Chapter 191
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"It looks like I'm disturbing. " She smiled politely to the woman who hurriedly straightened up the moment she walked in. She must be Anthon's girlfriend, she thought.
" Anyway, I'm here to thank the donor . This is such a surprise to know that it's you. Thank you for everything. " She smiled gracefully, in a manner that Anthon loved about her.
She gave them both a lingering smile before she slightly bow down and turned towards the door.
"Jia.."
She paused without turning back towards them. "Yes... "
"For a while, please. " Anthon said.
She took a deep breath before facing them again. She tried to be as expressionless as she could. Just as she looked back at him, was also just when he drew her closer towards him as he spoke softly, enough for her to eavesdrop.
"Can we talk, please? " He saw those eyes that looked at her so tenderly.
She gazed back at him and nodded. Then, she kissed his forehead before she politely excused herself.
Knife! The sight felt like a knife cutting her heart in two.
"You don't have to let her go out. " She calmly said, in which she only got a thin smile as a reply.
"Jia, my legs are still numb due to the anesthesia. Can you just please sit down beside me? "
Jia did not argue. She walked slowly towards the chair that the woman had been using. When she finally settled herself, Anthon gave him a quick glance then looked away.
"How are you? " He asked.
"Here. Too sad for Jim. " Her voice cracked,. not because of Jim, but because of an overwhelming feeling she could not understand.
She unconsciously closed her eyes and breath deeply.
"How's our son? He doesn't know I am here. "
Our son... 'our' a possesive pronoun.
"He does not know yet about Jim. " She answered, ignoring the implication of the word, 'our'..
"I'll take him out some other time. I also missed Jianna. " He said, smiling as he recalled the lovely creature.
Anthon seemed to be not in a hurry and it seemed that he had nothing so important to talk to her about.
"If there's nothing else, Ton, I'll go ahead. " She said, feeling uncomfortable that his girlfriend might soon be coming back.
"Jia, can you please talk to me? "
He complained.
"Does she know about me? I'm afraid my presence here would give you trouble. " Jia said awkwardly.
" What does she need to know about you? " Anthon teased her, but his expression did not show it at all.
"I'm glad, Ton, that you have finally moved on as you planned. " She got humiliated by his question so she shifted the topic.
"Are you happy for me? " He stole a glance at her.
"Yes, I am. "
" You're lying. " He stared at her without blinking, wanting to let her know that he was just not accusing but was telling the truth.
Jia choked. She wanted to argue but somehow, no words came out from her mouth.
"You're so good in lying, Jia, even to yourself. " Anthon said, with a blaming tone.
" I don't know what you're talking about. " Jia still stood firm in her denial.
"Three years ago, I saw and heard you wailing on the shore even before that call that tore me apart. You were hurting so much that Aijohn pretended to be somewhere nearby just to see you. I saw how you avoided to see me holding Giselle. I saw the changes in the way you treated her. You were not mean, you just overdid your sweetness towards her whenever I was around. I understood that it was your own way of pretending that you were unaffected. I saw how you went
wild.... to vent out your pain. All because you were jealous of her. Am I right? "
All of a sudden, Jia couldn't understand what she felt. That mixed feeling of guilt, shame and frustration instantly made her want to run away and hide. She bit her lips and unconsciously covered her face but Anthon took her hands and held it firmly away.
"I was also there in the clinic when you cried again and heard everything you said... "
The more Jia wished to disappear from his sight forever!
"Now, tell me, are you still happy for
me? "
She burst out into searing, silent tears as her response against Anthon's unveiling of her long - time worn - out mask.
"What more do you want to know and hear, Anthon? You've heard it all! "
"Do you want to hear me say that all along I was wishing we could watch sunsets together or go out to candle - lit dinners? Stroll out by the seaside or walk in a park as lovers...?"
Anthon suddenly felt a lump in his throat. He took Anna to Atlantis, The Palm, one of the most expensive restaurants in the world. He took her to the world's most famous Burj Khalifa and walked with her in the sands of the beautiful beaches of Jumeirah but never in a cheapest carenderia with Jia.
