M E M O R I Z E - Chapter 113

Published at 26th of October 2019 09:14:15 PM

Chapter 113

Dark Past (3)




“Don't tell me it was your sister… . ”


“No . ”


Jung Ha Yeon dismissed my doubt with a single word . This was all like a drama, but it would be a little too much if that female players turned out to be Jung Ji Yeon . Fortunately, Jung Ha Yeon denied my doubt with a firm answer .


“Of course, she was still a kid, so she wouldn’t do it, she was a very precious person to me . Anyway… . That female player was a wizard class player who came in a few months earlier than us . I have no intention of revealing her name . That female player, had a talent that was so great that she was given special education and training at that time . I was confused with what I saw, but then that woman saw me and smiled . And opened my mouth directing my words to the man between us . ”


Was it… . Yu Bin? Sung Yu Bin . I tilted my head . She was following Park Hyun-woo . However, there were a few things that didn’t tally with the character of Park Hyun-woo . I thought a lot of what she said, and decided to focus on what she has to say .


“I still remember every bit of conversation that I had with them at that time . I still hear them . The woman started the conversation with him . ‘Isn’t she the girl who follows you? Huh?’ ‘Oh, It is her’ ‘Why is she suddenly? Hold on… . She looks different . ’ ‘What different . I don't see anything special in her . ’ ‘I think she like you . ’ ‘Ah . Well honestly, she is pretty beautiful, but she isn’t my taste, I like passionate woman like you . ’”


Indeed, Jung Ha Yeon was bringing out the day that she wanted to forget . It was almost an year since that day has passed, and she remembers what happened very clearly . I made a grim face after hearing their conversation, and she just smiled with a sad face . And, her continued .


“At the last words from the man, the woman laughed and laughed . ‘Yeah . But she is so pitiful’, ‘It is alright . It was waste… I brought her for the purpose of bribing . ’, ‘Bribe? Huh?’, ‘ There was a rumor that the Golden Lion Clan scout was a killer player . It was said that he was smart and liked pretty little girl, I thought that my presenting her to him, he might take a good care of me… . . But she just ruined it . God that bitch . It hurts . Honestly, I'm sorry . As I think about it, I was expecting way too much from her . Anyway, sooner or later I'll devote myself to the scout . Lazy……ah . ’”


I heard the conversation, and I felt like the female player Jung Ha Yeon wasn’t thrilled to be in that situation . When I saw her, she seemed to be in a depth of sorrow, and it didn’t seem like she was lying about it . But I couldn’t truly understand how she was feeling, nor did I know how tearful it would be for a woman . What I found more frightening was that Jung ha Yeon didn’t shed a single tear in the whole conversation . And as I listened to her I couldn’t help but sigh .


“Yeah . For him, I was nothing but a tool to get success . Even when I fell into this hell of a Hall Plane, I thought that it would be fine if I just stuck with him . but they were all my illusions . He only thought about himself, and was using me all along . ”


“Then how did you…”


“I went to the personnel manager on the way . I woke him from his deep sleep . I told him that I was going to quit right away . What's more surprising is that he listened to all that I had to say and without a single words he just allowed me leave . How’s that . Funny right?”


Yes . I was anxious, there was no reason for her to be cast out . One of the rule of the clan is that, no member of the clan can walk out by their own freewill . Once all the words of hers were done, she took a deep breath and leaned back onto the chair . And I took out the cigar out of habit . I burned it and put it in my mouth, and the small sparks came in the end .


For a while neither did Jung Ha Yeon, nor did I say anything . There was an awkward silence between us . Soon time passed . And when I looked at Jung Ha Yeon, she opened her mouth with a hollow voice .


“Thank you . Though I wasn’t much interesting, you’ve heard my whole story . ”


“It was nothing . I understand how you feel . ”


“I hate those words from your mouth . How could you possibly understand?”


“At present it is the best clans and it has the best individual payers too, but the position of the women is still disadvantageous . This is something that had been going on for a lo of time and this was being endured . And being disposed by the clan would make an individual feel unfair . The man you met in the last was probably your last hope . I understand, I sympathize with your position . ”


She laughed sadly at me, and opened her mouth .


“Okay then . Well, it is finally time to get to the point . ”


I shook my head and looked at the woman who spoke till now . She looked around the room and rolled her eyes .


