Chapter 14 Why Am I Here.
Chu Yunsheng really had no other choice now. He couldn't afford more trouble. So in Zhao Ling's surprised eyes, he gritted his teeth, picked up Song Ying's legs and quickly got into Song Ying's room while carrying Song Ying.
"What are you waiting for! Come in and close the door!" Chu Yunsheng turned around and said hurriedly to Zhao Ling, who was still in shock.
There was nothing wrong with the sentence itself, but it was said at an inopportune moment as if they were doing something bad.
Zhao Ling's blushed face suddenly became even redder like fire, burning fiercely. Auntie Wang's head could be seen faintly at the end of the stairs, so she hurriedly stopped the wild thoughts in her head, darted into the door and closed it quietly.
Chu Yunsheng let out a sigh of relief. "Where is the light switch?"
The room was too dark, and it did not look like Song Ying was willing to talk at the moment, so he asked Zhao Ling.
After the light was switched on, Chu Yunsheng went straight towards a beige-colored bed in the middle, suddenly pulled Song Ying apart and threw her onto the bed.
Hearing she let out a loud scream and wanted to get up again, Chu Yunsheng immediately covered her mouth, pressed her back onto the bed and hurriedly gave Zhao Ling a look.
Sure enough, there was a knock on the door, and then came the voice of housekeeper auntie Wang, "Miss. Zhao, is everything all right? I made you tea."
"Mhm...." Zhao Ling hemmed while making gestures to Chu Yunsheng to signall him to deal with Song Ying as soon as possible. No one expected something like this would happen, if auntie Wang saw this, there was no way they would be able to explain it.
Chu Yunsheng also understood this. But what could he do? Apart from cursing Song Ying repeatedly in his mind, there was nothing else he could do.
The door handle was twisted, and the door was slowly opened. Anxiously, Zhao Ling stepped forward and wanted to replace Chu Yunsheng to press Song Ying onto her bed.
Being pressed down by her had a totally different meaning from being pressed down by Chu Yunsheng.
But what she and Chu Yunsheng did not expect was, that as the door was opened, and as auntie Wang walked in with a tea tray, Song Ying suddenly pushed Zhao Ling away, adjusted her pajamas, and walked passed Zhao Ling and Chu Yunsheng with a cold look.
She went straight to auntie Wang, and said coldly, "auntie Wang, let me do it, you can prepare dinner now, and without my permission, please don't come into my room again."
Auntie Wang looked at Song Ying with surprise. In the face of her indifferent eyes, her heart suddenly tightened, but she did not say anything, she just placed the tea tray on a glass table with a tender smile and then left the room.
Chu Yunsheng and Zhao Ling looked at each other, puzzling, They were even more scared at the moment. This was clearly the symptom of mental illness.
Song Ying ignored the two cups of tea, which gave off a faint pleasant fragrance. She went straight back to the bed and looked at Zhao Ling and said, "sister Zhao, can you leave the room for a while? I want to speak to him alone."
Chu Yunsheng's heart instantly dropped. Fearing that Song Ying would have some strange behavior again and he might not be able to handle it himself, he hurriedly said before Zhao Ling, "no need, it was she, who asked me to come here, you can speak right now."
He was trying to tell the girl, that he was not willing to come here, and if she got anything she wanted to say, she could say to Zhao Ling, he didn't want to be part of this.
Song Ying looked at Chu Yunsheng tenderly, but immediately turned her face back to look at Zhao Ling with cold eyes, "please!"
Zhao Ling smiled helplessly and nodded her head. Before she left the room, she gave Chu Yunsheng a look to signal him to follow the plan, that they had discussed earlier.
After she left the room, Chu Yunsheng immediately found a chair to sit down far away from her and asked vigilantly, "you were pretending since the beginning? Tell me, what do you want? I am only an ordinary commoner. I really don't know what you want from me."
Song Ying approached him again, reached out her smooth jade-like hand and covered his mouth. Her fingers are slender, her skin is pale and glow with light blue light as if it is transparent. Chu Yunsheng could even see the veins clearly.
"Who am I!"