"We yearned for each other but there had never been a fulfillment. And that is perhaps the reason why I am never over you. Deep inside, there is still this cry for you. But, Ton, we already hold separate lives. There is Jim and you have your girlfriend. The day he accepted me and your son was the day I had sworn to dedicate my whole life to him. And I know you can't also afford to hurt your girlfriend because of me. "
Anthon's eyes were already red and swelling. He had already thought about this over and over again. He must make a move. Jia could never be his, no matter how much he wanted. And Jia was willing to deny herself all throughout her lifetime just to be true to her promise to Jim.
"Jia, one of these days, I will introduce her to the family. I must do this for us to move on. But I want you to know that until this very moment, it is still you in my heart. And you will be staying here forever.And if only I could have the choice, I would always choose you. "
Jia then stood up and hug him as her way of saying him goodbye. Her tears drenched the cloth in his shoulder, the way his tears wet her hair.
"I'm selling the house. "
Jia stared at him, wondering why he would do that.
"That is my dream house which I built for you. I always kept on believing that a day would come that I could give it to you. I just cannot stain it with memories other than you. "
With this, she slumped again in his shoulder, sobbing her heart out. She saw that abstract painting in his living room and that the design of his house was feminine.
"And by the way, your house in Jian's Garden is already completed. "
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"It looks like I'm disturbing. " She smiled politely to the woman who hurriedly straightened up the moment she walked in. She must be Anthon's girlfriend, she thought.
" Anyway, I'm here to thank the donor . This is such a surprise to know that it's you. Thank you for everything. " She smiled gracefully, in a manner that Anthon loved about her.
She gave them both a lingering smile before she slightly bow down and turned towards the door.
"Jia.."
She paused without turning back towards them. "Yes... "
"For a while, please. " Anthon said.
She took a deep breath before facing them again. She tried to be as expressionless as she could. Just as she looked back at him, was also just when he drew her closer towards him as he spoke softly, enough for her to eavesdrop.
"Can we talk, please? " He saw those eyes that looked at her so tenderly.
She gazed back at him and nodded. Then, she kissed his forehead before she politely excused herself.
Knife! The sight felt like a knife cutting her heart in two.
"You don't have to let her go out. " She calmly said, in which she only got a thin smile as a reply.
"Jia, my legs are still numb due to the anesthesia. Can you just please sit down beside me? "
Jia did not argue. She walked slowly towards the chair that the woman had been using. When she finally settled herself, Anthon gave him a quick glance then looked away.
"How are you? " He asked.
"Here. Too sad for Jim. " Her voice cracked,. not because of Jim, but because of an overwhelming feeling she could not understand.
She unconsciously closed her eyes and breath deeply.
"How's our son? He doesn't know I am here. "
Our son... 'our' a possesive pronoun.
"He does not know yet about Jim. " She answered, ignoring the implication of the word, 'our'..
"I'll take him out some other time. I also missed Jianna. " He said, smiling as he recalled the lovely creature.
Anthon seemed to be not in a hurry and it seemed that he had nothing so important to talk to her about.
"If there's nothing else, Ton, I'll go ahead. " She said, feeling uncomfortable that his girlfriend might soon be coming back.
"Jia, can you please talk to me? "
He complained.
"Does she know about me? I'm afraid my presence here would give you trouble. " Jia said awkwardly.
" What does she need to know about you? " Anthon teased her, but his expression did not show it at all.
"I'm glad, Ton, that you have finally moved on as you planned. " She got humiliated by his question so she shifted the topic.
"Are you happy for me? " He stole a glance at her.
"Yes, I am. "
" You're lying. " He stared at her without blinking, wanting to let her know that he was just not accusing but was telling the truth.
Jia choked. She wanted to argue but somehow, no words came out from her mouth.
"You're so good in lying, Jia, even to yourself. " Anthon said, with a blaming tone.