“The night is getting very late . You have already said a lot today . So, let us stop it for today… . ”


“The night is long, and we still have a lot of time…”


“The rest over matter is for the next time…”


“No . I want to get this done today itself . ”


Jung Ha Yeon stared at me with eyes that looked like they were on fire . Suddenly, she held onto my hand tightly, and her body rose from her chair and onto the table . Her hands that were holding mine were cold . After I realized that she wasn’t to going to let go of this, I spoke with her in a soft tone .


“What else is there to say?”


“There was a story which said to pay the price for having a debt . ”


I just looked at her, without saying anything . I understood her situation . But there was a difference in this and that . I tried to tell her that she was succumbing to her emotions and that she was wrong to do this, and her eyes said something else .


I regained my posture . From now on it was the beginning of the second part of what happened in the Institute of Ruins . But this time the positions were swapped, and I was the one that was going to lead it .


“So, what will you pay for the debt?”


She listened to the calm voice of mine . At my question, Jung Ha Yeon shrugged her shoulders and spoke gently .


“I'm sorry that I dragged your thoughts by using the < Revision of Truth > . But since that day, I have had a habit of not trusting a human, especially a man . So, I just wanted to clarify . ”


“I can understand that it happened without your consciousness . But it doesn’t justify how you have acted a while back . I would like you to differentiate between people of those classes and us . ”


“I know . But, I'm not so sure . What does player Kim Su-Hyun want me to do?”


“This is surely a problem for you to worry about . And it is not a matter for me to decide . ”


I didn’t try to hold back any of my words . I could sympathize with her position, but I could look at this anymore . Some people may say they are too strict . But this is Hall Plane . As long as she knew what my life was, I had no cause to kill her . And it was a fact that she also knew .


She opened her mouth with a tired voice as she heard my determined voice .


“We came back from the Ruins and I caused a lot of trouble for everyone . But… . The bottom line is that I have nothing to give you and make you feel better . ”


“… . . tell me more . ”


“Are you pretending to not know? Or do you really not understand what I said? What are the things that I could give you?”


“……… . ”


“Player information? Gold? Ability points? Free service? Do you want me to write a slave contract? I don't know what you want . No, I really have nothing else that I could give you . ”


I just made a sound at her words . I just knocked on the table habitually . The thing is… . I like her . I finally understood why I felt good around her . She never crosses the line . In other words, it would be a nice thing to hold this opportunity .


Of course, she crossed the line once, in the Institute of Ruins . However, her action of crossing the line had a purpose, and there were things that she needed to confirm . And it was time to end this all out .


“Some of the things that you just said are a bit overrated . ”


“Huh . Overrated huh? My player information isn’t worth to you . and the gold too had no purpose . And the ability . It is fine . These are just my words but I'm good when it comes to ability . Maybe not as much as you . The service is also the same, not better than you . Slave contract . It has restrictions to be established between the payers . I'll get straight t the point . Even if I participate to be a member of your party, it is not a sufficient price to pay for what I did . For your capabilities, I'm not sufficient, I'm just not enough for you . ”


“Why are you depreciating your own values and demoralizing yourself?”


“That is the truth, it really is . And…”


Jung Ha Yeon who was speaking very quickly suddenly halted and took a breath . And I looked at her, and the air around us was awkward again . Once she regained her breath she opened her mouth to speak .


“…… . . I need you . ”


She finally opened her lips and spoke with a sad voice revealing what she had been hiding all along .


“That can't be considered as the appropriate price to pay . I just needed your trust and faith . ”


“You are turning me into a baseless woman . I'm not able to forget that time yet . When you said that you were going to keep your precious ones, and I was surprised when the < Revision of Truth > said that what you spoke were true . I want to enter the circle of people that you care about . So I'll change my question . I know that the kids have been with you since the beginning, how can I put my trust into you right now?”


“Trust and faith can not be made in such a short time . I sense a little of urgency in this and I know that you feel this too . So, what is it that you really wanted to say?”


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I said that, but I was almost guessing why she suddenly acted like this . Simply put it, she was still suffering from the trauma of that day . And what happened shook her trauma, and now she was confused . She was afraid, but her heart wanted to take a chance by trusting once again . And there thoughts were making her impatient .


