Chapter 29
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Translator: Huang Jianxi
Proofread by Her Li
Ai and Lu didn't come back for dinner. Du drank a lot but not as drunk as he was last time. He refused to go back home with help and stumbled on the way back alone under the moonlight.
Ji looked at him behind. She suddenly felt solitary. Sorrow spread in her heart. A thought came to her mind that she shouldn't had helped Ai to sound him out.
She forced a bitter smile. It was obvious for her why she insisted on doing that because her feelings had never been accepted. So she always resented those who she wanted to love but didn't dare to love.
There were only two kinds of feelings in the world: like or dislike. If you liked someone, you should speak out. If you didn't, you should do it, too. Those who likes someone but didn't dare to say it should never be regarded as shy. It was all damned nonsense!
Ji looked up at the moon. She felt as if she also had been drunk. She missed Bai Jin so much.
As there were guests at home, Lu Zhanke chose to sleep in the guest room, leaving the master bedroom to Ai and Ji.
They didn't sleep together for a long time. It was strange that they should chat for the whole day, but they kept silence because they each had a load on their minds.
When they were woolgathering, Ji’s phone rang. She didn’t even need to see it. It must be Bai Jin. Because the exclusive ringtone was “My Own Angel”.
“Nobody can take you away from me. You are my one and only angel. Your man should be me. Nobody can replace you in my heart...”
Hearing the lyric, Ji couldn't help crying.
Ai was so surprised to see Ji crying. She asked in a hurry, "Fan. What happened to you?"
Ji turned back to hug Ai, "Saner. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him..."
She kept saying this.
"Who? Who are you talking about?" Ai was confused.
Ji concealed her own secrets rarely known by others all the time. She wanted to find someone to confide to. However, she had no choice but to continue her concealing. She was struggling. The pain kept weighing heavily on her mind. She was afraid that she could not manage it one day.
She loved Bai Jin but she couldn't love him. Because he called him brother. The relationship was enough to eliminate any possibility of being with him.
She hated him. But for him, she would have not been in pain. She couldn't be with him. She knew it clearly. Why did she fall in love with him?
She didn't even dare to tell Ai the shameful secret. She was afraid that Ai would despise her. Thus, she just needed some time to cry. Just some time.
How could Ai bring herself to see her crying so sadly？She was eager to figure out, "Fan, What happened to you? Tell me now. Come on!"
Ai was anxious to know. Ji was always an optimistic and strong person. Now she was at the peak of her career. She couldn’t imagine what kind of thing could make her cry so sadly. She couldn’t figure out, which made her even more worried.
Ji didn’t say any words but just cried hugging Ai. Ai could do nothing but keep comforting her and didn’t force her to tell the truth.
After Ji cried enough, she started to talk about the reason why she cried. But the reason was just an excuse she made up.
"Did you watch the recent news? Ye Chen’s fans cursed me to death. I am stressed now. I can't watch TV. I can't answer any phone call. I can't even log in Weibo. This is my first time that I felt so stressed after I entered the entertainment circle." Ji sighed slowly, "This is extremely stressful. I can't even breathe."
Gossiping was a universal psychology. Not to mention others, Ai herself liked gossip as well. But she just took it as amusement. She never took it too seriously or left any aggressive comments online. Most of stuff in the entertainment circle was media hype with particular purposes. If you were serious, you lost.
Ji’d experienced lots of ups and downs in her life. But this time, she must be too stressed to bear it. No wonder she would come to this seclusion to seek for fresh and free air.
Ai sighed, “If you want to get something, you should pay for it. You are a popular star and you will definitely lose some part of your freedom. But, Fan, just be yourself. Don’t care too much about what other people think of you. You can think about those who support you. For example...for example. Anxin.”
Ji wiped his tears, "You're right. I should consider those who support me. I can't be knocked down. Never."
The phone rang again when she just finished speaking. It was the same song and the same man.
Ai asked, "Do you wanna pick up?"
She felt Zhou Nianxin must be worried about Ji Xingfan so he would call again and again.