Song Ying gradually moved closer to Chu Yunsheng, staring into his eyes, and asked a very strange question.
Chu Yunsheng frowned, slightly leaned backward and said, "what do you mean?"
Song Ying's eyes were filled with bewilderment and a faint of longing, "can you please tell me who I am?"
She looked very strange as if she had been hit in the head during the car accident, and had some sort of memory loss.
Chu Yunsheng was a program engineer, not a psychiatrist. Seeing she didn't seem to pretend it, he asked a test question first, "you are Song Ying?"
"No." Song Ying immediately shook her head and said deeply, "take away this name, who am I?"
Take away the name? Her question made Chu Yunsheng very confused. But he still answered, "you are the daughter of a rich family. Your father is a high ranking government official, this?"
Song Ying still shook her head. She leaned close to the tip of his nose, looked into his eyes with her pleading eyes and said, "no, take the name, status, family, gender, all of them away, who am I?"
Chu Yunsheng immediately pushed her away. His brows were twitching with irritation, "I don't care who you are, nor do I know, I know you are called Song Ying, we have only met twice, I think you'd better go to see a doctor."
"You know!" Song Ying quickly hugged Chu Yunsheng's hand, and pled, "please, can you tell me? Who am I? Why am I here? Why not the past, nor the future, but the present? If time is an axis, why am I on this axis right after 1994? Is it meant to be like this? Or have I existed before but I couldn't remember it anymore? Your eyes told me that you know it, please, I'm begging you."
Seeing Song Ying begging him desperately, and hearing the questions she asked, Chu Yunsheng was frightened, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he was. These problems were too deep and too complex for him, but it also seemed to be the questions he wanted to ask.
"I, I don't know what you are talking about..." He asked with shaking voices.
Song Ying grasped Chu Yunsheng tightly, bit her lips as if she used all her strength to ask, "if I died, is it me who would disappear, or is it this world that would disappear?"
Chu YunSheng had never thought of this question, nor did he know how to answer this question. While thinking, he took his arm out of her tight hug, and said, "I'm sorry, I don't know the answer either, but I think, you are you, your presence is probably the reason why you exist, and everyone is probably the same, but no matter what, we should cherish it, I remember someone once said, life is used to perceive the world and the universe, this is the meaning of our existence. If there were no life in the universe, it would be meaningless. So, you don't need to think too much about this question. Using the words that I always told my friend, just eat delicious food, have good rest, and enjoy every day of your life."
Only until Chu Yunsheng finished talking, did he realized that the topic they were discussing seemed to be a little bit philosophical.
Song Ying seemed to be thinking about Chu Yunsheng's words. She bowed her head down and said, "really? Does my existence really has meaning?"
With that, she looked up, and as if she had gathered all her courage, she asked, "is my existence really meaningful to you?"
Although it sounded quite strange, to appease her as soon as possible, Chu Yunsheng nodded heavily and said, "Yes, of course!"
Hearing his words, Song Ying seemed to have been granted the purpose of her life by some kind of authority. It seemed like, to Song Ying, Chu Yunsheng was the only one in this world, that was qualified to determine the purpose of her existence in the world.
This is not normal, and it shouldn't be. After all, Chu Yunsheng is just an ordinary commoner. However, Song Ying seemed to be extremely certain, which is extremely bizarre.
Chu Yunsheng cleared his throat and said, "are you feeling okay now? I hope you can return back to your normal life now. I am just an ordinary commoner, your problems are too big for me to handle. Your father can easily kill me with just one word. So please just do me a favor. Okay?"
Song Ying quickly nodded her head obediently, stood up, clenched her hands into fists, and said, "I will protect you, and will not let others hurt you!"
Chu Yunsheng almost puked blood when he heard this. When he said that he wanted her to do him a favor, he meant that he wanted her to stay far away from him and don't look for him again. But he didn't expect that she totally misunderstood him.
In fact, Chu Yunsheng actually didn't understand the real meaning behind Song Ying's words. To her, Chu Yunsheng became the purpose of her existence.
Song Ying is alright now. But the question she had did not disappear, it is now shifted to Chu Yunsheng.
'Who the fuck am I..."
