao He wanted to deceive herself.
Her torrential tears were already dried up, her heart was numbed from the pain, her hand was stroking her belly lightly. If it was not because of the flesh inside her abdomen, she wanted to follow him to go so much.
Because of love, who would have thought that she would have this love that was already permeated inside her bone, she could no longer strip it off.
She had to do something for him, if she could not do anything for him, she would go crazy.
Thus, she came to the General’s manor with a firm mind, she was kneeling and not getting up to beg to see the old General and his wife.
There was his child inside of her abdomen now, she would use this child to comfort the Old General and Madam during this mourning and painful time, it was the only thing that she could do.
She had already determined earlier that if Chai Zhe Xia really died, the day that the child in her abdomen was born, would be the day of her death.
She believed that the Old General and his wife would be able to love this blood grandson dearly, and then she could accompany her husband who was alone in the nine springs (hades).
“Young Madam, get up quickly, ok, you are pregnant. If there is any mishaps, how can these slaves assume any responsibilities?”
“I want to see Madam, please notify her on my behalf!”
“This…..” The message had been passed on several times, but they still had to pass it on ah?
“How about if you give this sentence to Madam on behalf of me, just say that I wish to follow Chai Zhe Xia in life or death. But I come here now to wish that they will shield the unborn child who is in my abdomen now.”
If Chai Zhe Xia died, she would not live alone, but she could not let her unborn child to not have any parents either.
“This…..”
The young servant boy who listened to this, was staring blankly, and he still had not recovered to pass on those sentences again, when a sound of the door was heard along with Ruan Gui Lin’s impatient voice.
“What kind of reckless words are you, this girl saying ah? Are you going to make my precious grandson not to have a father and mother?”
Hearing Cui Miao He’s deep emotions towards her son in her own ears, Ruan Gui Lin who was just mourning the loss of her son sorrowfully, all her angers and resentments immediately disappeared, and they were replaced by a strong feeling of sorry for her (CMH).
Hastily stepping forward to help up Cui Miao He who was still kneeling, any criticisms would be too late to say, but Cui Miao He was just like a withering flower, so she fell in her bosom.
Alas, no wonder that her son did not care about anything because of her, she could really make people to love her dearly ah!
“Foolish girl, you do not eat any meals again.”
Hearing the voice, Cui Miao He suddenly disengaged herself from her longing feelings, she slightly raised her head to see Ruan Gui Lin’s depressed face that was supported by a servant girl, when she approached earlier.
“Mother!”
That day, when she woke up at the Imperial Buddhist temple, she was not really concerned about anything and coming to the General’s manor. She knew and heard about the news of Chai Zhe Xia’s death in the battle, the Chai family’s Master and Madam would surely feel as depressed as her. The only thing that she, who was a thousand miles away, could do, was taking care of these two elderly from the Chai’s family and her unborn child. Otherwise, how could his spirit be comforted?
“Foolish girl, did you not sleep good last night?”
Last night, he came into her dream, when she was awoken later, she secretly shed tears until dawn, so naturally, she did not sleep good.
But facing her mother in law’s concern, she still pulled out a soft smile, then she said casually. “The sound of thunderstorm startled me last night, wait until after noon, I will make up for my sleep.”
Looking at the dispirited eyes of the girl, how could Ruan Gui Lin not know that her sentences were only to comfort her. Seeing that her abdomen was getting bigger every day, but the person had become thinner, she actually felt anxious and powerless ah!
Towards this daughter in law, she had already rejected her from the beginning, and refused to meet her in person, until she was moved by her sincere heart. Additionally, the unborn child who was in her abdomen, the mother and child were the only spiritual props that she and Laoye had now.
If it were not for their existences, both of these elderly people would mourn sorrowfully, how would they be able to pass it through.
“Girl, I and my son’s father (I crack up laughing translating this word, but that’s exactly how it’s written in the raw, haizi de die instead of using my husband) are not actually stubborn people, these few days, I and Laoye have discussed this, since Zhe Xia has gone, we do not want to waste your time. We will wait until you give birth to the child properly, then we want to find another marriage on your behalf, is it alright?”
Even though she did not get along with this daughter in law, she already considered her as her daughter in law at an earlier time, she loved this good and honest child from the bottom of her heart.
Recalling that she, herself, unexpectedly believed the previous rumors and did not allow her son to marry her, it caused her son to provoke the Emperor’s anger, then again, causing this girl to be a widow ineffably, she always felt guilty in her heart.
Therefore, she consulted with Laoye before, they would wait until the child was born, then they would accept her as their adopted daughter. She would be able to find someone whom she could depend on in her life, she believed her son who loved her, would agree what she wanted to do.
Hearing what was said, Cui Miao He’s expression was not waving in motion at all, she was only staring to look at her mother in law. Then she suddenly bent her knees to kneel down, and said it with a firm tone. “Mother, this daughter in law’s life is the person from the Chai’s family.” Her heart in this lifetime belonged to Chai Zhe Xia, it was impossible to give it to another person.
Even more, her early plan was to wait until she gave birth to the child, then she would follow Chai Zhe Xia to go.
“But you and Zhe Xia have not done the ritual wedding ceremony yet, it is not proper not to get married according to the law, why do you want to go down with him?”
She could not endure it ah! Even though she already accepted Cui Miao He a long time ago, and also allowed her to call her mother, but Ruan Gui Lin did not agree and recognize them as a married couple all along. If she recognized it, she would cause more harm to her for as long as she lived ah!
“Mother, even if we are not a married couple under the law, but I and Zhe Xia are really a married couple long ago.”
“But…..” seeing her firm manner, Ruan Gui Lin was broken in her heart, but she still did not say anything.
Not saying anything, that was because she knew that she could not be able to change Cui Miao He’s decision on her own, the only thing that she could do, was to protect both the mother and child according to her capabilities.
“Mother….. there is one more matter that this daughter in law wants to ask Mother to make the decisions.” Cui Miao He suddenly opened her mouth to say this.
“Whatever the matter is, there is no harm in saying what you think, Mother will definitely make the decisions on your behalf.” Cui Miao He who was never asked for anything, could finally say it with great difficulty. Ruan Gui Lin had not asked her clearly what she wanted her to do, and just hurriedly gave her consent.
“This daughter in law wants to ask Mother to let me and husband to formally have a ritual wedding ceremony to get married.” Just like what her mother in law had said, it was not proper not to get married according to the law.
Sian’s note:
Ok, Ruan Gui Lin is actually calling Cui Miao He “ya tou”. This term can mean girl or servant girl. So it depends on the relationship of the people who use this appellation. If the relationship is between a master and a servant, the yatou, is used to call a servant girl. However, in this context, Ruan Gui Lin is using the term yatou as an endearment as Cui Miao He is her daughter in law even though she doesn’t like her at the beginning).The General