Ji smirked coldly. That call could be from anybody else but Zhou Nianxin. There was only uncle Bai in her eyes. Even Ji, her daughter, had to step aside.
Ji closed her eyes and said coolly, “It was not my mom. It was probably a reporter from Entertainment Weekly calling to dig for gossip.”
”Ah...” Ai felt somewhat annoyed. These people were really...wasn’t it enough? They called to ask, how dared? Didn't they know stars were also human? Sometimes they were frail as well. Why did they keep compelling?
“Why don’t we shut it down?” She suggested.
Ji thought for a while and finally picked up the phone. Looking at two shining characters on the screen 'Bai Jin', her eyes flashed. Then she pressed the power button to shut it down.
It was time for him to worry, as a punishment.
After Ji shut down the phone, she asked Ai, "We cannot be found in this place, right?"
Bai Jin was a resourceful man. There was a time when she went to a far place for shooting. And unfortunately her phone was out of charge. Bai Jin found someone to locate where she was, which hotel, and which room she was in. Now she didn't want to let him find her easily again.
"Ah. I think so. " It could not be called as a military region if it could be easily located.
"OK." Ji was at ease now.
"Well." Seeing Ji was alright, Ai let her mind wandering again.
Ji knew that Ai must be worrying about what happened during the dinner time. She pondered for a long while and asked, " Who are you thinking about, Lu or Du?"
"Ah?" Ai flustered when being seen through easily. Then she started to think back. Who was she thinking about just now?
Ji said, "You have to make a decision in the end. Du Yucheng or Lu Zhanke. "
There was a flash in Ai's eyes. After long silence, she chose to escape from the reality, "I...I don't know. Everything is unknown already, right? Du Yucheng...Perhaps he is not Qin Zhan."
If she didn't get the answer from Du himself, everything was just their conjecture.
Ji couldn't stand her fluke mind, "What kind of answer do you want? Don't you know Du fuddled himself after you and Lu left? You didn't see how he looked like when he left finally. It..it was heartbreaking..."
Ji sighed with sentiment. If Bai Jin could be spoony like Du Yucheng, she would not have been dejected, weeping all by herself.
"Really? "Ai bit her lip. Guil and uneasiness surged up deep in her heart. When Lu said those words, she was shocked indeed. She never thought about going back, "But..."
Why did he say nothing in her presence?
“If you don't believe me, you can ask him again tomorrow. But you need to think: what are you going to do after you ask him."
“I ...I am still thinking...” Their relationship was a tangle of wool ball. She would had intended to escape it, but she didn’t expect that Ji would force her to make a choice.
“I should thank god if he is not Qin Zhan. But what if he is.”
"Now I am gonna ask him first. Who is he? Du Yucheng. Qin Zhan. Which one is true? Why did he lie to me? Why did he pretend not to recognize me?"
"So, you chose Qin Zhan? You'd better be resolute about your choice. Don't change any more, no matter what Lu says. Don't change."
"I..." Ai looked at Ji, hesitating about the unspoken words. She must have promised Ai if it was before. Because at that time, there was only Qin Zhan in her mind. But now, she should feel sorry for Lu and she didn't want to.
Did she betray herself? Or did she become a bad woman, loving two men at the same time?
No. No. She loved Qin Zhan. She never thought about falling in love with Lu Zhanke. This was her true thought.
"Did you forget why you came here? You are here for negotiating with Lu about divorce. You forgot what you said before. You said you loved Qin Zhan." Ji made up her mind and had another punch on Ai's heart, "You are hesitating, which will only hurt yourself and others aw well."
"But you encouraged me to accept Lu?" Ai remembered when she snapped a picture of Lu and showed it to Ji, and Ji said how silly she was to refuse Lu, such a dashing man.
"I..." Ji didn't know what to say. She said after a while, "Things have changed. I am reminding you. You should make your own decision. I am protecting you from being hurt."
"I...I know." Ai seemed to be determined.
A complicated expression flashed in Ji's eyes. She clutched Ai's hand, saying in low voice, "You are doing a right thing. You know clearly who you love."