“For you, player Jung Ha Yeon doesn’t have much worth . If that is correct, then there is only one thing that I can give you now . ”


“Player Jung Ha Yeon . ”


She replied in a low voice at me calling out her name .


“Not as a player but as a woman . This is the last thing that I have which I can provide you . ”


After listening to her words, I just stared into her eyes . She was also looking at me and her pupils weren’t shaking . There was silence for a while, and I got up from my seat immediately .


“Well, I am a man before a player, and I do like woman . And it is basic according to me . But . ”


I was a little out of words as I was tired .


“And without any reason, you're not a man who just touches any other woman . ”


“I didn’t say that……”


I didn’t speak with that intention . And she still couldn’t give me the answer that I was waiting for . And even before her words were over, I turned my head . And added one word .


“I'm disappointed . I've to get back . ”


And in that moment .




As I tried to move towards the door, her low cry caught my attention .


“… . Are you thinking of me as a woman who does it with every man?”


I saw her crying and then just turned away after sighing .


“You're words are certainly off the point . I know that you're not such a woman, but be honest, you just embarrassed me . ”


At my concluding words, she looked at me with a conflicting expression . But the confliction wasn’t for long . And within a short time, I could see her mouth open slowly .


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“Yoo-Jung said that I don't know anything about you, but I feel like I know you pretty well . I've been listening to your story of you helping the kids to practice all the time . You are so much like him . The leader in the Rite of Passage, leading a group of people . forst place in Player Academy . And received an offer from the Golden Lion Clan . But from the moment you rejected their offer and started to move with the kids, your path was different from him, you were different from him . ”


“Then, you think of me as a substitute for him . ”


When I said that, Jung Ha Yeon shook her head .


“No! But… I'm just tired of being deceived, and being cheated in the Hall Plane . And I couldn’t fool anyone . I could do it, but I didn’t want to do such a despicable thing . So I decided then, I will not be deceived nor will I deceive . ”


I solved one question, this was why she kept inclining to not trust . I turned back and stood beside her . She put her forehead on my chest only placing a little weight on me .


“However… . Player Kim Su-Hyun is different . You are something different from the regular players of the Hall Plane . Maybe I'm at my limit . After using the < Revision of Truth >, I thought that I have to stay beside you . That this player is the last chance of normalcy that I can find in the Hall Plane . You do want my trust and faith . ”


“… . . that is correct . ”


Jung Ha Yeon who put her forehead on my chest, lifted her head slightly and looked up at me . I also lowered my gaze and met her eyes . I slowly moved my right hand and gently moved her hair . She closed her eyes the moment my hand touched her face . However, her lips didn’t stop moving .


“Honestly, there are still a few questions left . You have such mighty force, you won't be able to delay your death . No, that won't happened . But I won't ask you the questions . I'll just bury them in my heart . ”


“I can answer that part very well . ”


“I have talked to the kids before, and I can form some rough guesses . And there are a few things that have seen with my own eyes . I'm tired of being cheated and I'm afraid of getting hurt . But I'm a woman too . I felt like I was losing myself after I lost my sister whom I trusted the most . ”


“You're expecting something from me, and you can arrest yourself from doing it anymore . ”


At my question, she nodded her head . Confirming her action, I pulled her face back to by embrace and she buried her face into my chest . And at that moment a smile formed on my face .


It was a pity, but she made another mistake . I honestly never expected that Jung Ha Yeon would come out like this . This was the first time that I heard her in such a way . However, this wasn’t a bad thing . There was no need of possible ambiguous belief or trust in the present scenario . If it wasn’t Jung Ha Yeon in this situation, I would have surely advanced on this relationship .


There was nothing that was pulling back on my conscience . I witnessed the death of my colleagues and I chose to come back, and I left them all behind . And I was able to do anything without hesitation for them . I felt something hard in my chest, I took a breath and opened my mouth .


“This seems like a way how a wizard would think . ”


“…… . Something like that . I can give you my faith, and be with stable thoughts . I just a place to relax and someone to lean on . Everything that I said today is so that I can put my trust in you . So…”


She moved onto my body and lifted herself up . Stretching both her arms out, she put them around my neck, and opened her mouth .


“Tonight . I hope Mr Su-Hyun will answer my trust . ”