Chapter 14 Why Am I Here.
Chu Yunsheng really had no other choice now. He couldn't afford more trouble. So in Zhao Ling's surprised eyes, he gritted his teeth, picked up Song Ying's legs and quickly got into Song Ying's room while carrying Song Ying.
"What are you waiting for! Come in and close the door!" Chu Yunsheng turned around and said hurriedly to Zhao Ling, who was still in shock.
There was nothing wrong with the sentence itself, but it was said at an inopportune moment as if they were doing something bad.
Zhao Ling's blushed face suddenly became even redder like fire, burning fiercely. Auntie Wang's head could be seen faintly at the end of the stairs, so she hurriedly stopped the wild thoughts in her head, darted into the door and closed it quietly.
Chu Yunsheng let out a sigh of relief. "Where is the light switch?"
The room was too dark, and it did not look like Song Ying was willing to talk at the moment, so he asked Zhao Ling.
After the light was switched on, Chu Yunsheng went straight towards a beige-colored bed in the middle, suddenly pulled Song Ying apart and threw her onto the bed.
Hearing she let out a loud scream and wanted to get up again, Chu Yunsheng immediately covered her mouth, pressed her back onto the bed and hurriedly gave Zhao Ling a look.
Sure enough, there was a knock on the door, and then came the voice of housekeeper auntie Wang, "Miss. Zhao, is everything all right? I made you tea."
"Mhm...." Zhao Ling hemmed while making gestures to Chu Yunsheng to signall him to deal with Song Ying as soon as possible. No one expected something like this would happen, if auntie Wang saw this, there was no way they would be able to explain it.
Chu Yunsheng also understood this. But what could he do? Apart from cursing Song Ying repeatedly in his mind, there was nothing else he could do.
The door handle was twisted, and the door was slowly opened. Anxiously, Zhao Ling stepped forward and wanted to replace Chu Yunsheng to press Song Ying onto her bed.
Being pressed down by her had a totally different meaning from being pressed down by Chu Yunsheng.
But what she and Chu Yunsheng did not expect was, that as the door was opened, and as auntie Wang walked in with a tea tray, Song Ying suddenly pushed Zhao Ling away, adjusted her pajamas, and walked passed Zhao Ling and Chu Yunsheng with a cold look.
She went straight to auntie Wang, and said coldly, "auntie Wang, let me do it, you can prepare dinner now, and without my permission, please don't come into my room again."
Auntie Wang looked at Song Ying with surprise. In the face of her indifferent eyes, her heart suddenly tightened, but she did not say anything, she just placed the tea tray on a glass table with a tender smile and then left the room.
Chu Yunsheng and Zhao Ling looked at each other, puzzling, They were even more scared at the moment. This was clearly the symptom of mental illness.
Song Ying ignored the two cups of tea, which gave off a faint pleasant fragrance. She went straight back to the bed and looked at Zhao Ling and said, "sister Zhao, can you leave the room for a while? I want to speak to him alone."
Chu Yunsheng's heart instantly dropped. Fearing that Song Ying would have some strange behavior again and he might not be able to handle it himself, he hurriedly said before Zhao Ling, "no need, it was she, who asked me to come here, you can speak right now."
He was trying to tell the girl, that he was not willing to come here, and if she got anything she wanted to say, she could say to Zhao Ling, he didn't want to be part of this.
Song Ying looked at Chu Yunsheng tenderly, but immediately turned her face back to look at Zhao Ling with cold eyes, "please!"
Zhao Ling smiled helplessly and nodded her head. Before she left the room, she gave Chu Yunsheng a look to signal him to follow the plan, that they had discussed earlier.
After she left the room, Chu Yunsheng immediately found a chair to sit down far away from her and asked vigilantly, "you were pretending since the beginning? Tell me, what do you want? I am only an ordinary commoner. I really don't know what you want from me."
Song Ying approached him again, reached out her smooth jade-like hand and covered his mouth. Her fingers are slender, her skin is pale and glow with light blue light as if it is transparent. Chu Yunsheng could even see the veins clearly.
"Who am I!"