Just like herself, she knew well that she hated Bai Jin bitterly but was willing to die for him.
She didn't care. She could sacrifice anything for him.
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Translator: Huang Jianxi
Proofread by Her Li
Ai and Lu didn't come back for dinner. Du drank a lot but not as drunk as he was last time. He refused to go back home with help and stumbled on the way back alone under the moonlight.
Ji looked at him behind. She suddenly felt solitary. Sorrow spread in her heart. A thought came to her mind that she shouldn't had helped Ai to sound him out.
She forced a bitter smile. It was obvious for her why she insisted on doing that because her feelings had never been accepted. So she always resented those who she wanted to love but didn't dare to love.
There were only two kinds of feelings in the world: like or dislike. If you liked someone, you should speak out. If you didn't, you should do it, too. Those who likes someone but didn't dare to say it should never be regarded as shy. It was all damned nonsense!
Ji looked up at the moon. She felt as if she also had been drunk. She missed Bai Jin so much.
As there were guests at home, Lu Zhanke chose to sleep in the guest room, leaving the master bedroom to Ai and Ji.
They didn't sleep together for a long time. It was strange that they should chat for the whole day, but they kept silence because they each had a load on their minds.
When they were woolgathering, Ji’s phone rang. She didn’t even need to see it. It must be Bai Jin. Because the exclusive ringtone was “My Own Angel”.
“Nobody can take you away from me. You are my one and only angel. Your man should be me. Nobody can replace you in my heart...”
Hearing the lyric, Ji couldn't help crying.
Ai was so surprised to see Ji crying. She asked in a hurry, "Fan. What happened to you?"
Ji turned back to hug Ai, "Saner. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him..."
She kept saying this.
"Who? Who are you talking about?" Ai was confused.
Ji concealed her own secrets rarely known by others all the time. She wanted to find someone to confide to. However, she had no choice but to continue her concealing. She was struggling. The pain kept weighing heavily on her mind. She was afraid that she could not manage it one day.
She loved Bai Jin but she couldn't love him. Because he called him brother. The relationship was enough to eliminate any possibility of being with him.
She hated him. But for him, she would have not been in pain. She couldn't be with him. She knew it clearly. Why did she fall in love with him?
She didn't even dare to tell Ai the shameful secret. She was afraid that Ai would despise her. Thus, she just needed some time to cry. Just some time.
How could Ai bring herself to see her crying so sadly？She was eager to figure out, "Fan, What happened to you? Tell me now. Come on!"
Ai was anxious to know. Ji was always an optimistic and strong person. Now she was at the peak of her career. She couldn’t imagine what kind of thing could make her cry so sadly. She couldn’t figure out, which made her even more worried.
Ji didn’t say any words but just cried hugging Ai. Ai could do nothing but keep comforting her and didn’t force her to tell the truth.
After Ji cried enough, she started to talk about the reason why she cried. But the reason was just an excuse she made up.
"Did you watch the recent news? Ye Chen’s fans cursed me to death. I am stressed now. I can't watch TV. I can't answer any phone call. I can't even log in Weibo. This is my first time that I felt so stressed after I entered the entertainment circle." Ji sighed slowly, "This is extremely stressful. I can't even breathe."
Gossiping was a universal psychology. Not to mention others, Ai herself liked gossip as well. But she just took it as amusement. She never took it too seriously or left any aggressive comments online. Most of stuff in the entertainment circle was media hype with particular purposes. If you were serious, you lost.
Ji’d experienced lots of ups and downs in her life. But this time, she must be too stressed to bear it. No wonder she would come to this seclusion to seek for fresh and free air.
Ai sighed, “If you want to get something, you should pay for it. You are a popular star and you will definitely lose some part of your freedom. But, Fan, just be yourself. Don’t care too much about what other people think of you. You can think about those who support you. For example...for example. Anxin.”
Ji wiped his tears, "You're right. I should consider those who support me. I can't be knocked down. Never."
The phone rang again when she just finished speaking. It was the same song and the same man.
Ai asked, "Do you wanna pick up?"
She felt Zhou Nianxin must be worried about Ji Xingfan so he would call again and again.