" I don't know what you're talking about. " Jia still stood firm in her denial.
"Three years ago, I saw and heard you wailing on the shore even before that call that tore me apart. You were hurting so much that Aijohn pretended to be somewhere nearby just to see you. I saw how you avoided to see me holding Giselle. I saw the changes in the way you treated her. You were not mean, you just overdid your sweetness towards her whenever I was around. I understood that it was your own way of pretending that you were unaffected. I saw how you went
wild.... to vent out your pain. All because you were jealous of her. Am I right? "
All of a sudden, Jia couldn't understand what she felt. That mixed feeling of guilt, shame and frustration instantly made her want to run away and hide. She bit her lips and unconsciously covered her face but Anthon took her hands and held it firmly away.
"I was also there in the clinic when you cried again and heard everything you said... "
The more Jia wished to disappear from his sight forever!
"Now, tell me, are you still happy for
me? "
She burst out into searing, silent tears as her response against Anthon's unveiling of her long - time worn - out mask.
"What more do you want to know and hear, Anthon? You've heard it all! "
"Do you want to hear me say that all along I was wishing we could watch sunsets together or go out to candle - lit dinners? Stroll out by the seaside or walk in a park as lovers...?"
Anthon suddenly felt a lump in his throat. He took Anna to Atlantis, The Palm, one of the most expensive restaurants in the world. He took her to the world's most famous Burj Khalifa and walked with her in the sands of the beautiful beaches of Jumeirah but never in a cheapest carenderia with Jia.
"We yearned for each other but there had never been a fulfillment. And that is perhaps the reason why I am never over you. Deep inside, there is still this cry for you. But, Ton, we already hold separate lives. There is Jim and you have your girlfriend. The day he accepted me and your son was the day I had sworn to dedicate my whole life to him. And I know you can't also afford to hurt your girlfriend because of me. "
Anthon's eyes were already red and swelling. He had already thought about this over and over again. He must make a move. Jia could never be his, no matter how much he wanted. And Jia was willing to deny herself all throughout her lifetime just to be true to her promise to Jim.
"Jia, one of these days, I will introduce her to the family. I must do this for us to move on. But I want you to know that until this very moment, it is still you in my heart. And you will be staying here forever.And if only I could have the choice, I would always choose you. "
Jia then stood up and hug him as her way of saying him goodbye. Her tears drenched the cloth in his shoulder, the way his tears wet her hair.
"I'm selling the house. "
Jia stared at him, wondering why he would do that.
"That is my dream house which I built for you. I always kept on believing that a day would come that I could give it to you. I just cannot stain it with memories other than you. "
With this, she slumped again in his shoulder, sobbing her heart out. She saw that abstract painting in his living room and that the design of his house was feminine.
"And by the way, your house in Jian's Garden is already completed. "
"It looks like I'm disturbing. " She smiled politely to the woman who hurriedly straightened up the moment she walked in. She must be Anthon's girlfriend, she thought. " Anyway, I'm here to thank the donor . This is such a surprise to know that it's you. Thank you for everything. " She smiled gracefully, in a manner that Anthon loved about her. She gave them both a lingering smile before she slightly bow down and turned towards the door. "Jia.." She paused without turning back towards them. "Yes... " "For a while, please. " Anthon said. She took a deep breath before facing them again. She tried to be as expressionless as she could. Just as she looked back at him, was also just when he drew her closer towards him as he spoke softly, enough for her to eavesdrop. "Can we talk, please? " He saw those eyes that looked at her so tenderly. She gazed back at him and nodded. Then, she kissed his forehead before she politely excused herself. Knife! The sight felt like a knife cutting her heart in two. "You don't have to let her go out. " She calmly said, in which she only got a thin smile as a reply. "Jia, my legs are still numb due to the anesthesia. Can you just please sit down beside me? " Jia did not argue. She walked slowly towards the chair that the woman had been using. When she finally settled herself, Anthon gave him a quick glance then looked away. "How are you? " He asked. "Here. Too sad for Jim. " Her voice cracked,. not because of Jim, but because of an overwhelming feeling she could not understand. She unconsciously closed her eyes and breath deeply. "How's our son? He doesn't know I am here. " Our son... 