Song Ying gradually moved closer to Chu Yunsheng, staring into his eyes, and asked a very strange question.
Chu Yunsheng frowned, slightly leaned backward and said, "what do you mean?"
Song Ying's eyes were filled with bewilderment and a faint of longing, "can you please tell me who I am?"
She looked very strange as if she had been hit in the head during the car accident, and had some sort of memory loss.
Chu Yunsheng was a program engineer, not a psychiatrist. Seeing she didn't seem to pretend it, he asked a test question first, "you are Song Ying?"
"No." Song Ying immediately shook her head and said deeply, "take away this name, who am I?"
Take away the name? Her question made Chu Yunsheng very confused. But he still answered, "you are the daughter of a rich family. Your father is a high ranking government official, this?"
Song Ying still shook her head. She leaned close to the tip of his nose, looked into his eyes with her pleading eyes and said, "no, take the name, status, family, gender, all of them away, who am I?"
Chu Yunsheng immediately pushed her away. His brows were twitching with irritation, "I don't care who you are, nor do I know, I know you are called Song Ying, we have only met twice, I think you'd better go to see a doctor."
"You know!" Song Ying quickly hugged Chu Yunsheng's hand, and pled, "please, can you tell me? Who am I? Why am I here? Why not the past, nor the future, but the present? If time is an axis, why am I on this axis right after 1994? Is it meant to be like this? Or have I existed before but I couldn't remember it anymore? Your eyes told me that you know it, please, I'm begging you."
Seeing Song Ying begging him desperately, and hearing the questions she asked, Chu Yunsheng was frightened, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he was. These problems were too deep and too complex for him, but it also seemed to be the questions he wanted to ask.
"I, I don't know what you are talking about..." He asked with shaking voices.
Song Ying grasped Chu Yunsheng tightly, bit her lips as if she used all her strength to ask, "if I died, is it me who would disappear, or is it this world that would disappear?"
Chu YunSheng had never thought of this question, nor did he know how to answer this question. While thinking, he took his arm out of her tight hug, and said, "I'm sorry, I don't know the answer either, but I think, you are you, your presence is probably the reason why you exist, and everyone is probably the same, but no matter what, we should cherish it, I remember someone once said, life is used to perceive the world and the universe, this is the meaning of our existence. If there were no life in the universe, it would be meaningless. So, you don't need to think too much about this question. Using the words that I always told my friend, just eat delicious food, have good rest, and enjoy every day of your life."
Only until Chu Yunsheng finished talking, did he realized that the topic they were discussing seemed to be a little bit philosophical.
Song Ying seemed to be thinking about Chu Yunsheng's words. She bowed her head down and said, "really? Does my existence really has meaning?"
With that, she looked up, and as if she had gathered all her courage, she asked, "is my existence really meaningful to you?"
Although it sounded quite strange, to appease her as soon as possible, Chu Yunsheng nodded heavily and said, "Yes, of course!"
Hearing his words, Song Ying seemed to have been granted the purpose of her life by some kind of authority. It seemed like, to Song Ying, Chu Yunsheng was the only one in this world, that was qualified to determine the purpose of her existence in the world.
This is not normal, and it shouldn't be. After all, Chu Yunsheng is just an ordinary commoner. However, Song Ying seemed to be extremely certain, which is extremely bizarre.
Chu Yunsheng cleared his throat and said, "are you feeling okay now? I hope you can return back to your normal life now. I am just an ordinary commoner, your problems are too big for me to handle. Your father can easily kill me with just one word. So please just do me a favor. Okay?"
Song Ying quickly nodded her head obediently, stood up, clenched her hands into fists, and said, "I will protect you, and will not let others hurt you!"
Chu Yunsheng almost puked blood when he heard this. When he said that he wanted her to do him a favor, he meant that he wanted her to stay far away from him and don't look for him again. But he didn't expect that she totally misunderstood him.
In fact, Chu Yunsheng actually didn't understand the real meaning behind Song Ying's words. To her, Chu Yunsheng became the purpose of her existence.
Song Ying is alright now. But the question she had did not disappear, it is now shifted to Chu Yunsheng.
'Who the fuck am I..."