Ji smirked coldly. That call could be from anybody else but Zhou Nianxin. There was only uncle Bai in her eyes. Even Ji, her daughter, had to step aside.
Ji closed her eyes and said coolly, “It was not my mom. It was probably a reporter from Entertainment Weekly calling to dig for gossip.”
”Ah...” Ai felt somewhat annoyed. These people were really...wasn’t it enough? They called to ask, how dared? Didn't they know stars were also human? Sometimes they were frail as well. Why did they keep compelling?
“Why don’t we shut it down?” She suggested.
Ji thought for a while and finally picked up the phone. Looking at two shining characters on the screen 'Bai Jin', her eyes flashed. Then she pressed the power button to shut it down.
It was time for him to worry, as a punishment.
After Ji shut down the phone, she asked Ai, "We cannot be found in this place, right?"
Bai Jin was a resourceful man. There was a time when she went to a far place for shooting. And unfortunately her phone was out of charge. Bai Jin found someone to locate where she was, which hotel, and which room she was in. Now she didn't want to let him find her easily again.
"Ah. I think so. " It could not be called as a military region if it could be easily located.
"OK." Ji was at ease now.
"Well." Seeing Ji was alright, Ai let her mind wandering again.
Ji knew that Ai must be worrying about what happened during the dinner time. She pondered for a long while and asked, " Who are you thinking about, Lu or Du?"
"Ah?" Ai flustered when being seen through easily. Then she started to think back. Who was she thinking about just now?
Ji said, "You have to make a decision in the end. Du Yucheng or Lu Zhanke. "
There was a flash in Ai's eyes. After long silence, she chose to escape from the reality, "I...I don't know. Everything is unknown already, right? Du Yucheng...Perhaps he is not Qin Zhan."
If she didn't get the answer from Du himself, everything was just their conjecture.
Ji couldn't stand her fluke mind, "What kind of answer do you want? Don't you know Du fuddled himself after you and Lu left? You didn't see how he looked like when he left finally. It..it was heartbreaking..."
Ji sighed with sentiment. If Bai Jin could be spoony like Du Yucheng, she would not have been dejected, weeping all by herself.
"Really? "Ai bit her lip. Guil and uneasiness surged up deep in her heart. When Lu said those words, she was shocked indeed. She never thought about going back, "But..."
Why did he say nothing in her presence?
“If you don't believe me, you can ask him again tomorrow. But you need to think: what are you going to do after you ask him."
“I ...I am still thinking...” Their relationship was a tangle of wool ball. She would had intended to escape it, but she didn’t expect that Ji would force her to make a choice.
“I should thank god if he is not Qin Zhan. But what if he is.”
"Now I am gonna ask him first. Who is he? Du Yucheng. Qin Zhan. Which one is true? Why did he lie to me? Why did he pretend not to recognize me?"
"So, you chose Qin Zhan? You'd better be resolute about your choice. Don't change any more, no matter what Lu says. Don't change."
"I..." Ai looked at Ji, hesitating about the unspoken words. She must have promised Ai if it was before. Because at that time, there was only Qin Zhan in her mind. But now, she should feel sorry for Lu and she didn't want to.
Did she betray herself? Or did she become a bad woman, loving two men at the same time?
No. No. She loved Qin Zhan. She never thought about falling in love with Lu Zhanke. This was her true thought.
"Did you forget why you came here? You are here for negotiating with Lu about divorce. You forgot what you said before. You said you loved Qin Zhan." Ji made up her mind and had another punch on Ai's heart, "You are hesitating, which will only hurt yourself and others aw well."
"But you encouraged me to accept Lu?" Ai remembered when she snapped a picture of Lu and showed it to Ji, and Ji said how silly she was to refuse Lu, such a dashing man.
"I..." Ji didn't know what to say. She said after a while, "Things have changed. I am reminding you. You should make your own decision. I am protecting you from being hurt."
"I...I know." Ai seemed to be determined.
A complicated expression flashed in Ji's eyes. She clutched Ai's hand, saying in low voice, "You are doing a right thing. You know clearly who you love."