'our' a possesive pronoun. "He does not know yet about Jim. " She answered, ignoring the implication of the word, 'our'.. "I'll take him out some other time. I also missed Jianna. " He said, smiling as he recalled the lovely creature. Anthon seemed to be not in a hurry and it seemed that he had nothing so important to talk to her about. "If there's nothing else, Ton, I'll go ahead. " She said, feeling uncomfortable that his girlfriend might soon be coming back. "Jia, can you please talk to me? " He complained. "Does she know about me? I'm afraid my presence here would give you trouble. " Jia said awkwardly. " What does she need to know about you? " Anthon teased her, but his expression did not show it at all. "I'm glad, Ton, that you have finally moved on as you planned. " She got humiliated by his question so she shifted the topic. "Are you happy for me? " He stole a glance at her. "Yes, I am. " " You're lying. " He stared at her without blinking, wanting to let her know that he was just not accusing but was telling the truth. Jia choked. She wanted to argue but somehow, no words came out from her mouth. "You're so good in lying, Jia, even to yourself. " Anthon said, with a blaming tone. " I don't know what you're talking about. " Jia still stood firm in her denial. "Three years ago, I saw and heard you wailing on the shore even before that call that tore me apart. You were hurting so much that Aijohn pretended to be somewhere nearby just to see you. I saw how you avoided to see me holding Giselle. I saw the changes in the way you treated her. You were not mean, you just overdid your sweetness towards her whenever I was around. I understood that it was your own way of pretending that you were unaffected. I saw how you went wild.... to vent out your pain. All because you were jealous of her. Am I right? " All of a sudden, Jia couldn't understand what she felt. That mixed feeling of guilt, shame and frustration instantly made her want to run away and hide. She bit her lips and unconsciously covered her face but Anthon took her hands and held it firmly away. "I was also there in the clinic when you cried again and heard everything you said... " The more Jia wished to disappear from his sight forever! "Now, tell me, are you still happy for me? " She burst out into searing, silent tears as her response against Anthon's unveiling of her long - time worn - out mask. "What more do you want to know and hear, Anthon? You've heard it all! " "Do you want to hear me say that all along I was wishing we could watch sunsets together or go out to candle - lit dinners? Stroll out by the seaside or walk in a park as lovers...?" Anthon suddenly felt a lump in his throat. He took Anna to Atlantis, The Palm, one of the most expensive restaurants in the world. He took her to the world's most famous Burj Khalifa and walked with her in the sands of the beautiful beaches of Jumeirah but never in a cheapest carenderia with Jia. "We yearned for each other but there had never been a fulfillment. And that is perhaps the reason why I am never over you. Deep inside, there is still this cry for you. But, Ton, we already hold separate lives. There is Jim and you have your girlfriend. The day he accepted me and your son was the day I had sworn to dedicate my whole life to him. And I know you can't also afford to hurt your girlfriend because of me. " Anthon's eyes were already red and swelling. He had already thought about this over and over again. He must make a move. Jia could never be his, no matter how much he wanted. And Jia was willing to deny herself all throughout her lifetime just to be true to her promise to Jim. "Jia, one of these days, I will introduce her to the family. I must do this for us to move on. But I want you to know that until this very moment, it is still you in my heart. And you will be staying here forever.And if only I could have the choice, I would always choose you. " Jia then stood up and hug him as her way of saying him goodbye. Her tears drenched the cloth in his shoulder, the way his tears wet her hair. "I'm selling the house. " Jia stared at him, wondering why he would do that. "That is my dream house which I built for you. I always kept on believing that a day would come that I could give it to you. I just cannot stain it with memories other than you. " With this, she slumped again in his shoulder, sobbing her heart out. She saw that abstract painting in his living room and that the design of his house was feminine. "And by the way, your house in Jian's Garden is already completed. "