Just like herself, she knew well that she hated Bai Jin bitterly but was willing to die for him.
She didn't care. She could sacrifice anything for him.
tTranslator: Huang JianxiProofread by Her LiAi and Lu didn't come back for dinner. Du drank a lot but not as drunk as he was last time. He refused to go back home with help and stumbled on the way back alone under the moonlight. Ji looked at him behind. She suddenly felt solitary. Sorrow spread in her heart. A thought came to her mind that she shouldn't had helped Ai to sound him out. She forced a bitter smile. It was obvious for her why she insisted on doing that because her feelings had never been accepted. So she always resented those who she wanted to love but didn't dare to love. There were only two kinds of feelings in the world: like or dislike. If you liked someone, you should speak out. If you didn't, you should do it, too. Those who likes someone but didn't dare to say it should never be regarded as shy. It was all damned nonsense! Ji looked up at the moon. She felt as if she also had been drunk. She missed Bai Jin so much.As there were guests at home, Lu Zhanke chose to sleep in the guest room, leaving the master bedroom to Ai and Ji.They didn't sleep together for a long time. It was strange that they should chat for the whole day, but they kept silence because they each had a load on their minds.When they were woolgathering, Ji's phone rang. She didn't even need to see it. It must be Bai Jin. Because the exclusive ringtone was My Own Angel.Nobody can take you away from me. You are my one and only angel. Your man should be me. Nobody can replace you in my heart...Hearing the lyric, Ji couldn't help crying.Ai was so surprised to see Ji crying. She asked in a hurry, "Fan. What happened to you?"Ji turned back to hug Ai, "Saner. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him..."She kept saying this."Who? Who are you talking about?" Ai was confused.Ji concealed her own secrets rarely known by others all the time. She wanted to find someone to confide to. However, she had no choice but to continue her concealing. She was struggling. The pain kept weighing heavily on her mind. She was afraid that she could not manage it one day. She loved Bai Jin but she couldn't love him. Because he called him brother. The relationship was enough to eliminate any possibility of being with him.She hated him. But for him, she would have not been in pain. She couldn't be with him. She knew it clearly. Why did she fall in love with him? She didn't even dare to tell Ai the shameful secret. She was afraid that Ai would despise her. Thus, she just needed some time to cry. Just some time.How could Ai bring herself to see her crying so sadlyShe was eager to figure out, "Fan, What happened to you? Tell me now. Come on!" Ai was anxious to know. Ji was always an optimistic and strong person. Now she was at the peak of her career. She couldn't imagine what kind of thing could make her cry so sadly. She couldn't figure out, which made her even more worried.Ji didn't say any words but just cried hugging Ai. Ai could do nothing but keep comforting her and didn't force her to tell the truth.After Ji cried enough, she started to talk about the reason why she cried. But the reason was just an excuse she made up."Did you watch the recent news? Ye Chen's fans cursed me to death. I am stressed now. I can't watch TV. I can't answer any phone call. I can't even log in Weibo. This is my first time that I felt so stressed after I entered the entertainment circle." Ji sighed slowly, "This is extremely stressful. I can't even breathe." Gossiping was a universal psychology. Not to mention others, Ai herself liked gossip as well. But she just took it as amusement. She never took it too seriously or left any aggressive comments online. Most of stuff in the entertainment circle was media hype with particular purposes. If you were serious, you lost. Ji'd experienced lots of ups and downs in her life. But this time, she must be too stressed to bear it. No wonder she would come to this seclusion to seek for fresh and free air.Ai sighed, If you want to get something, you should pay for it. You are a popular star and you will definitely lose some part of your freedom. But, Fan, just be yourself. Don't care too much about what other people think of you. You can think about those who support you. For example...for example. Anxin.Ji wiped his tears, "You're right. I should consider those who support me. I can't be knocked down. Never."The phone rang again when she just finished speaking. It was the same song and the same man. Ai asked, "Do you wanna pick up?"She felt Zhou Nianxin must be worried about Ji Xingfan so he would call again and again.Ji smirked coldly. That call could be from anybody else but Zhou Nianxin. There was only uncle Bai in her eyes. Even Ji, her daughter, had to step aside.Ji closed her eyes and said coolly, It was not my mom. It was probably a reporter from Entertainment Weekly calling to dig for gossip. Ah... Ai felt somewhat annoyed. These people were really...wasn't it enough? They called to ask, how dared? Didn't they know stars were also human? Sometimes they were frail as well. Why did they keep compelling? Why don't we shut it down? She suggested.Ji thought for a while and finally picked up the phone. Looking at two shining characters on the screen 'Bai Jin', her eyes flashed. Then she pressed the power button to shut it down.It was time for him to worry, as a punishment.After Ji shut down the phone, she asked Ai, "We cannot be found in this place, right?"Bai Jin was a resourceful man. There was a time when she went to a far place for shooting. And unfortunately her phone was out of charge. Bai Jin found someone to locate where she was, which hotel, and which room she was in. Now she didn't want to let him find her easily again. "Ah. I think so. " It could not be called as a military region if it could be easily located. "OK." Ji was at ease now. "Well." Seeing Ji was alright, Ai let her mind wandering again.Ji knew that Ai must be worrying about what happened during the dinner time. She pondered for a long while and asked, " Who are you thinking about, Lu or Du?""Ah?" Ai flustered when being seen through easily. Then she started to think back. Who was she thinking about just now? Ji said, "You have to make a decision in the end. Du Yucheng or Lu Zhanke. "There was a flash in Ai's eyes. After long silence, she chose to escape from the reality, "I...I don't know. Everything is unknown already, right? Du Yucheng...Perhaps he is not Qin Zhan."If she didn't get the answer from Du himself, everything was just their conjecture.Ji couldn't stand her fluke mind, "What kind of answer do you want? Don't you know Du fuddled himself after you and Lu left? You didn't see how he looked like when he left finally. It..it was heartbreaking..." Ji sighed with sentiment. If Bai Jin could be spoony like Du Yucheng, she would not have been dejected, weeping all by herself. "Really? "Ai bit her lip. Guil and uneasiness surged up deep in her heart. When Lu said those words, she was shocked indeed. She never thought about going back, "But..."Why did he say nothing in her presence?If you don't believe me, you can ask him again tomorrow. But you need to think: what are you going to do after you ask him."I ...I am still thinking... Their relationship was a tangle of wool ball. She would had intended to escape it, but she didn't expect that Ji would force her to make a choice. I should thank god if he is not Qin Zhan. But what if he is."Now I am gonna ask him first. Who is he? Du Yucheng. Qin Zhan. Which one is true? Why did he lie to me? Why did he pretend not to recognize me?" "So, you chose Qin Zhan? You'd better be resolute about your choice. Don't change any more, no matter what Lu says. Don't change.""I..." Ai looked at Ji, hesitating about the unspoken words. She must have promised Ai if it was before. Because at that time, there was only Qin Zhan in her mind. But now, she should feel sorry for Lu and she didn't want to. Did she betray herself? Or did she become a bad woman, loving two men at the same time?No. No. She loved Qin Zhan. She never thought about falling in love with Lu Zhanke. This was her true thought."Did you forget why you came here? You are here for negotiating with Lu about divorce. You forgot what you said before. You said you loved Qin Zhan." Ji made up her mind and had another punch on Ai's heart, "You are hesitating, which will only hurt yourself and others aw well.""But you encouraged me to accept Lu?" Ai remembered when she snapped a picture of Lu and showed it to Ji, and Ji said how silly she was to refuse Lu, such a dashing man. "I..." Ji didn't know what to say. She said after a while, "Things have changed. I am reminding you. You should make your own decision. I am protecting you from being hurt.""I...I know." Ai seemed to be determined.A complicated expression flashed in Ji's eyes. She clutched Ai's hand, saying in low voice, "You are doing a right thing. You know clearly who you love."Just like herself, she knew well that she hated Bai Jin bitterly but was willing to die for him.She didn't care. She could sacrifice anything for him.
